LET IT BE

AUTHOR'S NOTE

Jay's POV on the events of "False Positive". Belongs to Dick Wolf and NBC.

Let it be he says. Just take the win. But it's not a win. Michael West was innocent of this crime. Granted, he wasn't squeaky clean and he would've died sooner or later, but it shouldn't have been today. Not because of me. This is on me. If I hadn't let the memories of finding Ben Courson. I failed to protect him from Lonnie Rodiger and no one was able to protect those nine-year old boys from Prophet. I failed Ben, and in a way, I feel like I failed those boys. And Voight-I know what he's about, but this….he's changed since Erin's leaving and Olinsky's death. It's like he doesn't even care about at least pretending to play straight anymore. And honestly, I don't know if I can work under him like this. Sometimes I wish Antonio was still here cause I need someone to talk to but he's in Puerto Rico with Gabby. Damn, I just…I don't know what to do. I could let it be I guess. We did end up getting the guy, but only after relying on a faulty tool that was promised to be helpful to us. Let it be. Yeah, right. That's easy for Voight to say. He's not the one who screwed up, I am. I failed. I relied on faulty information and it doesn't matter that I didn't know that the information was faulty. I'm military and I should've checked to make sure there was no kinks in the damn thing. I know better. It's not as easy as Voight says. I can't just…let it be.

THE END