Wesley was sitting in his quarters with something in his hand.

"I don't care anymore. I lost dad, my little brother or sister, our son or daughter and now Kat. I might as well go be with dad like I wanted to for years. I should've done this. Mom has friends here so she'll be fine." he said and took a knife.

Then he put it deep in his arms and got blood to come out. He winced but it felt good. Then he did the same thing to his legs. When he got it out of his right leg he looked at the knife.

"By mom, Kat. I'm sorry." he said then stabbed himself in the chest.

Then it went black and everything was gone.

Riker was heading to his quarters when he heard something.

He looked at the door and saw it was Wesley's room.

"Wesley?" he said and hit the chime but got no answer.

So he opened the door.

When the door opened he froze. On the ground with a knife in his hand and blood everywhere was Wesley.

"My god. WESLEY!" he said and ran to feel a pulse.

He sighed in relief after finding a faint pulse.

"What the hell happened to you kid?" he said quietly shaking his head.

Then he remembered what happened between him and Kathryn.

His eyes opened wide and then picked him up and ran to the Sickbay.

When he got there he caught everyone's attention and they gasped.

"What happened?" someone said while Riker laid him down.

"I know what happened and I'm sure most of you have heard about that." Beverly said then took care of Wesley.

The people that knew nodded.

After she was done she and Riker went to go find Kathryn and bumped into Deanna. He told her what happened and she followed them.

When Beverly found her she was confused. Riker and Deanna were there to.

"Dr. Crusher, what's wrong?"

"Come with me. There's something you need to see and is about Wesley." she said.

"Why should I see him?" Kathryn snapped.

That made it official, they broke up.

"Ensign Snow, you are to come to the sickbay or I'm going to tell Captain and you're going on a different ship." Riker said.

"But-"

"Now!" Deanna said.

She sighed and nodded.

Then they headed to sickbay.

When they got there she froze.

"What happened to him?" she asked covering her mouth.

"After breaking up with him and losing the baby got him to try and commit suicide." Beverly said.

"Why?"

"It made him think of his dad and his younger brother or sister."

"Huh?" they all said about the baby.

"I was three and a half months pregnant when we lost Jack. Wesley was barely five years old and excited to be a big brother. He was going to protect them, play with them and everything. Then when we lost Jack I had a miscarriage. After losing two people he loved in one week he tried to commit suicide. I stopped him by telling him that I would lose it if I lost him to."

Everyone stood there in silence.

"I swore to keep it quiet which is why nobody knew." she continued. "But I can see he's wanted to do this for a long time."

Kathryn looked at Wesley seeing him covered in bandages. His arms, legs and chest were covered in blood.

"When he wakes up we're going to see what happened so that you can find out what you did." Beverly continued.

A few hours later they heard Wesley groan.

Riker, Deanna and Kathryn had stayed there to help Beverly not get scared.

"Wes?" Beverly said.

Then he slowly opened his eyes and frowned.

"I was supposed to die. Not be here." he said.

"Wesley Howard Crusher don't you dare do that again! I told you that I already lost your father and brother or sister and I can't lose you to!" she said crying.

He looked at Riker and Deanna.

"You heard me because you were passing my quarters!" he said to Riker.

"Yes I did and I would never want to lose a family member." Riker said while Beverly called Captain.

A few minutes later he came and looked at Wesley.

"Lieutenant Crusher, are you alright?" he asked.

"Yes sir. I wish I was dead but I'm fine."

"Why on earth would you try and commit suicide?"

"Because Kat broke up with me and I have no point in living anymore. I lost my dad, future brother or sister, future son or daughter and now former fiancé." he said fighting tears he had had for years.

"Wesley, we need to see the memory of what happened earlier." Beverly said.

She could tell he's fighting the tears because he hasn't cried in years, since he lost his dad. Ever since then he's been the fighter for her.

"Fine." he said then froze to see Kat.

They looked at each other in silence while Beverly got the memory.

"Alright, let's see what happened." she said then hit it.

They watched what happened and saw why they broke up but Kat now knew why, he had lost control of himself and a new ensign had pulled him onto her and undressed him.

Then they saw him in his quarters with a knife.

"I don't care anymore. I lost dad, my little brother or sister, our son or daughter and now Kat. I might as well go be with dad like I wanted to for years. I should've done this. Mom has friends here so she'll be fine." he said and took a knife.

Then he put it deep in his arms and got blood to come out. He winced but it felt good. Then he did the same thing to his legs. When he got it out of his right leg he looked at the knife.

"Bye mom, Kat. I'm sorry." he said then stabbed him in the chest.

When it went away the five people were shocked at what they just saw.

"Ensign Snow! I finally know why I felt pain, depression, anger and everything else he had in him." Deanna said. "And now we know why he tried to commit suicide!"

Kathryn winced knowing she was right. It was her fault. Then she looked at him and saw him not looking at anyone.

She walked over to him and looked at him.

"Wes?" she said and got no answer. "I'm sorry. I should've let you explain." He looked at her and she looked at him. "Can we, try this again? Be a couple and fiancé?"

Before she could say anything else she had lips on her. When they let go Wesley looked at her.

"You really think after seeing me try and commit suicide I would say no? You really hurt me thinking I would do that for no reason though." he said.

"I'm sorry." she said and started to cry.

Wesley held her close.

"Shh." he said with her in his arms now and rubbing her back. "It's alright."

That got her to calm down.

"Feel better?"

She nodded.

"Good." he said smiling then looked at Beverly. "Can I get back to work tomorrow?"

Everyone started laughing.

"The old Wesley is back already." Riker said shaking his head.

"It's up to Dr. Crusher not me." Picard said.

"No, I want to keep you here until tomorrow and then see what you feel tomorrow. If you're not sore you can go to the bridge. But that's it for at least a week." she said.

He sighed.

"Fine."

That got everyone to burst out laughing.