So this is my first attempt at an ICarly Fic. After reading many of the Cam Fics available i decided to try one of my own. If you like please review and i will finish this.


Saying goodbye to Spencer and Freddie was incredibly hard but one look at Sam almost killed me. She was standing in a corner and while she had said the least I could see clearly the pain she was feeling. Her once brilliant blue eyes that normally shone mischievously now seemed darker. Looking in her eyes all I could think about was the dark ocean that would soon separate us.

I don't know why the idea hit me but once it did I knew we needed to shoot one last episode. The fans that love our show need to know it can't happen anymore. I hug my Dad mainly so I can hide my face while I try and compose myself.

The show was one of the hardest I have ever done. This show that so many people tune in to see has brought me so much joy over the years. I look over at Sam and can't help but remember our very first show.

As I look at her she looks away and I'm sure I can see a tear in her eyes. Before I can walk over to hug her she has wiped her eyes and is once again watching from the sides. I try to send a reassuring smile but even I know it's false and it falls flat before it reaches her and so instead I turn to my Dad and try once more to smile.

"So Dad, how did you like our show?"

I expected him to respond right away so when he doesn't say anything and looks around the room i start to get nervous. Sam moves by to side for the first time since I told her my plans to leave and I'm grateful.

After what feels like ten long minutes but was most likely closer to one Spencer gently shakes their father and whispers only the Colonel hears.

"Carly and her friends are waiting for you to respond"

"I'm sorry I was just so proud of the girl you have become. This show you have created with your friends is just a reminder of your growth. I honestly wish I had been around more to see it."

He unashamedly wipes a tear from his eye before pulling Spencer aside to talk to him. While he speaks with my crazy Brother I hug Sam tightly stopping her moving away from me. Freddie watches and it's clear he wants to join the hug and I wave him over. Sam pretends to grumble but I see a sad smile form on her face.

When Spencer and My Dad come back to the group I notice Spencer has a different smile on his face. I shoot him a confused stare, in response he shakes his head, his eyes pointing to our Dad.

"I have missed so much of your childhood and Spencer. I missed so much of your life to the point I didn't even know you dropped out of college. I think it's long overdue that I assess what is truly important to me."

My ears hear what is being said and for a fleeting moment I allow myself to hope I can have both my friends and my Dad here with us.

"I'm going to speak with the Air Force and take a leave to spend sometime at home. I have been so focused on my work for the longest time, I don't want to miss anything else."

Before I let him speak another word I hug him as tight as I can. When I let go I pinch my arm as tight as I can. I can hear laughter as I wince in pain.

"This is real? Like really real?" I know I'm not dreaming but I find that I have to ask.

When he nods and smiles I realise there is only one place I want to be. I run to where Sam is standing and throw my arms around her. Hiding my face in her neck I let the tears I've held back all night fall. Once they start I don't see and end and I let Sam hold me up.

"I'm so happy you're staying Cupcake."

When I finally release Sam I notice that we're being watched by everyone and suddenly I feel shy and blush lightly. I move to hug Freddie next and I'm sure it doesn't go unnoticed that his hug is a lot shorter. I know he noticed because his eyes look at Sam and then to me he gives me a sad smile and I'm sure he has guessed what I've known for a long time.

I release Freddie and Spencer opens his arms, I waste no time jumping into them. I feel my tears falling again and wave our Dad to join us.

"If this is a dream let me never wake up" I whisper quietly.

Saying goodbye to my Dad as he left for his hotel that night was hard. In the back of my mind I had this feeling like he would not return if he left. As he walked out of the door promising to return the next day I tried to hide this fear. Sam must have seen right through me. As I sat down on the sofa she sat next to me and held me close.

A part of me wished she would let go since she had no clue what she was doing to me but the other part of me was so thankful she was here. As if reading my mind she smiled and squeezed my hand.

"I'm here for you Cupcake. You want to get some sleep? It's been a long day.

I slowly nod my head and make for the stairs. Sam quickly explains where we're going and to Spencer and Freddie who were watching me leave and then follows.

We change quickly and lay down. In my sleepy and emotionally worn out state I pull Sam closer than we normally lie and without thinking about what I'm saying I whisper "I love you Sam" in her ear and pass out.