A/N: I don't know what this is, but I wrote it while I was procrastinating packing for a move, and it broke my writer's block, so hey. Hopefully it's a little entertaining at least.
Tohru gasps for air and holds his hip in place, digging her nails in, as she comes down from her high. Her muscles jerk and she lets out a soft whine as Kyo releases the flesh of her throat from between his teeth. He breathes heavily next to her ear, then kisses the shell of it as he murmurs declarations of love. As he pulls back a moment later, Tohru throws her forearm over her eyes, trying to settle herself, but she quickly rips that arm away when she hears him speak in a panicked tone.
"Oh no...shit shit shit. Fuck…"
That's...not something you want to hear from a person right after they pull their dick out of you.
"Uh, Kyo-kun?" He snaps his head up, eyes meeting hers. "What's wrong?"
He looks away mindfully, as though debating whether to tell her the truth or to choke out a "nothing, everything's fine!" Quickly, though, he seems to realize that the latter would be hard to pull off after his initial exclamations (and he's never been a good liar anyway, especially not with Tohru) and opens his mouth, cheeks hot.
"The, uh...the condom broke."
Tohru's eyes widen. "Eh?! How?"
Kyo scoffs slightly and runs a hand through his mussed hair, nervous. "I don't know. I wasn't really paying much attention to the condom during...well, you know."
They stare at each other quietly for a moment, four eyes wide, four cheeks red, two sets of lips drawn into tight frowns.
"What should we do...about that?" Tohru asks slowly, pushing her weight up onto her elbows. Kyo glances down, noticing the mess, a mix of both of them, sliding down onto her thighs and cringing at the sight.
"I really don't know. Hell, I never thought I'd even get this far."
"What do you mean?"
He groans and looks up at the ceiling, resting back on his knees.
"I never thought I'd get to have sex, so I'm not really the most well-versed in contraception."
"O-oh…" Considering that up until a few weeks ago, Kyo thought he'd be spending his future locked in a cage, that's fair, really. And, considering that her mother had died when she was only 15, Tohru supposes it's fair that she finds herself in a similar situation when it comes to knowledge of safe sex practices.
"Well, is there someone we can ask?"
He raises an eyebrow and looks back down at her. "Like who?"
"Well, uh." The gears in her mind turn rapidly, running through a list of everyone she knows and trying to decide who might be the most understanding. "Oh, like Master!"
"Tohru," he groans, stretching out her name.
"I'm not...I'm not asking my dad about this!" he splutters. If Tohru wasn't so anxious, she knows she'd very much enjoy the purely flustered look on Kyo's face. Even now, it still makes part of her want to tug him down into a kiss.
"It's not like he'd judge you, Kyo-kun."
"I-I know that, but still!"
She giggles, earning a glare from Kyo. "Okay, okay, I'm sorry."
There's an uncomfortable air between them, one that Tohru doesn't quite know how to handle. A sick feeling rising in her stomach, she spits out, "What about Yuki-kun, then?"
"What?" Kyo promptly buries his head in his hands to hide his heated face. "Tohru, that's worse!"
She holds back a sigh. Nothing she suggests is right, apparently, and he's not exactly making any contributions, himself. "Why? He's our age, I'm sure he's been doing this sort of thing with his girlfriend, maybe they've had a similar problem––" she rambles.
"He already thinks I'm a dumbass 99% of the time. If he knew I accidentally…" he pauses to gulp down the knot in his throat, "came in you, he'd kill me."
Well...again, fair. Uo and Hana would also kill him, so it seems unlikely to Tohru that he'd be willing to ask either of them, as well.
"Well, that leaves…" she says softly, trailing off midway.
Kyo sucks in a deep breath, face still hidden behind his fingers. He spreads them and peeks out at her. "No."
"We don't know very many people as it is, Kyo-kun, and we're burning through the list really quickly."
He grinds his teeth audibly, the sound akin to nails on a chalkboard. It makes Tohru cringe. "I'll do it if you want me to," she suggests.
"What?! No! I-I'll do it. Just give me a sec."
Tohru is silent for a beat before sitting up the rest of the way and leaning forward, gently prying Kyo's hands away from his face. He's spiraling. She can see it. Sometimes, he can still be incredibly self-deprecating when it comes to loving her, and she knows it. She knows it's her job to try and keep it from happening, too. She kisses him all over, leaving light trails of her lips from his eyelids down to his cheeks down to his chin in a seemingly random pattern.
"Hey," she says softly. "Look at me, please."
Kyo obeys, but he ultimately can't hold her gaze for long.
"It's going to be okay."
He breathes in deeply. He takes her cheeks in his hands, and her heart wrenches when she notices his fingers are trembling. "I'm not mad at you or anything, I swear," she adds. "It was just one time, anyway...what are the odds that anything will happen? And...even it does, it wouldn't be the end of the world...right?" She feels the stutter in her voice and hates herself for it. She knows he's crazy about her, knows that they're in this together for life, but still finds herself so nervous about the prospect that he might not want kids with her. Sure, this timing isn't ideal, but he loves her…would a baby be completely unwelcomed in his eyes?
"Mm." He rubs his thumbs in circles along her cheekbones, recognizing that it's now his turn to comfort her. "No, of course it wouldn't be. It would be earlier than I wanted, but not the end of the world," he confirms. Tohru releases the breath she'd been holding.
"I love you," she says after a moment.
"I love you, too. So much." Kyo kisses the tip of her nose, then stands.
He can't help but wince a bit as he tears the surviving bits of the condom away from himself and tosses them into her trash can. Then, he proceeds with his usual post-sex routine, trying desperately to maintain some kind of normalcy to keep his mind calm; she'd be able to see it if he didn't, and he knew she'd worry. He reaches for his discarded sweatpants and t-shirt, yanking them on and into place before grabbing a few tissues from the box on Tohru's night stand. He climbs back onto the bed and kneels between her legs. With still-shaking hands, he wipes at her with the tissues as gently as possible, freezing when Tohru jumps and gasps.
"Still sensitive," she explains, worrying her lower lip between her teeth. His shoulders relax at the knowledge that he hadn't hurt her. "You don't have to clean me up, Kyo-kun. I can do it. You can go talk to him."
Kyo sighs and leans down, kissing the inside of her thigh once before getting off the bed again.
The way down the stairs gives him time to steel his resolve, but once he gets to the living room and sees the person he needs sitting at the table with a newspaper in front of him, he clams up.
"Can we talk?" he asks finally, the crack in his voice making him curse under his breath.
Not even looking up from the paper, Shigure asks coyly, "Did you have fun?"
"Eh––" Kyo tenses up. "What the hell is that supposed to mean?!"
"Other people do still live here, Kyo. You're not very discreet."
Kyo thinks he might be sick.
"Well, that's, uh. That's what I want to talk to you about."
Shigure raises an eyebrow and finally looks at Kyo over his shoulder. "About your sex life?"
He looks just about as nervous as Kyo feels now, actually, and there's something about seeing him so flabbergasted that makes Kyo feel almost strong. Almost––his nerves kick in again after a second.
"No! W-well...sort of. I have a problem."
After a moment of staticky silence, Shigure motions Kyo over. He sits on the other side of the table and fixes his gaze on a random spot on the floor.
"So, um. The condom...just broke," Kyo chokes out.
Shigure chuckles, the sound breathy as he tries to disguise it behind a light cough.
"That's it," Kyo grumbles, making to stand up.
"Kyo, it's just...that doesn't happen much."
Great, so he's one in a million?
"Did you put it on wrong?" Shigure adds.
"I...don't think so. But I also wasn't exactly...paying much attention to that part, either, I guess."
Shigure hums. "If you don't put a condom on properly, it can rub the wrong way and just burst. You need to be more careful."
"Y-yeah, I get that, you stupid dog! But now...now what do I do?"
"What do you mean?"
"You know damn well what I mean!" Kyo shouts, then lowers his voice in fear that Tohru might hear him upstairs and be anxious. "Look...she's not on birth control."
"Oh. Well, just go buy some Plan B."
"I don't really know the specifics of how it works, as I've never been dumb enough to need it, but it's backup contraception."
Kyo ignores the condescending words that Shigure managed to throw in there and stands, actually rather grateful for the advice. The conversation had ended up being a bit less painful than Kyo had imagined it would be.
"Uh. Well, thanks."
"Kyo?" Shigure calls after him. Kyo pauses on the first step of the staircase. "I've heard it's a bit expensive, but obviously not nearly as expensive as a baby, so cut your losses and suck it up."
"Yeah. Yeah, okay."
"Don't you dare make her pay for it."
"Of course not!"
"And be cautious from now on. Even with how in love with each other as you two are, the end of your senior year is not the time to be starting a family."
Kyo just snorts and continues up the stairs.
When he enters Tohru's room again, she's sitting on the bed in one of his hoodies that she'd stolen at some point, and nothing else. Despite the tensity of their current situation, his heart stutters at the sight of her.
"Kyo-kun," she murmurs, her face a fantastic shade of pink as she looks up at him.
"Uh. Yeah? You okay?"
"Mm-hmm. But…" she gestures in front of her. Kyo's eyes shift, landing on his laptop. They'd put it on her bedroom floor with a movie playing, volume turned up in an attempt to muffle the other sounds coming from her room. His eyebrows shoot up as realization sets in.
"We could have, um. We could have just Googled it. I Googled it."
Kyo feels himself deflate, and he sinks to the floor in front of her, leaning his forehead on her thigh at the edge of the bed. She chuckles anxiously and cards her fingers through his hair.
"I'm sorry," she says. "You went through that for nothing."
"It's not your fault. I'm just gonna go to the drug store, 'kay?"
"'Kay," she parrots back. "Do you want company?"
He shakes his head, his bangs tickling her leg. "Nah. This whole thing is because of me. You stay here. I'll be back soon."
"Then will you cuddle me?" she asks hopefully.
He chuckles and picks his head up. He plants a kiss on her knee. "Of course I will."
She shoots him a cheesy grin as he gets to his feet.
"Hey, uh. While I'm gone, don't go downstairs, okay?"
"Uh, okay. But why?"
"Shigure's in the living room. Just...don't go near him.
Tohru giggles a bit and nods.
He opens her bedroom door, only to come face to face with Shigure standing in the hallway.
"Oh, Tohru, dear," he calls in. Tohru squeaks and buries her face in her hands. "I hope our idiotic kitten here didn't traumatize you too badly. If you want, I can have Yuki talk some sense into––"
"I'm going to fucking kill you!" Kyo seethes, fists clenching at his sides. His dominant arm twitches.
"Kyo-kun, d-don't, please!"
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