Hello everyone, welcome to my new oneshot! This time, it's about Thor and Loki. I just watched Thor Ragnarok again yesterday and this idea came to my mind. It's part of my series 'Together, We're Stronger' (consisting of 'Getting To Know You', 'Knowing You' and 'Falling In Love Isn't Always Easy'), but you can also read it alone. Since it belongs to my own timeline of the MCU, the events in Asgard were a little different, but the end is the same. I'm also mentioning what happened again in the first paragraphs so you shouldn't be confused. Just know that Bruce wasn't on Sakaar, but still on earth with the other Avengers and next to the Tesseract, Loki's scepter is also on Asgard.
I really hope you like it, please let me know!
I don't own the characters or places!
When the doors of his quarters closed behind him with a thud, Thor breathed in a sigh of relief. In the past hours since Asgard had been destroyed, he wanted nothing more than to be alone. However, there hadn't been a chance. Decisions had to be made and the people needed a leader. The new king of what was left of Asgard. They needed Thor. It was a strange feeling, being their leader now. Their king.
Heimdall and Valkyrie didn't leave his side after they'd started their journey through space, but they were all drained from the battle and needed rest. As soon as it was settled that they would be heading to Midgard now, Heimdall declared that he would watch over things while Thor should go and rest. After all, he'd just lost an eye. Thor was good at ignoring pain, but at some point, even he couldn't ignore the stabbing pain in his head any longer. He'd accepted Heimdall's offer gladly.
So many things had happened in the past days. Had it just been days? It didn't feel like that. More like a lifetime. After his return to Asgard, he'd found Loki on the throne, disguised as his father. Loki, of whom Thor had thought that he was dead. Whom he'd mourned, thinking that he'd really lost his brother and would never see him again. Whose death had broken his heart for the second time.
Together, they'd travelled to Midgard to search for their father Odin, just to find a sorcerer in a strange building in New York. However, he could help them to find Odin in the end, even if Thor was sure that Loki would have loved to duel this strange man.
He still wondered why his father had chosen Norway out of all places. Yes, it had been quite beautiful there and the place seemed to be special, but otherwise? Asgard is not a place. Never has been. This could be Asgard. It is wherever our people stand. He remembered Odin's words. Most probably, that's why Thor had made the decision to lead his people to Midgard. He knew exactly where they would start their new life. Remember this place. Home.
After Odin's death, Hela had showed up. Hela, their sister they didn't even know existed. She'd destroyed Mjolnir without problems, something both Thor and Loki thought to be impossible. Of course Loki had panicked instead of fighting Hela right there, which led her to Asgard in the end and made Thor and Loki end up on Sakaar.
Luckily, Loki had been able to gain the trust of the Grandmaster while Thor befriended Valkyrie, who'd captured him in the first place, but was a real Valkyrie (which also gave her that name). In the end, the three of them managed to escape from Sakaar together with other prisoners and the biggest ship of the Grandmaster. They arrived at Asgard just in time to fight against Hela and save the people Heimdall had gathered. In the course of that, Thor discovered that his powers weren't depending on Mjolnir and that the hammer had just helped him to focus them.
They were able to defeat Hela, but the price was high. Surtur, whom Thor had defeated to avoid Ragnarök, was released again to destroy Asgard. Since Hela got her power from that place, destroying it was the only possibility to stop her. However, that wasn't everything Thor had lost on that day.
Because Loki didn't return to the spaceship once he released Surtur.
Which meant that he'd still been on Asgard when it had been destroyed.
He'd lost his brother again. This time, there was no way that Loki could come back to him. He'd seen the explosion, no one could survive that. The realization had hit him right after the explosion, when Thor had searched for his brother in the crowd frantically. But he wasn't there with them.
Loki was gone and Thor didn't even get a chance to say goodbye. To tell him how proud he was of his brother. Because ever since they'd arrived on Sakaar, all Loki had done was to help Thor. Sometimes very reluctantly, but he'd done the right thing in the end. He'd accompanied them to Asgard and saved their people. Thor didn't even thank him for that.
Thor never got a chance to tell Loki about his true feelings for him. The feelings he'd denied for hundreds of years.
He'd never told Loki that he loved him. Most probably, the God of Mischief would have just laughed at him, but it didn't matter. He would have gladly endured it if Loki would still be there. If he could see those green eyes once more.
Slowly, Thor made his way towards a small table and poured himself a glass of the liquor. He wasn't sure who'd placed it there, but he suspected that it had been Valkyrie. Only she would think of such things now.
Instead of drinking immediately, Thor looked into the glass silently. The physical pain where his eye once had been was horrible, but nothing compared to the emotional pain he felt when he thought of Loki. He'd thought that he'd lost him before, but every time it happened, it got even worse. How he wished that he could just forget everything...
But he'd seen the price for that, remembering Valkyrie on their first encounters. Was that really something Thor wanted? Drown his sorrows in alcohol? His people needed him. Asgard needed him. So no, it wasn't a possibility. He would just have to endure the pain. Maybe being on Midgard would help to make him forget it, at least for a while. He didn't see the Avengers in quite some time...
With a quiet sigh, he looked in the mirror and touched his eye patch carefully. Somehow, it made him look dark and dangerous. Maybe because he was also still wearing his gear... And the short hair was still unfamiliar. He would have to let it grow again, though it would take some time until it would be as long as it had been once more.
Suddenly, a movement behind him caught his attention. Was he hallucinating now? The pain in his head was strong, but not that much. Or did he pass out without noticing it?
Through the mirror, he could see someone standing right behind him.
It was Loki.
First, Thor was frozen and didn't dare to turn around. He knew what he would see then. Nothing at all. Because Loki couldn't be there. There was no way he could have survived that explosion. Thor had to be hallucinating! Or maybe this was just an illusion...?
He turned around slowly, already preparing himself for the disappointment. However, Loki was still there, standing at the other end of the room and watching him. For a few moments, they both looked at each other silently, taking in the other's appearance. Or Thor looked at Loki since his brother couldn't be there. "It suits you." Loki said, breaking the silence between them.
Thor looked at the small table next to him and grabbed the first thing he could reach. It was the heavy glass cork of the bottle he'd opened. He wasn't sure what to do with it. Maybe throw it at Loki to make sure that this was just an illusion? Or just hold onto it tightly?
"You know, maybe you're not so bad after all, brother." Thor said when he finally found his voice again. His heart was racing in his chest, not sure what to feel right now.
"Maybe not." Loki replied firmly, a small smile on his lips.
"Thank you." Even if Loki might not be really there, Thor just had to get those words out. "If you were here, I might even give you a hug." He added, throwing the glass right at Loki.
He already expected it to fly right through him or to let him vanish, but to his surprise, that didn't happen. Instead, Loki caught it. Which could only mean one thing. Loki was really there, on that ship. He was alive!
For a few seconds, Thor stared at him, but then he felt his lips turn into a wide smile.
"I'm here." Loki said and smiled as well.
That's when Thor couldn't hold back any longer. With long steps, he crossed the room and wrapped his arms around Loki, ignoring his protests. He just had to know that this wasn't a silly dream. Because he still wasn't sure if his imagination was tricking him after everything that happened. But it wasn't. The other man felt warm in his arms and when Thor buried his head on Loki's neck, he could smell his comforting scent, feel the black hairs tickle his face and – most importantly – he could feel how Loki's heart was racing.
After a few moments in which he was frozen, Loki finally relaxed and placed his hands on Thor's back. "I thought you were dead." Thor whispered. "This time for real."
Loki chuckled softly. "You know that you can't get rid of me that easily, Thor."
"How did you manage coming back? The explosion -"
"Didn't harm me in the slightest." Loki interrupted him. "Really, Thor, don't you have any faith in my powers?"
"Even you can't survive everything." Thor muttered and drew back slowly, but just enough so that he could see the trickster's face. He kept his arms wrapped around Loki's shoulders. "I didn't think that you would make it back to the ship in time."
For a few seconds, it looked like Loki was going to laugh at his, but then he sighed. "It was close, that's true." He admitted in the end, though he was still smiling. Most probably to lessen the tension between them. "But I'm here now and that's all that matters."
"Don't you ever do that again!" Thor warned him quietly.
Loki frowned. "You have to be a little more precise, Thor. That could mean lots of things."
Thor rolled his eye. "I mean scaring me!" The words had left his mouth before he could stop them and they both looked at each other silently. Thor thought that he must look just as shocked as Loki. He loosened his grip around the other man and Loki used this opportunity to take a few steps back.
"Why should that have scared you?" Loki crossed his arms and there was a look on his face Thor couldn't quite interpret. He saw curiosity and something else, but he wasn't sure what it was. At any rate not the amusement he'd expected. His brother looked serious.
"Just forget it." Thor muttered and shook his head, regretting those words already. Yes, he'd thought about telling Loki everything, but could he really do it now that the other man was standing right in front of him?
He walked towards his bed and sat down. Suddenly, he was feeling incredibly tired and the headache was getting stronger. Maybe he was hallucinating after all and this was just a very real looking dream. Thor closed his eye.
"Thor?" Yes, it definitely had to be a dream. There was no possible way that this could be concern in Loki's voice. "Thor, are you alright?" This time, the voice was closer and when he looked up again, he saw that Loki was standing right in front of him now, indecision on his face.
Thor gestured for him to sit down on the bed as well, which Loki did after hesitating for a brief second. "You should rest." Loki's voice was quiet.
"I'm fine." He muttered and shook his head. "Just a headache."
Loki's eyes narrowed. "This isn't just a headache." He said sternly. "Did anyone look at your injury yet?"
"There's no need." Thor argued.
"Seems like there is." Suddenly, Loki moved closer to him, a determined expression on his face. "Do you trust me, Thor?" He asked, his voice surprisingly serious.
Thor looked at him in surprise, but then he nodded. "I do." He whispered and meant it.
Instead of saying anything else, Loki's hands moved towards his temples slowly, giving Thor enough time to back away. Just that he didn't want it. When Loki's hands touched his skin, he inhaled sharply. He could feel Loki's magic flowing into him and the pain in his head lessened immediately. Also the aching where his missing eye had been.
When Loki drew his hands back, he was breathing heavily. "I can't do more than that, I fear." He muttered. "The battle has already taken too much of my strength."
"It's fine." Thor whispered. "The pain is gone." He smiled at Loki.
"It should heal properly now." Loki replied. "Honestly, someone should have looked at it as soon as you entered this ship."
"There were other things I had to take care of." Thor said simply. "I'm the leader now, I had to make sure that the people are alright."
"Nevertheless, you shouldn't neglect yourself because of that. Dead, you won't be of any use to them." At Loki's words, Thor flinched. Since they were so close, there was no way that the other man could have missed his reaction. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing." Just that those words had reminded him of the fact that he'd nearly lost Loki again.
"Can we agree to stop lying to each other?" Loki asked, sounding tired.
"Depends." Thor muttered.
"If you think you can manage that." He looked at Loki meaningfully.
The God of Mischief ran a hand through his hair. "Alright, you win. I won't ask again." Suddenly, he stood up. "It's late and we both need rest. I'll look for a room to spend the night."
He turned around to leave, but Thor reached out and grabbed his hand. "Don't go." He said and Loki froze. Very slowly, he looked over his shoulder.
"What do you want from me, Thor?"
"I've missed you, Loki." While saying that, he looked right into those beautiful green eyes.
His brother frowned. "But I haven't been gone for that long."
Thor sighed and pulled Loki towards the bed again where they both sat down once more. He realized that he was still holding his hand, but Thor didn't let go. Surprisingly, Loki also didn't pull back. He just looked at their joined hands with a strange expression on his face.
"I mean before. When I thought you were... gone. I've missed you." Thor swallowed. "I can't lose you again, Loki. That's what scares me. And it hurts, thinking that I've lost you again."
Loki's expression softened. It was a rare thing that he let his guard down. "You're not going to lose me again, Thor. I'm here now, right?"
"That doesn't have to mean anything with you." He muttered. "You've left before. Many times."
"Maybe that was before I'd realized that we're quite a good team?" Loki's lips twitched at his.
"That's what I also wanted to tell you after the battle." Thor said suddenly. "And that I'm proud of you. You made the right choice by helping us. You saved Asgard's people."
"I didn't do it for Asgard." Loki's face was a blank mask now, a sharp contrast to the soft look his face had shown before. Thor wondered what had caused this.
"Then who did you do it for?" Thor asked softly, hoping that his brother wouldn't shut him out again, like he'd done it so often in the past when a conversation became too personal for him.
"If you don't know that, you're even more stupid than I thought." The soft tone of his voice was also gone and replaced by Loki's usual sarcasm.
"Brother..." Thor began, but Loki interrupted him.
"Don't call me that!" He hissed and withdrew his hand from Thor's. Only now Thor realized that Loki didn't call him brother a single time since his return.
"But that's what we are. Brothers." Thor said slowly. "Maybe not in blood, but in everything else."
"No one ever asked if I wanted to be your brother." Loki muttered and turned away from him.
Thor felt a stab of pain in his chest at those words. "Loki..." He said, but then he stopped. Honestly, he wasn't sure what he wanted to tell him in this moment. Did he really never want to be part of their family?
"Don't say anything, Thor. Just forget it." The second time that day, Loki stood up. "I'll just leave. And the next time there's a possibility to leave this ship, I'll be gone for good."
He'd already been about to let his brother just walk away, but at those words, Thor jumped to his feet. "No!" He exclaimed loudly. "You can't just leave!"
Loki turned around once more and held out his arms. "I can and I will." The look on his face made Thor freeze. He'd never seen Loki this... hurt.
"Please don't go." Thor begged and took another step towards him carefully, afraid that Loki would just disappear.
The pleading sound of his voice seemed to startle Loki. "It's better if I just leave." He said again, but this time with less determination.
"Why?" It was a simple question, but Thor couldn't figure out anything else in this moment.
Loki laughed dryly. "Come on, Thor, normally, you're not that stupid. No one wants me here! Not after everything I've done. And you're heading to Midgard. I bet they'll imprison me the moment I set a foot on their planet."
"You're wrong when you say that no one wants you here." Thor argued softly. "You're a hero now. You saved so many people."
"As I said, that doesn't matter to me. I didn't do it for Asgard." Loki sighed.
"I want you here." Thor added and this actually made Loki look at him again with wide eyes. "You can't just leave me again, not now that I just got you back." He hesitated. "I don't know what to do without you, Loki."
Loki stared at him. "You're in more pain than I thought." He said incredulously. "Did Hela do something to your mind?"
Thor raised his eyebrows. "What do you mean?"
"You just said that you want me here." Loki stated. "This must be a mistake."
Thor shook his head and chuckled.
"Are you laughing at me now?" The other man crossed his arms and his eyes narrowed.
"No, I'm not." Thor explained. "It's just... Loki, you always say that I'm stupid, but you're as well when you can't tell how I feel about you."
This seemed to take the trickster by surprise. Loki opened his mouth several times, but no words would come out. His green eyes were still wide and he looked at Thor closely. "Impossible." He said in the end.
Thor took another step towards him. Now they could touch each other if they wanted to. "Tell me, Loki, why don't you want to be my brother?" Thor asked quietly. When Loki didn't answer, he smiled. "I've struggled with it in the past. With the fact that we're brothers. Until we found out that we're not related. Because it would have been so wrong..."
"What are you talking about?" Loki interrupted him.
"I think mother always knew." Thor said suddenly. "She always told me to trust you, no matter what happens."
"You're not making sense. Answer my question now or I'll force you into that bed. You really need rest." Loki muttered seriously.
"I always thought that something was wrong with me. Being in love with your own brother is a bad idea." As soon as those words left his mouth, Thor felt like a big weight had been lifted from his shoulders. "Just that we're not related."
"You... you say that..." Loki stammered and shook his head.
"I love you, Loki." Thor whispered. His heart was beating furiously in his chest and he couldn't help being afraid. What if Loki would reject him now? What if he would laugh at him? But didn't he think that Loki laughing at him would be better than not having him at all mere hours ago?
He expected everything in this moment, but not that Loki closed the distance between them by wrapping his arms around Thor's shoulders and kissed him. First, Thor was frozen in shock, overwhelmed by this turn of events, but then his hands found their way to Loki's back and he deepened the kiss. Loki let out a quiet sigh and Thor pulled him even closer.
Later, he couldn't tell how long they just kissed each other, but when they parted, they were both breathing heavily. "I love you too." Loki whispered. "That's why I never wanted to be your brother."
"To me, you'll always be my brother." Thor muttered. "Though I can of course try to stop calling you that, if it makes you feel better."
"It would." Loki agreed with a smile and ran a hand through Thor's short hair. "It's a shame that your hair is this short."
"You liked me better with long hair?" Thor smiled and pulled Loki towards the bed again. This time, they both lay down and Thor wrapped his arms around the other man. When Loki nodded, Thor chuckled. "I've been planning to let it grow." He told him.
"That's good." Loki whispered and touched Thor's cheek. "So you really want me to stay?"
"This won't be easy, Thor." Loki reminded him softly. "Many people hate me. Your friends the Avengers will be furious when you show up with me on Midgard."
"There's no way I'll let you go again." Thor emphasized. "And besides, I should rather ask you if you want to stay here with us. It could be dangerous." He hesitated. "You know that the Mad Titan searches for the Infinity Stones. We have one of them here."
Loki looked surprised. "You do?"
Thor nodded. "The scepter. We found it the last time I've been on Midgard. Heimdall took it before he left."
"The Mind Stone is here?" Loki asked incredulously. For a brief moment Thor was worried that the stone might tempt his brother once more, but then he saw the uneasiness in his eyes.
"What's wrong?" He whispered.
"Then we'll have two stones here now."
Thor frowned. "What do you mean?"
"The Tesseract." Loki avoided to look him in the eyes while saying this. "I took it while I escaped from Asgard."
"You have the Tesseract?!" Thor asked incredulously.
"When he finds us and gets both stones..." Loki didn't finish that sentence and he didn't have to. They both knew about the consequences this would have. "Maybe I should leave with it."
"No!" Thor exclaimed. "It's safer when you're here with us. We can defend both of them."
"I wouldn't be so sure of that..." There was fear on Loki's face. "You don't know what he can do."
"I'm not afraid of him." Thor muttered darkly. "And I won't let anyone harm you again."
"Then we should make a plan, just in case he'll find us." Loki said immediately. "And we might need a good one."
Thor sighed. "But we won't start planning today. We both need rest." He hesitated. "You will stay, Loki?"
The God of Mischief chuckled. "Are you afraid that I might just vanish again?"
Apparently, the look on Thor's face was answer enough. Loki's expression softened. "I'll stay with you as long as you want me."
"Forever then." Thor whispered and leaned in to kiss him again. Loki responded immediately.
There might be lots of problems ahead of them, but in this moment, that didn't matter. They'd found their way to each other, that was the important thing.
"I love you, Loki." Thor whispered between the kisses.
"I love you too, Thor." Loki replied.
Some time later
"We failed." Thor muttered and Loki placed a hand on his shoulder. "He has one of the stones and most of our people are dead."
"There's still a chance to defeat him." Loki argued softly. "Don't give up hope, Thor. Heimdall should be on Midgard now to warn your friends. And he's got the scepter with the Mind Stone. There is still a chance. And Valkyrie will lead what's left of Asgard to Midgard as well."
Thor looked into Loki's green eyes. "Normally, I'm the optimistic one." He whispered sadly.
"Everyone has weak moments. But you're not alone in this." Loki moved closer to him. "We're in this together, love." The last word wasn't more than a whisper.
Honestly, it was a surprise that they were both still alive. Loki had to use all his strength to create an illusion that would make Thanos believe he was dead. However, it worked. And Heimdall had made it to Midgard with the scepter, even if he'd been injured. Hopefully, he would get a chance to warn the people on Earth of what was to come. Because Loki and Thor couldn't go there yet. They had other plans first.
"Who are you again?" A loud voice interrupted their conversation and they turned around to face the people in front of them. A man from Midgard, a green woman, two others Loki couldn't quite identify as well as a racoon and a tree. Great. Just great.
"My name is Thor Odinson and this is Loki Laufeyson." Thor explained formally. "We're from Asgard."
"Asgard. Never heard of it." The man replied. "I'm Peter Quill, by the way. And these are Gamora, Drax, Mantis, Rocket and Groot. We're the Guardians of the Galaxy."
"Guardians of the Galaxy?" Loki asked. "Never heard of them." He said with a glance at Thor.
"Look, we need a ride. There's somewhere we have to go." Thor said. "Maybe we can borrow your ship?" He pointed at the small spaceship.
"No way!" Peter Quill, who was obviously the captain of this crazy group, exclaimed.
"Where do you want to go?" The racoon asked curiously.
"Nidavellir." Thor replied simply, which earned them incredulous stares.
"He's not joking." Loki said seriously. "It's important."
The Guardians of the Galaxy exchanged looks and started to argue quietly. Loki used the time to take Thor's hand and squeeze it. "It will work out." He whispered.
"And then we'll make Thanos pay for everything he did." Thor added darkly.
"We will." Loki agreed.
They stood there, hand in hand, while the Guardians of the Galaxy discussed what to do now. In this moment, Loki didn't care that they were running out of time. He was just glad to have Thor right next to him. And from the looks Thor was giving him, Loki knew that he was also happy to be together.
So what do you think? Please let me know, that would be awesome! :)
Yes, the ending is kind of a cliffhanger. For those of you who are reading the whole series, I can say that Thor and Loki will return in the next part. Then, they'll meet the other Avengers in my version of the events in Infinity War.