p class="MsoNormal"Harry woke to fingers gently running through his style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanIt was relaxing and Harry had to say that it was a one of the better ways to wake up. He was laying on a naked defined chest after a night of sex. His muscles felt used in a way that he hasn't felt in ages./p
p class="MsoNormal""This is a new braid" Cor tugged gently on the braiding point. "What's it means?"/p
p class="MsoNormal"Harry gave a sleepy glare to his chipper bed partner. "You seriously want to know what it means? Why are you up so early anyways we just went to bed a couple of hours ago."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Force of habit." Car tightened his arm around Harry's waist. "And you're here and I don't want to miss a minute of it."/p
p class="MsoNormal""That's surprisingly sweet." Harry narrowed his eyes. "What do you want?"/p
p class="MsoNormal""Can't I just be happy?" Cor chuckled. "I've finally got you in my bed, in my apartment and in my arms. It's where you should have been 25 years ago."/p
p class="MsoNormal"Harry bit his tongue on the things he wanted to say, about who's fault it was but at this point he was just too relaxed. Maybe he will give Cor this one./p
p class="MsoNormal""Ugh" Harry groaned before moving to stand up. "I had better get dressed. I have a long day today."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Anything in particular?" Cor watched as Harry grabbed the closest shirt pulling it on, not noticing that it wasn't his. It fell to his thighs and Cor was enjoying the sight of him in his clothes. He always had./p
p class="MsoNormal""My parents are coming to town for some reason. Anytime they are together" Harry reached down and grabbed a pair of boxer briefs from the floor to put on. This fit snuggly so they were obviously his. "Nothing good comes of it, let's just say Nifelheim won't be going to war with ANYONE for a very long time."/p
p class="MsoNormal"Harry grabbed his hat putting it on his head before leaning back across the bed to lay a kiss on Cor lips. Something Cor was happily to respond with./p
p class="MsoNormal"BANG. BANG. BANG./p
p class="MsoNormal""MARSHALL, WE HAVE AN ISSUE" was yelled through the door./p
p class="MsoNormal""I ASKED TO BE LEFT ALONE" Cor yelled back before running a hand down his face. Harry pulled away chuckling as he looked for his pants./p
p class="MsoNormal""YOUR WIFE IS LOOKING FOR YOU. SHE LOST THAT DOCTOR GUY." Came from the still closed door./p
p class="MsoNormal""Wife?" Harry stood up from looking under the bed. The betrayal in his eyes as he started taking steps away from the bed, backing up slowly making sure to not take his eyes on his bed partner. He could feel his heartbreaking./p
p class="MsoNormal""Harry its not what it sounds like." Cor stood up walking around the bed and towards Harry with his hands up as if he was a skittish chocobo, silently cursing the guard at the door. He grabbed his boxers and pulled them on, having a feeling he didn't want to be naked for this conversation./p
p class="MsoNormal""Not what it sounds like, really Cor and you expect me to believe that?" Harry stepped backwards making his way towards the balcony. He could barely hear the pounding on the door over the beat of his heart./p
p class="MsoNormal"Harry kept stepping back until he felt the balcony rail at his back. "This is why isn't it?" Even in the open air he could feel the area closing in on him. He breathes deeply hoping to stave off the panic attack. He hadn't had them in years./p
p class="MsoNormal""Why what Harry?" Cor stepped closer feeling better knowing Harry couldn't go any further back. The way he was breathing, looked like he was on the edge of a panic attack. Cor hoped he didn't pass out but was willing to catch him if he did. He always wanted to be there to catch him./p
p class="MsoNormal""Why you never came for me. It makes so much sense now" Harry couldn't stop the sob from coming out. "Every fucking time we got together we either ran into each other or I came to you to help for my heats. Never once did you come for me. What was I Cor huh, a pity fuck? An easy lay? WHAT WAS I?" Harry couldn't stop the scream from leaving his throat./p
p class="MsoNormal""Neither Harry, I swear it." Cor pleaded "You were neither." He stepped softly hoping Harry wouldn't lash out. He just really needed to hold him. He hadn't known Harry had felt like this, but he should have. He had let his relationship with Harry down for too long./p
p class="MsoNormal""I have been in love with you since we were 15, Cor. It's why I agreed to marry you to allow you to join the Crownsguard. I knew even then that you were always it for me." Harry wrapped his arms around his waist, his head dipped down as tears streamed down his face, his hat hiding what it could./p
p class="MsoNormal""Harry" Cor reached out to pull him into a hug./p
p class="MsoNormal""DON'T TOUCH ME" Harry screamed pushing Cor away with his foot boosting himself on the ledge of the balcony./p
p class="MsoNormal""Harry, I" Cor stood up clenching his fists at his side. He hated talking about his feelings, but he had to. He hadn't realized he had let his relationship with Harry deteriorate this bad. He really didn't like an upset Harry on the ledge either. "Please get down. Please. We can talk about this."/p
p class="MsoNormal""You know I could understand the job and secrecy. I may not have always liked it, but I understood. And when you stopped showing, I made excuses. 'Oh, he's busy. Oh, the war is going on' but you know Cor even in the middle of nowhere we get the news. It wasn't hard to see the girl on your arm at banquets and dances as the one you sent me half naked pictures of at 21. By then we were already fucking, and I thought hey you know I can be ok being second fiddle. But you know what Cor. I'm not. I wasn't okay with it then and I sure as fuck am not okay with it at 42. I deserve to be someone's first choice for once."/p
p class="MsoNormal""Harry, it's not like that." Cor squeezed his fists again. "I swear it's not like that." He could only repeat himself, hoping that Harry could hear the sincerity of his voice. He knew Harry wouldn't let him close to him, but he wanted him away from the ledge./p
p class="MsoNormal""I love you, but I can't do this anymore. I have nothing more to give." Harry gave a sad smile as he braced his hands on the balcony. "Goodbye Cor." With a push he rolled over the edge and began a free fall over the side./p
p class="MsoNormal""HARRY" he heard from the above./p
p class="MsoNormal"Harry spread his arms out and laughed as he felt the wind under his body./p
p class="MsoNormal"He felt free./p
p class="MsoNormal"Feeling something coming at him Harry grabbed his hat and turned to see a sword appear next to him in a sparkly of blue magic./p
p class="MsoNormal"em'Warping' /emHarry thought before the angry face of Cor appeared. Harry didn't have a chance to blink before strong arms wrapped around him, pulling him close. Another blink and Harry were back on the balcony wrapped in the arms./p
p class="MsoNormal""What the" Harry struggled to get out of the arms, only to feel them tightened around him. "Cor what the"./p
p class="MsoNormal""Give me a minute" Cor tucked the smaller man in his neck breathing in the scent of home. "I just need a minute."/p
p class="MsoNormal"Harry tentatively wrapped his arms around Cor's waist relishing in the feeling of safety and hating himself for it. For all the mans faults he was still Harry's best friend as sad as it was. Even heartbroken if he needed a moment, he would give it to him./p
p class="MsoNormal""I love you Harry" Cor whispered into his hair. "I have loved you for a very long time and I realize I should have treated you better but please don't kill yourself."/p
p class="MsoNormal""I wasn't killing myself" Harry muttered into the neck watching in interest at the dark love bites on the strong neck that he had put there hours earlier. "I was able to get out of the fall, I do it all the time."/p
p class="MsoNormal"Cor tightened his arms holding Harry closer. The sight of Harry falling scared him more than being on the front lines did. The thought of him not being there was the worst thing he felt in a long time. If he did it all the time Cor was sure he didn't want to know what else Harry got up to./p
p class="MsoNormal""I don't have a wife" Cor whispered into Harry's ear, leaning down to do it. "I have only ever been married to or loved you. I've only ever slept with you. I swear on my grandfather's grave. I would never disgrace you like that."/p
p class="MsoNormal"Cor pulled back bringing him hands up to cradle Harry's face, using his thumbs to wipe away the tears, hating himself for causing them. "And if you still have me, I will spend the rest of my life making it up to you."/p
p class="MsoNormal""I need to think" Harry pulled himself out of Cor's arms. He was saying all the thing Harry had wanted to hear, and he really hoped he was being honest. But in his arms, feeling the warm body heat against his, Harry just couldn't emthink. /em/p
p class="MsoNormal""I'll keep in touch" Harry said, pulling himself away from Cor's arms, his body. Harry felt like he was leaving his home. With a tip to his fingers to his forehead in a mocking salute Harry pulled his magic and disappeared in a silent apparition./p
p class="MsoNormal"He had to get out of there./p
p class="MsoNormal"span style="mso-spacerun: yes;" /spanHarry reappeared in an apartment in what was called Little Galahad. He laid down on the couch crying for all that he lost, but even more. What he could emgain./em/p