The song is by Rushlow and I don't own the song or the group. I did change one bit of wording in the song to fit the story.
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Shalimar lay silently watching the man sleeping next to her. She was extremely happy that the Dominion had asked for her and Jesse to go on this mission together. She had longed to tell him her ultimate feelings. That she really wanted him and not Brennan. And this mission had given her the chance not to only tell him but, also to show him how she really felt. She had tried in the past but, always felt that he liked Emma and then when Lexa came on the scene she could see that he was attracted to her so she was afraid to let him know for fear that he didn't feel the same way.
So, finally she mustered up all her courage yesterday and let her feelings out.
"Jesse can we talk?"
"Sure Shal, what's up?"
"I don't know how to say this to you. But, I'm going to give it a shot and I don't want you to say anything. Just listen to what I have to say and when I'm done it'll be up to you whether I stay or go.
This might come as quite a shock But, I've given it a lot of thought And this thing that's come between us Can't be ignored I've taken all I can This is where it's gotta end 'Cause I can't be your friend anymore
And I can't be accused Of not being there for you How many nights have you shown up at my door I hope you understand That this wasn't in my plans But I can't be your friend anymore
"Jesse I care about you so much and you know I've always been there for you. You are the closest friend I have. We've known each other for so many years. I can tell you want to say something right now but, you have to let me finish or I may never have the courage to finish. Remember when you'd steal into my room at night because you couldn't sleep because some girl had broken your heart. How many times I was there to wipe away the tears and to make you laugh until we both fell asleep snuggled closely together. Or when Emma died and Adam had disappeared wasn't I there for you Jesse. Couldn't you see how I really felt? Or did I hold it in better than I thought?"
And it's killing me to know you Without having a chance to hold you And all I wanna do is show you How I really feel inside You can run to me, you can laugh at me Or you can walk right out that door But I can't be your friend anymore
"Jess you may be thinking that we have held each other and comforted each other multiple times. But, not the way I really wanna hold you and not the way I really want to show you how I feel. I feel so much love for you. I want to wrap my arms around you. I want to feel your lips on mine. Your tongue in my mouth and your hands on my body. I want you to love me and I'm so scared that you don't."
So baby, now it's up to you Do I win or do I lose Will my heart fly or lie broken on the floor Oh, take me as I am 'Cause I want you to be my man But I can't be your friend anymore
Jesse just looked at her and didn't do anything at all. So Shal got up and started to walk away from him. When suddenly she felt him grab her arm. She turned around and was met by him leaning into her and kissing her lips melting away all her fears in that one second. She finally got the answer she wanted for so long.
But I can't be just friends anymore We can't be just friends anymore
No now they would be so much more. And Shal could never again doubt his love for her. Now the only thing to figure out was how it would affect Brennan and Lexa. But, they could worry about that later. Right now she was going to make love to Jesse as if tomorrow were never coming.