A/N: Hmm… not sure what to think of this fic. Seems very depressing reading it over, actually, but please review and tell me what you think. A lot is open to interpretation, this is intentional so pleasedon't yeah, I don't own any Harry Potter people.
Smile while you can. Four simple words that are meant to make you smile but instead make you think about what it will be like when you can't. For simple words that make you think, and thinking makes you remember.
It makes me remember all the people whose death I have caused. Sirius, my parents, the Weasleys, Hermione, Moony, Dumbledore… But I want to remember them, I could never forget.
Sirius once told me to smile while I still could; I think he knew what was coming. He knew that Voldemort would follow up on his promise.
I was at Moony's house with Sirius when he made that promise. It was the beginning of the summer vacation and Moony was asleep. Sirius and I were trying to stay awake all night eating junk food and watching/making fun of bad muggle romance movies. I fell asleep on his shoulder when Voldemort came to me. He vowed to kill everyone I loved, everyone I ever cared about. I woke up screaming, and I couldn't calm down until morning when Moony had the sense to call Ginny over.
Ginny. I loved her more than I could ever express. She is the reason I was able to kill Voldemort. She is the reason I was able to kill the lifeless corpse, lying at my feet, staring back at me with that look of shock with his haunting eyes…
I take my eyes off Voldemort and look around. I am the only one still standing, everyone else was either smart enough to apparate away or brave enough to stay and get killed.
I look to my left and see Tonks. A wave of sadness washes over me, but I know this is how she wanted it. She hadn't been happy since years ago, since Moony was alive. She only kept herself alive because she wanted to be there for me. I look into her eyes and see… a mix of emotions; it is difficult to distinguish one from another.
I know I don't have much time left, I'm slowly dying from the gaping wound in my stomach, but I don't care. I'll get to see everyone again…
"Oh Merlin, I love you Harry" Ginny had said, laughing in the pile of leaves we had gotten ourselves into. "Wait… what did I just say? I'm sorry I have to go…"
Ginny, I love you. I love you more than anything, more than I could ever tell you. You are my reason for living. Ginny Weasley, will you marry me?
I am brought back to reality as I remember the day she, Ron, Fred, and Moony died. George had committed suicide the next day, followed by his wife Angelina. Ginny wasn't supposed to die; it was supposed to be me.
I can feel it, I know I'm dying. I collapse on the ground, to weak to stay standing any longer. It starts to rain, and raindrops as well as tears fall down my face. Ginny loved the rain, and so did Moony and Sirius. Ginny could never see rain without smiling to herself.
Tears still running down my face, I let a small smile form on my face and say "Ginny, I love you." As consiousness starts to slip away from me.
A picture is worth a thousand words… my last conscious thought as I look around myself, seeing only death and destruction in the gray world I am slowly fading away from…