Chapter 13: home again?


They were waiting for me. Inuyasha and his friends I mean. They had agreed to take me to Kagome's well to see if I could finally go home.

But I wasn't ready to go yet…for two reasons…

1. I hadn't said goodbye to Sesshomaru yet

2. Rin refused to let go of my leg…

"Rin, you have to let go!" I said, trying to shake her off of me as I rushed all over the castle looking for the demon Lord.

"But I don't want you to go!" she wailed, "If you go then Rin will be all alone!"

I stopped and stroked her hair.

"Rin. You will never be alone. Even if I go you will still have Sesshomaru, you will always have him," I promised her.

"He doesn't play games with me like you do!" she cried.

She let go of my leg to wipe the tears out of her eyes. I took that moment to scoop her into my arms and give her a comforting hug.

I felt torn in two. I wanted to stay here with Rin more then anything and watch her grow up as the big sister figure. But back in my time I had a sister that would probably be worried about me, and I didn't want to miss out on her growing up either.

Why can't I have them both! This is so not fair!

"I love you Rin," I whispered in her ear, "You are like a sister to me and I will never forget you no matter what!"

She sniffed and looked at me, her big brown eyes were red and puffy, "Promise?"

I gave her my biggest smile, "I promise."

She smiled back at me. "Did you say goodbye to Lord Sesshomaru yet?"

I shook my head, "do you know where he is?"

She brought her finger to her chin and tapped it as she thought.

"He is most likely in library," she said.

With one last hug I went off to search for him.

Locating the library is a lot harder then I thought that it would be! So many doors…

I did find it though. When I opened the doors I was shocked to find three floors of shelves filled with books and parchments.

Of course he had to be ALL the way up on the top. I could see his tall figure leaning up against a bookcase, flipping through the pages of some random book.

"Sesshomaru!" I called up to him.

He immediately looked down at me as if asking me with his eyes 'what'?

"Come down for a minute would you?"

Now like any normal person, I expected him to take the stairs. So excuse me for being a little shocked when he suddenly jumped over the railing.


My eyes widened in surprise when he landed softly beside me, not a hair out of place.

…damn his hair!…may it and its niceness burn in hell for all off eternity!

"What is it?" he asked.

"I wanted to say goodbye. I'm leaving with Inuyasha to go to the well. Kagome uses it to-"

"I know."


Had he been listening in on our conversation?

Somehow that just so would not surprise me…

Men! It didn't matter what era you were in! They are always so nosy!

After a long period of extreme awkward silence he decided to speak.

"Are you not leaving now?" he asked.

My cheeks flushed, "well you could at least say goodbye," I mumbled.

"Have a good trip," he smirked.

The nerve of that little… ARGH.

Ignoring the strong desire to punch him for being so insensitive I just turned and walked out of the door.

"Good bye Sesshomaru," I whispered once I was out the door, "I'll miss you. Always."


I watched her go. Her shoulders were slumped in defeat as she slowly left me alone. Just as I turned around I heard something. Something that was so quite I could barley hear it. Using my demon instincts I listened closely.

"Goodbye Sesshomaru, I'll miss you. Always."

I clenched my fists.

I thought that by having her leave my heart could go back to being stone cold.

I didn't realize that by leaving…she would be taking my heart with her.