35A/N: okay this story started out based kind of on me, but I changed a lot of it on me. The plot idea is still the same; I thought of it one night and like it. I'm most like Mai from the show, as I'm the only girl duelist I know. And I was thinking people think I'm this hard exterior person when they see me, but I'm really not inside. So I thought to apply it to Mai. THEN I thought to add in a little Joey thing and make it a romance. Which is easy too cause the guy I have a crush on is short and quiet and most girls wouldn't really think to look twice at him. Figures, me who everyone thinks is a tough Goth girl has to like him, god…well that's where the self-hate comes in. Wow I'm really rambling. Just wanted to explain my thought process. So maybe you'll appreciate the story more and learn something about me! Like you care…actually some stuff is like me and some isn't so you won't really know…Rambling, right? Okay well this is just a preview and I wanted to know how everyone liked it, should I continue, all that fun stuff. DON'T YELL AT ME FOR IT BEING SHORT! It's called a PREVIEW! So help me out here and give me some ideas, or tell me you hate it either one. Shutting up now…. oh yes and it's Mai's Point of view.
I have feelings too
Preview
Mai's P.O.V.
I sit in my room; my mascara runs down my face.
"I am so weak!" I cry to myself, punishing myself as I lie face down on my bed, muffling my cries. I live in a small apartment by myself, but I am sure even the smallest noise will send a whole army to my door to see what is the matter with tough girl Mai.
I try to sort out my thoughts, and figure out why I am crying in the first place. I can't remember. I crawl under the covers of my dark purple bedspread and cry myself to sleep.
"Hey Mai!" Someone calls behind me. I turn my head nonchalantly to see Duke. I smirk. He will never let up. Ever since Serenity had started seriously dating Kaiba, the bastard, Duke had turned his unrequited attentions to me. I will only admit to myself that I somewhat like his flattering nature, but I am only interested in one, and his name is not Duke Devlin.
"Yes, Devlin?" I call. He walks up, flipping his hair in an attempt to impress me. He has not yet learned that being vain isn't a way to a girl's heart.
"I was wondering if-" He started, before I rudely interrupt him.
"Sorry Devlin, same answer as always." I reply, and with that I hike my bag higher on my shoulder and saunter off to my next class, art. For school, this isn't a bad class, as we never have homework, and I don't have to listen to some teacher talk my ear off for a whole hour. I take this class mostly for this purpose.
All my classes are somewhat scattered, as professional duelists don't need an education. I don't know why I stick in school. It might be that I have nothing better to do, or it might be a certain blond haired reason. I look around, suspicious that someone might know who I'm talking about and laugh.
I don't know when or why I first noticed him. We'd been friends for a while, but when I turned around, I realized I had fallen for him. I can actually pinpoint the day, he gave me this spectacular smile, and I've started noticing little things about him. The way he dresses for example, and the way he will do anything for his friends is so sweet. Agh! There I go getting all mushy again. That happens nowadays waaay too often for my liking. I slam my fist on the table.
"What the fuck are you staring at?" I yell at the nearest person, who scurries off to get more paint. I smirk. I like the effect I have on people. It makes me feel powerful, even though inside I know I'm weak. This I know for a fact.
Those that are powerful don't fall for people like Joey Wheeler.
A/N: I wanted to end it there; it just seemed like an ending sentence. Plus I was tired, and my green day cd had just ended. So leave me a little note called a review and I'll be happy, even if I don't get the new 9 Inch Nails cd next weekend…sigh…Trent Reznor is so hot…well I like the music too obviously. RAMBLING k I'll be quiet. Just skip to the bottom now if you don't feel like hearing me talk. Well I'm gonna be quiet now anyway cause I have to go. Bye! (Whispering) don't forget to review!