Author: Margarita

Email: margarita782

Category: Liz angst, slight M/L romance.

Rating: R

Disclaimer: Unfortunately, Roswell and all of the characters from the show do not belong to me. "In the End" is by Linkin Park, and all lyrics belong to them.

Author's Note: The first part of this is taken directly from the episode "Harvest." All lyrics are in italics. Parts of this piece take place in the future; note the dates at the beginning of the chapters.

Spoilers: "The End of the World," "Harvest."

Summary: Liz deals with the aftershocks of her promise to future Max.

Warning: Character death.

*It starts with one thing...*

November 2000

"Max, look. There's just...there's nothing left to say."

"Except the truth."

"We have already been through this!"

"So far, all I know is what I saw, and what I saw can't be true, because it means everything I felt in my heart for the last year is a lie! Now, you owe me an explanation, and I want it right now!"

"Please quit shouting, Max. You're scaring me."

"That's a lie, too! You're not scared. You're hiding something."

I willed myself to sound believable. "I'm not."

"What the hell is going on with you, Liz? We never lied to each other, never kept a secret from each other."

"You know, you have got me up on this pedestal, Max, and…I'm not this perfect person. I made a mistake. Look, Kyle and I made love. The end. I'm sorry."

God, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.