Meredith sat outside Seattle Grace Hospital, in the rain crying. This is my life. She thought tears streaming down her face. It sucks. Everything bad happens to me. It's like I'm a giant misery target.

Meredith jumped slightly as she felt a hand softly touch her shoulder. She looked up and saw Dr. Derek Shepard standing over her. She wiped her eyes and stood up.

"What do you want?"

I came to see what was wrong I saw you out here and you looked really upset." Derek emphasised.

"Why do you care?" Meredith snapped.

Derek just looked at her Meredith willed herself to stay were she was and not be seduced by those magnificent eyes.

"I'm exhausted. That's what's wrong. I am exhausted from work. I'm exhausted from my mother. A mother that barely remembers who I am and when she does I am still 8. And you are exhausting me. Hating you. Out of all these things hating you is the most exhausting."

Tears welled in Meredith's eyes. She had to do it. She may never get to do it again. She kissed him. Slow and hard on the lips, and then she ran.

She got to the intern locker room and saw Izzy, Christina, George and Alex sitting down heads in hands.

"Izzy... george. c..c..Can we g...go please. I really need to get out of here." Meredith was now struggling to stop herself from bursting into tears.

"Umm… yea. Sure Mer lets go." Izzy said looking bewildered.

They got up and walked out to the car. Izzy saw Derek standing there.

"Mer?"

"Meredith. Please."

Meredith just pushed past him and got into the car. Doesn't he get it? Meredith didn't understand. It's his fault and I am just meant to forgive him?

They reached the house and George directed Meredith inside.

"Thanks guys." She said. "But I think I'm going to bed."

Meredith shuffled up the stairs and into her room. Putting on a large t-shirt she got into bed. This isn't mine. She looked down at the shirt and realised that it was Derek's. She couldn't hold back any cried.