A/N: Ok, this is going to be the last chapter, BUT I am going to make a sequel. So, don't kill me for the way this ends because it will be continued in a sequel, where you will find out the fate of... well, I don't want to give too much away. Thank you for the wonderful reviews, I love you all! Frog Disease: Yes, you can have a sugar cookie with lotsa frosting and sprinkles StrugglingArtist: Thanks for the support as always, you rock lyokofan30: Thanks Ok, I'll let you read the last chapter of Learning to Love now... ducks for cover
Disclaimer: You'd think we'd get this by now. Medoesn't own. Rainmine, Song in this chaptermine... alright I think that's it.
Rain's POV
I looked at Yumi. Her words were true, but the worst could wait. I ran towards Odd and dropped beside him. I gathered him in my arms.
"Odd, you should've called for help or something. Please wake up." I begged. "You got hurt because of me. You should've listened. You should've listened to me when I said to distance yourself from me. This wouldn't have happened."
"Rain, don't torture yourself. It isn't your fault alright. Don't blame yourself."
"It's my fault." I repeated, devastated that this had happened.
"Rain, XANA would've attacked him regardless if he knew you or not." Ulrich said. I was breaking again. I'd started to heal and... and XANA just made me break again. I hated... no not hated, I loathed him, now more then ever. I held Odd against me possessively, as if willing him to be perfectly fine. I felt a cool liquid burn my cheeks. I'm so weak... I thought furiously and fiercely brushing the tears away.
-Why do you pass judgement before you know someone?-
I felt Odd's hand twitch and his eyes fluttered open. "Rain?" he asked me.
"I'm here." I said, hugging him tightly as if he'd disappear in a gust of wind.
"It isn't your fault. You and XANA are not connected no matter what you think. He and you are not the same. He possessed Jim, not you. Possessed-Jim threw me into the tree and knocked me unconscious, not you. Luckily, the tower was deactivated before he got too far away." Odd looked over to the still unconscious Jim.
-How can you all be so unfair?
Is this where society is heading?-
"It's still my fault..." I muttered.
"Under what logic?" Yumi asked.
"My logic, the logic you all fail to recognize."
"Logic that isn't logical is no logic at all." Aelita said strongly.
"You're not going to do anything drastic... are you?" Odd asked, and the way he said it just broke my heart. I couldn't look him in the eyes. I was planning to eliminate the threat of XANA by killing myself...
"Rain..." Odd said softly. I closed my eyes, and tried to keep the tears from falling, but I failed, and quite miserably at that.
-Do you even really care?-
"Please tell me you weren't planning to..." he trailed off. My grasp on him slackened and I stood up.
"Of course not..." I tried to be convincing, but my voice shook with tears and my tone was far from truthful.
Odd shakily stood and walked over to her, the others stood back, not sure exactly what to do...
I fearfully glanced at him over my shoulder, and I couldn't take the look on his face. It was like my heart was in a shredder. I bolted swiftly from the scene, tears streaming from my eyes, and falling behind me, unable to keep up with my speed. When am I gonna stop running?
I collapsed in an open part of the forest and just cried. I hadn't really cried in a while, and certainly not to this degree. How much can a heart break until it completely shatters and is unable to be put back together, the pieces undistinguishable between the others?
-Do you expect to truly know anything
When the things you tell are lies
You light your kerosene
And set fire to the things you despise-
Odd's POV
This can't be a good thing, not at all. More than anything in the whole world, I feared Rain would do something drastic. Even more, I feared that I wouldn't be there in time to save her. I ran after her without thinking twice, but, due to the stupid XANA attack, I barely had the strength to stand. I ended up on the ground and before too long, lost sight of her. Tears threatened to fall. I couldn't think of a life if Rain were gone. I loved her...I mean, I love her.
-Look me in the eyes
I know something's not right
Don't tempt me with your lies
Don't pass judgement on me, alright?-
Rain, please, where ever you are, please don't do anything drastic. I prayed. If there is a God, I hope he hears me.
'She's in emotional turmoil, Odd. You have to understand that.' That's what Yumi said to me. Well, now it seems she's in more, and she needs someone with her, she shouldn't be alone. Not now, not ever.
-I can tell, I'm not blind
These things you do are covers
You don't want anyone to see the way you hide
Why don't you open the doors wide-
The others caught up with me.
"Did you lose sight of her?" Yumi asked quietly.
I solemnly nodded and hoisted myself up to a standing position.
"Let's search for her." Aelita said worriedly. We all agreed, even Jeremie.
-You just don't want the judgement-
Rain's POV
Emotional turmoil. I'd heard the term describe me before. It couldn't describe me any better. I can't allow them to get hurt because of me. I can't risk it... I stood unsteadily and walked through the forest, back towards the school, where I'd hidden my only weapon. Is this really who I am anymore? I sighed, I guess ever since I let reality hit me I haven't been the same... I was always in that protective happy shell...
-Don't want to endure the pain-
I walked into the Kadic Academy school grounds without a second thought. Dazed, I walked to my room, my feet leading me automatically. I unlocked my door as if on autopilot and steered towards my bed. I sat down and breathed deeply. As scared as I felt, I also felt it was for the best.
-Us humans are pathetic
And so many others, vain-
Is it really for the best though? I mean... what about Odd? My mind argued with itself.
He'll move on... I became unsure as my hands searched for the my mother's blade. It had a wolf engraved in the wooden handle. For a moment... I just stared at the blade.
-Look me in the eyes
I know something's not right
Don't tempt me with your lies
Don't pass judgement on me, alright?-
My mind made up itself and before I realized what was happening, the blade came into contact with my skin and harshly bit into it. Unconsciously it came back down to make another incision. I bit my lip. Is it really for the best?
Odd's POV
Please... please be alright. I pleaded in my head. We'd searched the whole forest, so now we ran-well, I limped-to Kadic Academy, the only place we could think of that we'd go.
Please, dear God or someone just let her at least still be alive. I pleaded in my mind, preparing for the worst as we went up the stairs, ignoring people's indignant comments if we bumped into them.
Learn to Live
Don't give up on yourself
Let the ones you love in
Don't push them away
We reached her door, and I quickly fumbled with the doorknob then threw the door open.
Rain's POV(Minute's before the others arrival)
The world began to slip in and out of focus, my arm, by now, soaked in my own blood. I felt lightheaded, but strangely at peace. I'm dying to protect my friends. And people always said that it was just an expression. I laughed slightly at the irony. I'm sorry Odd... My world started to fade, until I was consumed in a darkness so intimidating, yet so comforting...
-Don't let yourself go
You're loved more then you know
Let the one's you love know
Don't push them away and don't let go
Look me in the eyes
I know something's not right
Don't tempt me with your lies
Don't pass judgement on me, alright?
Just learn to live and live well...-
A/N: ducks and covers under desk DON'T KILL ME! Really, it's all planned out... it really is! I am going to make a sequel so I decided to end Learning to Love here, and start Learning to Live. So, it'll all work out. So don't kill me, cause I have the power to save Rain. Ok. Well, that's the end of Learning to Love. Watch for Learning to Live, where Rain's fate will be decided. Now I will take time to acknowledge my dedicated and loving reviewers, without your reviews to motivate me, this story probably never would have continued, so thank you so very very much. I hope you enjoyed this, and I'm sorry if you didn't... but I hope that you did. I finished my first full day of exams and survived, so I figured I'd celebrate and write more. So there you have it... I'll go get to work on Learning to Live, coming soon to a computer near you.