Millie Thompson sat up in her bed, she just couldn't sleep. She looked at the ceiling for a while, but she knew exactly what was keeping her awake. 'I'll just get this over with.' She quietly reassured herself and started writing:
The world can be so cruel sometimes. So, I'm used to just making everyone around me think that I'm just an absent minded girl. That way they'll leave me alone and won't expect too much from me.
It was just a year ago when you left me; you were the only one I wanted to be with. You were the one that I needed to be with! Although I try to move on, I can't.
Even though I love you, I also hate you. You promised you'd be back! You told me to wait for you, and I did. Even after everyone told me you weren't coming back, I waited. You had to come, you promised!
Remember what happened after you killed Zazie? You were in your room and I came in with sandwiches and coffee for your dinner. You started crying, and I held you. I remember the feeling of holding you, as if it had just happened.
Going back even further in time, to the first day we met. Meryl had gotten up, and for no reason at all, you came and laid your head on my shoulder. I pretended like I was sleeping, but I couldn't. I mean you...the touch nearly took my breath away. Although I never showed it, you were always on my mind. Whenever I didn't see you, it drove me crazy!
Now I have to live the rest of my life knowing that you'll never come back. Knowing I'll never again get to touch you...or even hear your soothing voice. I don't know how I'm still alive.
I know we had only known each other for two short years, but they were the best years of my life. I was planning on sharing the rest of my life with you. I know you felt the same way, because of the night before you left. For as long as I live, I'll never forget it.
I know you're not coming back, I've always known. But, it's just so hard to say. I thought that I'd be able to get over it by now, but I was so wrong. Nicholas, why'd you have to die?
A/N: This used to be a songfiction of mine, but it was kicked off this site, so I fixed it up and made it pretty Please review and tell me what you think about it.