25A Father's Love, Chapter 5
Thank you, to all of my reviewers. I appreciate all of the constructive criticism.
Thanks to yannik: I never even saw the uncapitalized Cloud Nine, thanks for pointing it out.
When Lee woke up, he was surprised to find that the clock next to the bed said 7:32. Since his father was shot, he had not slept through the night, until now. It seemed that with Kara next to him, all of his troubles and fears just didn't matter. Truth be told, they didn't matter when he was around her.
Kara let him be just plain old Lee. She didn't have any expectations other than that. When he was around her, he didn't have to be the CAG, he didn't have to be Captain Apollo, and he didn't have to be the perfect son. He never wanted any of that, and he couldn't attain them either. As Kara said he was the 'worst CAG in the history of CAGs.' He had tried to be the hero for Roslin, but that just made him fail even more at being a son.
Ever since he was a child, he had been trying to get his father to be proud of him, but nothing he did seemed to be enough. If he got one B on a report card instead of an A, he would be in for a lecture from his father, yet Zak got all C's and his father told him he had done a good job. Lee knew of course that his father just knew that he could do better, and be better, but sometimes he just wished that what he did was enough for his father to say he's proud. In the back of his mind he knew his father was proud of him and that he loved him, but would it kill him to say it ever once in a while?
He feared that since his recent mutiny, his father would be even less pleased with him. That's why he hadn't returned to the Galactica yet. He didn't really feel safe anywhere but the Galactica anymore, but he was afraid to see his father. He didn't want to see the disappointment on his face. Anger he could handle, he would just get angry back, but disappointment was the worst. He didn't know if he was ready to handle that yet, or if he ever would be for that matter.
He was interrupted when Kara said, "Cubit for your thoughts?"
"Huh," Lee replied a little surprised that she was awake.
"You were doing some pretty hard thinking over there. Care to share what you were so engrossed in that you didn't notice I was staring?"
"You were staring huh?" Lee asked as he leaned in for a kiss.
Kara allowed him one chaste kiss before pushing him back and replying, "Of course I was staring, but don't change the subject flyboy."
"I'm not changing the subject; I was just distracted by you."
"Un huh, I believe that one. If you weren't changing the subject than why don't you tell me what was on your mind?"
"I was just thinking."
"About…," Kara prompted.
"Things," he replied.
"Could you be a little more cryptic?" Kara said getting a little angry.
"You know what I probably could be. What the hell is your problem?" Lee asked as he two got upset.
"I try to get you to talk to me," Kara screamed, "Tell me what's wrong so that I can help you, but all you do is push me away."
"I don't want to tell you because it won't change anything. Nothing you do can help me. It's pointless to tell you."
"You don't know that it won't change anything. I can't try to help you unless you let me."
"You want to help Kara, find a way to change the past," Lee said as he stormed out of the room leaving Kara bewildered.
I know in the last chapter it seemed a little weird that Lee could suddenly change from being depressed to horny, but I see Kara as kind of a light in Lee's life. She can either make him really really happy, or sad and angry depending on her mood. I think while he is already upset seeing her there for him would be able to change his mood pretty fast. Sorry if it seemed rushed though.
And I know their moods change pretty quickly in the last part of this one as well, but I think that's kind of canon. One minute they're happy the next their hitting each other. It's just Lee and Kara.
The next chapter should be posted within the next week. I hope to get it done Monday, but it may take a little longer. Should be up and posted by Saturday morning at the latest.