I wrote this story over three years ago and posted in on the boards… I never finished... Now that I have a bit of time… I'd like to do just that! Please read and review… I tried to revise it a bit… It is my first fan fic…
It was exactly six standard years since Lando had made the second big mistake of his life. He had counted every single day since he had sent Han off on another crazy task.
This time I still had good intentions but it still went wrong.
Five years and ten months since Princess Leia Organa Solo had Han's twin babies.
I took away his chance to see his twins born. I know Han was still out there. I also know that have to be the one to find him. I got him into this mess and I need get him out. Why did I have to ask Han to get my shipment? Han wanted to be there for the birth of his kids. I should have know something bad would happen.
I should have been the one to go. It should have been me. Why do I always drag my friends into the messes I make. This is the second time I have caused Han pain. First the carbonite, now this...
I have been searching for him for five years and eight months. I will not give up on him, just like he would never give up on me. Chewie and I will find him. We have to.
But now we only have three weeks to look; Princess Leia's wedding to Dr. Grigorii Baytart is coming up fast.
Lando was more determined than ever.
Leia sat, starring at her reflection in the mirror. Grigorii Baytart came up behind her and placed his hands on her shoulders. She jumped slightly.
"What's wrong Leia?" Greg asked cautiously.
"Nothing. I was just thinking..." She trailed off. He let her sit there for a while.
Suddenly, he asked "You ready?" She looked up at her fiancee and smiled warmly.
"Give me ten minutes"
"Okay I'll be downstairs with the kids." Before he leaves the room he kisses her on the forehead. They smile at each other then he leaves. She goes back to putting on her make-up. She looked back in the mirror.
I can't believe how long it's been, she thought to herself, I can still remember that day, exactly six years ago today, when we said goodbye.
She recalled their last words:
"I'll be back soon, Sweetheart. Wait up for me?" Han had asked.
"Always" Answered Leia, "I love you, Han."
"I know" They smiled at their private joke. He gave her a big hug careful no to squish her bulging stomach. She could feel their babies' kick in excitement.
"I love you, too." They had kissed.
When they had parted, he said "You save some more of those for when I get back." He flashed the smiled that made her legs melt, his famous lopsided grin. Then he left.
Leia brought her fingers to her lips. She could still feel the warmth of their last kiss. She looked over herself one last time. She wiped away the tears that had fallen, careful not to smear her make-up. Then she put on her best smile and headed down stairs.
While at dinner, Greg noticed how distant Leia was. He remembered that last year at about this time she was also distant. He knew something had happened to someone close to her, perhaps the twin's father, but had never asked.
She seems so much more distant this year, he thought to himself.
When the twins told her about their day at the zoo with Threepio, she had just smiled and nodded. He laid his hand over her hands and mouthed her a question: Are you okay? She nodded and smiled warmly.
"Uncle Greg! Guess what?" Jacen asked excitedly.
"Uncle Luke told us that when we grow up, we're gonna be Jedi Knights!" Jaina answered.
They had often told Greg this, but each time they seemed more excited.
"Hey!" Jacen hit his sister softly, "I wanted to tell him!"
"Well, you didn't say it fast enough!" Jaina hit him back. They begin to fight and Greg tries to stop them, but gets no results.
Suddenly Leia yelled, "Stop it! Just be quiet and quit it!"
The twins immediately stopped and the whole restaurant turned and starred at her. Leia stood up and left. Greg got the twins cleaned up and followed Leia.
When Leia got home she ran up to her room, shut the door, fell onto the floor and cried.
She cried for, what seemed like an eternity. When she finally stopped, she heard voice coming from downstairs. It was a man's voice.
"Han?" She whispered, "Is that you?" Then she also heard young, 5 year old voices and realized that it was Greg and the kids. She heard them climb up the stairs and listened to their conversation.
"Uncle Greg, is Mommy mad at us?" It was Jacen's voice.
"Yeah, why is she so sad?" Jaina added.
"Your Mom has had a hard day. She's just tired." She heard Greg answer.
"Does Mommy love us?" The fact that her children doubted that she loved them made her feel even worse.
"Yes, she loves you more than anything in the whole world."
"Do you love her?" Jaina asked.
"Yes, I do. Very much." Leia frowned.
"Are you gonna be our new daddy?" She tried to hear Greg's answer but was unable to. She again began to cry. Suddenly, there was a knock on her door.
"Leia, can I come in?" Greg said.
She told him he could and he entered and immediately wrapped his arms around her.
"Its all right. It's going to be all right." He whispered into her ear. When she had stopped crying they sat at the foot of her bed together, Leia in his arms, wishing they were someone else's.
Finally Greg broke the silence. "You gonna be all right? You want me to take Jaina and Jacen with me?"
"No, that's okay. I'll be okay."
"Well, I'm going to go. I'll see you tomorrow." He smiled at her. "I love you, Sweetheart."
Then Leia snapped. "Don't ever call me that!" She yelled, remembering that Han had always called her that.
"What? I'm sorry. I didn't mean..."
She cut him off. "Just leave." She felt as if she was on the verge of tears. She took a dead breath, trying to calm down. "Please."
"Okay. I'm sorry. I'll leave. I love you." When he got no answer he turned and left. She listened to his footsteps down until they could be heard no more. She than got on her bed and laid there. She heard the door creak open slightly. She wiped the tears from her eyes and smiled.
"Jacen, Jaina, you can come in." The twins opened the door walked in slowly. They stood at the foot of her bed, with solemn looks on their faces. She laughed softly.
"You can come up here with me." A smile appeared on their faces and the little 5 1/2 year olds jumped on the bed to sit next to Leia.
"Mommy, why are you so sad." Jaina repeated the question she had asked Greg earlier. "Is it because we were fighting in the restaurant?"
"No, honey. It's just a sad day for me."
"Why?" Asked Jacen.
"Well...because 6 years ago, on this day, your daddy disappeared. You don't remember your daddy because you weren't born yet, because when he left I still had you two in my tummy." She pinched Jaina on the cheek and she giggled. "He couldn't wait to see you come out. But then Uncle Lando..."
"Who's Uncle Lando?" Jacen cut her off.
"He's the man who comes and visits you every once and a while with Uncle Chewie."
Jaina giggled some more. "I like Uncle Chewie. He's soft!"
"And he's strong" Stated Jacen. Leia smiled warmly.
"Well anyway, Uncle Lando asked Han, your daddy, if he could pick up something important for him an a far off planet. Well, since your daddy is so nice, he agreed."
"Ohhh" Jacen said in mock recognition.
Leia continued, "So your daddy left and..."
"Hang on Mommy. How come Uncle Chewie didn't go with Daddy?" Jaina asked. She was surprised at how many questions her kids could ask.
"The ship that Daddy took could only fit one person plus the cargo."
"I see" Little Jana said.
"So your daddy left. He supposedly got the things Lando needed but was attacked. We tried to contact him and sent out search parties but we couldn't find him."
Jaina had a look of horror on her face. "What happened to him?"
"He disappeared." Leia said quietly. She didn't know if she should be telling 5 1/2 year olds this. Jaina turned to her mother and saw tears running down her face. Jaina hugged her Mommy and kissed her on the forehead.
"It's okay, Mommy." She whispered.
"Why couldn't it be Uncle Lando instead of Daddy?" Jacen asked suddenly. He had a look on his face that was exactly like Han when he would get frustrated. If Leia hadn't been so sad she would have laughed at the similarities.
"Honey, don't blame Uncle Lando. It wasn't his fault. He didn't know that Daddy would get in trouble." She tried to believe these words, for she knew they were true, but deep in her heart she blamed Lando for everything.
"Mommy, how come you aren't looking for him still?" That question hit her hard.
Why wasn't she looking for him? The kids were old enough to come. No, the aren't, She told herself. What if we found him...dead. How would she explain it to them? No. She wouldn't think of that.
"Uncle Lando and Chewie are out there right now looking for him."
"But Mommy," asked Jacen, "What if they find him?"
"What do you mean, Jacen?"
"What about your wedding? Will you still marry Uncle Greg?"
Would she? Of course not. She didn't really love Greg, as much as she tried to, she knew she couldn't.
"I don't know, Honey. I really don't know." She could never tell the twins the truth, not yet.
"If they never find Daddy, will Greg be our new daddy?" Leia had to think about how to
answer that. She knew that they looked up to Greg. Especially Jacen. Greg and he were the best of friends.
"Well, no one can replace your daddy." She knew that all too well "but you can go to Uncle Greg to talk about anything you want. Just like you can talk to me and Uncle Luke, okay?" They both agreed.
"Now lets get you two to bed."
"Can we sleep in here? Please?" They asked in unison.
"All right" She said with a smile. They all cuddled up together. Leia stayed awake. While the twins were asleep she looked at their little faces and remembered when she used to sit by Han and watch as he slept. After watching them for a while, she slowly fell asleep.
Well, that was just the beginning…
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