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2. Awkward Silences, Confessions And Some Sleeping Pills
Then he looked up, and he saw her.
"Hi" he said, surprised.
She smiled at him, a little concerned after witnessing his sigh before.
"Hey. You okay?"
"Yeah. Absolutely" he added when she didn't look entirely convinced. "But what about you? I'm the one who should be asking" he said, pointing at her cast.
"Oh, this? No, it's fine. It just looks bad, it barely hurts at all" she assured him.
"You sure?" he asked, still a bit of worry in his voice.
"Definitely" she smiled.
"Oh, well, that's good then" he said uncomfortably.
"Yes it is" she said, suddenly at a loss of anything more to say.
"So…what do we do now?" she asked, a little nervous now.
"Dunno. Guess we just…hang out…or…if that's just why you came?" he asked uncertainly.
She blushed and suddenly became very interested of the way the ground was looking, but she admitted: "Well, kind of…"
"Okay then, let's just…"
"Hang out" she finished the sentence for him.
"Yeah" he nodded.
Silence fell. They were both nervous and franticly racing their brains trying to come up with a proper topic so that a conversation could be started.
"Any ideas?" he asked after a while, assuming that she was going through the same as he was.
She shook her head.
"Well, you came here to see me, right?" he asked, just to be sure.
When she nodded he couldn't help smiling.
"Okay, what did you picture us doing?"
She looked away for a second, hiding her red cheeks.
"Maybe just reading or something" she lied.
He ignored the blush and hesitation and said:
"All right then, we'll read. You bring a book?"
"Always"
"Yeah, I figured, just thought I'd ask."
He picked up his book from his bag. She glanced at it, asking:
"Anything good?"
He showed her the cover with a smirk:
"Yes, very very good, interesting, well-written. Feel free to borrow it"
She made a grimace.
"Hemmingway, no way. Or, well, maybe to burn it or something. The world should be freed from all evidence something like this could ever have existed before I even remotely consider having kids"
He laughed, playing offended.
"He's not that bad"
"Yeah. He is" she assured him. "Every time I've made an attempt to read one of his books I have been dead asleep within five minutes, even times when I have not been tired at all. And I usually never fall asleep reading, not even if it's 6 AM and I still haven't gone to bed. That's how boring he is."
"Oh wow, he should get an award or something" he said, amused by her lecture.
"Yeah. Suckiest writer with the most efficient sleeping pills in the world"
He just laughed and shook his head.
The discussion went on like that for quite a while, then Jess suddenly became serious again.
"I'm sorry" he said quietly, looking down at his knees. "I know the arm must be hurting you, I can see it. You're just too nice to tell me."
"It's okay" she assured him again. "No, really, it's fine" she added when he was about to interrupt. "Yeah, it hurts a bit when I'm off the pain killers, but it's really not so bad. I can take it, I promise"
"I'm still sorry" he mumbled, still avoiding her gaze.
"You don't have to be. It wasn't your fault, I know that and you do too if you really think about it. It would've happened whoever had been driving. Don't blame yourself. Please?"
He looked up at her.
"Please" she begged again.
He turned away again, still not believing her.
"Dean and I are over, you know" she announced out of the blue. "We couldn't make it work after all that and…. I don't know if I even have wanted to for a while now. I…I don't love him anymore… and… there's something else, but… "
She left that hanging in the air.
When he still looked away she tried again:
"Please Jess, just look at me"
He did after just a moment of hesitation. His expression was a bit confused, but there was also a little smile playing on his lips as he started to realize what she just had said, or almost said. She saw it and before any of them knew how it had happened they were sharing a deep kiss. It seemed to last forever. When they broke apart he said:
"Well, I sure hope Luke will take me back now"
She just laughed and kissed him again.