Title: Pushed Aside
Author: Bunny Bubble
Rating: T
Album: My Heart's Bleeding
Summary: the second one-shot of my DP one-shot collection of related angsty stories. This one's in Ember's PoV, and this is how she dies and such. I guess it's a songfic to her song, Remember.
Me hug reviewers: moonlite nite, ImMoRtAl-FoOl, and miranda. hug hug hugzzz
Disclaimer: DP and characters are not mine. If they were, I wouldn't be here.
Bunny: Alas, the second angsty work. I just had to get this out of my system, so forgive me for the drabble and if it doesn't make much sense.
Pushed AsideYeah! Oooooohh,
My heart's bleeding and I think I'm dying.
I, Ashley Elizabeth McLain, have been pushed aside. My friends… have left me. Ever since I started dating my boyfriend Mark, my friends have pushed me aside. Like I was nothing. Not even worth looking at.
It was, it was September,
Wind blows, the dead leaves fall
I couldn't blame them. I had rejected my friends first. All for the perfect guy. I had left those who I trust most, so I deserved to be pushed aside. But it all happened one night, Mark and I were walking home from a date at the movies, when spotted a few pretty girls crowded near a bus stop. He shrugged them off, and walked me home. I was so glad he remembered me. Or at least, that's what I thought.
To you, I did surrender,
Two weeks, you didn't call.
It was Halloween when I found out. Mark was going out with a popular chick called Brianna. I spotted them near a tree next to my apartment. It wasn't fair… he broke his promised. I felt used, pushed aside.
My heart bled and I wanted to die.
Your life, goes on without me,
My life, a losing game.
It wasn't fair. What was I? Some girl to have fun with, then pushed aside? I was tired of it all! Mark, you cheated on me… three times! Are my feelings pushed aside as well? Do you not know that I love you, truly love you, from the bottom of my bleeding heart?
My heart bleeds more as I yearn for your attention. Only to be pushed aside.
But you should, you should not doubt me,
You will remember my name!
My life was useless. As an orphan, I had no more friends. My only hope at life was to win back Mark. I heard that he was performing at a concert… our supposed concert. I was the leader of a band called Ember's Flames, but it turns out that Mark had organized the band himself, with his new girlfriend. How could he? Did he not know that he kept me alive? It broke me apart inside to see him like this, ignorant, and decieved. Briana was known for playing with others' feelings. Did he not know?
I loved him from the bottom of my heart, my bleeding heart, only to be pushed aside.
Oh Ember, you will remember,
Ember, one thing remains.
I climbed onto the bus to his concert. It wasn't fair. Not fair at all. I thought of the happier times, where I used to be with him. Those hugs out in sunlight, blushing touches at noon, kissing by the moonlight. They were all over. I remember how he called me Ember. Ember was my pet name, I loved being called that. But he left me. Left me with no one. I was pushed aside for someone else. My heart bleeds as I think of attempting suicide.
Oh Ember, so warm and tender,
You will remember my name!
I didn't notice that there was something wrong until it was too late. The bus was at the concert stop, but something went wrong. The bus kept going, and it moved up a ramp. Was the bus driver trying to kill us all? All of a sudden, it crashed, and I was flung out the back door. The ramp, was 20 stories high. I crashed through the glass, pushed aside, like I was nothing of value. What was my life worth? I fell, twenty stories down, fell through the darkness. I saw Mark's worried face and idmediately felt guilty.
My heart bled, and I was pushed aside. My feelings pushed aside. When will someone actually understand?
Your heart, your heart has ventured,
Your wall, now perishing.
I was going to die. I knew it, and I couldn't help but wonder: what was my life about? I didn't deserve to live. Someone like me.. pushing aside my friends for the not-so-perfect guy. Someone like me, who was pushed aside countless times.
I was pushed aside. Falling, falling, the wind rushes past my face.
Like dead trees in cold December,
Nothing, but ashes remain.
I felt the crack of my body against the cement as tears leaked out of my eyes. My heart was bleeding, and I was dying. Literally. The last thing I saw was my boyfriend's face, a look with sympathy and regrett.
"I'm.. I'm sorry," I had managed to say, "I.. i… I love you."
That was all, before I knew no more. My vision was pushed aside, as my bleeding heart died.
Oh Ember, you will remember,
Ember, one thing remains!
I thought I had gone to heaven. But I was, as usual, pushed aside. There was no heaven or hell for me. Some cruel fate had decided that my death was unncessecary and deserved, so I became… a ghost. My beautiful black hair turned a glowing blue, my skin white and pale. I was wearing the same make up and clothes of my death, except I was clutching my gutair. This gutair.. wasn't mine. There were knobs, buttons,and who knows what. Where was mine? Was I to be pushed aside forever, never loved?
My dead heart bled, as thoughts raced upon my head.
Ember, so warm and tender,
You will remember my name!
I realize that I was in a strange dimension called the ghost zone. Coutesy of a friendly ghost called Kitty, I realized where I was and what my purpose was: to cause destruction upon the human world. Yet, that was her theory. She, Kitty, was perfect with her boyfriend Johnny 13. Yet, I, was pushed aside and I died. Pushed aside.. forgotten.. unneeded. Unwanted. My dead heart bleeds a little more.
Ohhhwooo Ember,
You will remember!
I knew what I had to do. I had to find Mark.. otherwise I would remain a ghost forever. However, I found out, that Mark had died shortly afterwards my death. He had attempted suicide, saying that he couldn't live without me. I knew then, that I wasn't pushed aside. But one thing remains: he went to heaven, leaving me in the ghost zone forever.
I had not accepted my dying fate, and I was bound to be a ghost. A mericiless, cruel, spirit. A ghoul detested by all humanity. A creature with no respect. A ghost. I was pushed aside, toyed with, by the other ghosts. I couldn't stand it. I had to seek comfort in the human world when I realized my talent for singing.
Ember, one thing remains,
Ember, so warm and tender!
I tried. But trying wasn't enough. That blasted Danny Phantom stopped me and my power. But why? He just didn't understand. With power, I could accept my fate. With power, I could try to sneak my way into heaven. To see Mark one last time. But that was not to be. Why, I ask, why is it me? Why…? I was always forgotten, unwanted! Pushed…aside.
My dead heart bleeds. I am dying, once again.
You will remember my name-yea,
You will remember my name!
My dead heart bleeds. I am dying, once again.
Bunny: wow dat was a long one-shot… well anyway plz review and ty. I realize this isn't as angsty as the first one, but o wells I need to look further into the dark side of life.