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'Did that really just happen? Did I really kiss Jess? What was I thinking? I mean, it was amazing, and I've wanted to do that for awhile now but…' "Whoa! Did I just think that?" Rory mumbled to herself. She didn't know where that thought had come from. Jess and her were just friends, weren't they? "Of course we are. We're just friends, nothing more." She whispered, trying to convince herself that she felt nothing for Jess. 'I can't like Jess. I'm with Dean, my really nice, loving, considerate boyfriend that I love. Oh God! Dean! How could I have done that to him? How could I have cheated on him? He's going to be so hurt when he finds out. How am I going to explain this to him? Um, hi Dean. While you were talking to my mom, Lane, and the rest of Stars Hollow, I was kissing Jess, the guy you hate!' Rory thought sarcastically. 'Oh yeah, like that's really gonna work.'

Just then she reached Lorelai at the bridge. Lorelai immediately handed her a bouquet and Rory told her, "I think I'm going to Washington." She hadn't been sure about going before, but now after that kiss with Jess…She had to get out of there. It wasn't like she hadn't enjoyed it, because she had. She just didn't know how she was going to face him again. Plus there was the whole Dean thing. Just thinking about the kiss she had shared with Jess made her feel guilty. She knew she had to tell Dean, but she didn't want to hurt him.

"Okay." Lorelai mumbled as they walked over the bridge and down the aisle to watch Sookie and Jackson get married.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" Lorelai asked Rory as they waited for her to board her plane.

"Yeah…It's not like I really have a choice anyway. Paris would kill me if I didn't go to Washington with her this summer."

"True and then I'd never be able to talk to you again…Unless you turned into a ghost and haunted our house. But then everyone would think I was crazy for talking to you when your dead and they would probably-"

"Put you in a mental institution?" Rory interrupted, putting an end to her mother's crazy rambling. She knew what she was trying to do and she loved her even more for it. They had both been a little depressed since Sookie's wedding. "Are you sure you're okay? After everything that's happened…"

"Yeah kid. I'm fine."

"I still can't believe dad did that to you! Who does he think he is? Showing up in our lives, and giving us false hope. You know, I actually believed him. I thought that we would finally be a family, and then he went and pulled this."

"Rory, Hun, calm down. Don't let this ruin your trip to Washington. You're going to go and you're going to have a really good time showing those smart kids what you're made of."

"Okay. I guess you're right. I love you mom."

"I love you too." 'How am I going to survive the next six weeks without Rory?' Lorelai thought as they hugged each other tightly.

"Um, I think that's my flight."

"I'm gonna miss you Hun."

"I'm gonna miss you too."

"Be safe!"

"I will." Rory called out as she turned and boarded her plane.