Authors note:This is dedicated to AJeff (Anna) one of the nicest awsomest people I know!

Summary: Human feelings are beginning to surface in Illyria. This is her thoughts and feelings on missing Wesley on the anniverary of his death.

Free me from this world Cause it keeps pulling me down

I can't breath, though, airs around me

I hate it, I hate life I hate death, I hate being here

Not awake, not asleep, just there

Here, everywhere

Wake up, go to sleep

Laugh, cry

Enjoy, but, be hateful

Kill them and yourself

But don't expect that

To be the answer of heaven

It is just the question of hell

Thanks again to Anna! Please read and review :)!