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This is not your typical rhyming poem. It's a little different. I recommend reading it outloud to yourself to get the full effect. Enjoy.

This Life

Hisoka's point of view

Why?

Can't forget

Let go

No,

Isolate myself,

too much pain,

hatred,

anger,

sheilds, walls,

must keep them out,

Never show,

my pain,

fear,

need,

emotion,

So Alone,

No one,

Always alone,

But now,

I need,

I let them in,

My new family.

But why?

Why won't he let me be,

My tormentor,

Matser?

No,

Won't except that,

fear,

pain, when I see him, when he's near,

hate,

I hate him,

Can't he leave me alone,

Hasn't he done enough,

Leave me be,

But he won't

I want,

to be happy,

No he destroys,

My life,

Killed me,

took my innocence,

hell,

I was there,

three years,

pain,

suffering,

death,

But death brought hope,

Yet no,

I've been hurting for too long,

Isolation,

Hatred,

All I've ever felt,

I hate myself,

everyone else does,

So I do,

Yet, they don't,

they're different.

A family,

one I've never had,

but no,

he interferes,

leave me alone,

his doll,

that's what he calls me,

I'm not,

yet I am.

His mark,

It burns my skin,

The pain of my past returns.

But they are different,

they except me,

anmd my "curse",

It caused all this hatred,

They except it,

They understand,

Want to help,

No,

I've lived too long without hope,

or affection,

or trust,

I need them,

This new family of mine,

more than I ever thought,

I've never needed before,

been alone too long,

BUt I'm not anymore,

I don't want to be again,

I want to be happy,

to live this "Life" I was given,

not just for myself anymore,

but for them,

my family,

they care,

Never thought it possible,

to care about a demon child.

They say that I'm innocent.

How,

I'm tainted,

basically fucked up.

Yet they don't care,

They except that,

Don't condemn me,

How,

I don't understand,

he cares,

says it's because I'm His partner,

How?

I don't understand how he could,

can,

But I need that,

I need to know I'm wanted,

So,

What do I do?

Unsure,

The pain is fading,

Safe,

Memories dying slowly,

Three years of pain,

never eased, but suppressed,

This new life,

will be hard,

but at least I'm not alone anymore,

I have them, him,

That's all I need.

End

It's not your typical poem but I'm not sure what else to call it. It's from Hisoka's point of view, My favorite point of view to write. It's kind of random but I hope people like it. Please review. I'm working on the multi-chapter story,The Breaking, please read it. I promise It'll get better. Just give it a chance.

Thanx for reading.