Abby sat at her computer staring at the screensaver of Gibbs. She missed him more than she ever thought she would miss anyone. She ached with the need to see him , to hear him, to smell him, to touch him, and he was gone. Gone from NCIS, gone from the city and gone from her…

Somewhere deep inside
Somethings got a hold on you
And its pushing me aside
See it stretch on forever

I know Im right
For the first time in my life
Thats why I tell you
Youd better be home soon

Wiping the tears, Abby tried to work but her fingers just wouldn't push the right buttons. She knew she was moving through the stages of grieving, and that sadness was just one of these. As a scientist she knew the rationale for this, but Gibbs was gone, and she felt she was alone. And sitting here without him, she had time to think…

Stripping back the coats
Of lies and deception
Back to nothingness
Like a week in the desert

I know Im right
For the first time in my life
Thats why I tell you
Youd better be home soon

Now after all these feelings had been forced to surface, Abby realised that she loved Gibbs. Love his guidance, loved his support, loved his strength, loved his smile, she loved him totally. Not like a father or boss, but as an equal.

The question she was asking herself was, 'Was she going to stay here working day in and day out hoping he will walk through the door again?'

So dont say no, dont say nothings wrong
Cos when you get back home maybe Ill be gone

She didn't expect Gibbs to come back. Her head was trying to tell her heart, that he was gone for good.

To start a new life without a place for her in it.

It would cause me pain
If we were to end it
But I could start again
You can depend on it

So sitting at her computer, staring at his picture, Abby knew she had to take a chance. The biggest chance of her life.

To contact Gibbs or at least try.

Feeling happier she opened her email.

I know Im right
For the first time in my life
Thats why I tell you
Youd better be home soon
Thats why I tell you
Youd better be home soon

'Dear Gibbs,

There is something I need to tell you…'