101Today's the day... You all know what I'm talking about by now. This is the day! There will be an epilogue after this but here is the last chapter! Enjoy! I have the whole song here because I think it's important.
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-Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again
Bridge:
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
Chorus:
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight
Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again
Bridge:
I dont want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused
Chorus:
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight
Bridge:
I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends
Chorus:
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight-
Breaking the Habit By: Linkin Park
-Chapter 20-
They were silent as they held each other. Neither knew what to say because nothing could be said. Today was the day... it was here.
They were silent the whole day, neither moving nor speaking. Tsuzuki cried at times, but not Hisoka. Hisoka did not shed one tear, what was the point? It wouldn't change anything but he wasn't about to tell Tsuzuki to stop crying. It seemed to comfort the man, crying like this.
It was only when the sun went down and the moon began to rise that Hisoka freed himself from Tsuzuki's grip. He stood up and walked over to the small window and looked up and the moon.
It was blood red.
"It's almost time" he said, not looking at Tsuzuki.
Tsuzuki didn't respond, but came up behind Hisoka and embraced him.
"What if I was to run or to stay inside? Maybe that would change things?" Hisoka suggested already knowing the answer.
"It wouldn't change anything. What's destined to happen will happen no matter what." Tsuzuki said sadly.
Hisoka nodded in understanding.
"I think I should leave then." Hisoka said.
"Why?" Tsuzuki asked, looking at Hisoka like the boy was crazy.
"Because this happens outside doesn't it. That's why I should go." Hisoka said determination evident in his voice.
"Are you CRAZY! Do you want all of this to happen!" Tsuzuki yelled.
"It's going to one way or another, you said so yourself, at least this way I have some control." Hisoka said plainly.
Tsuzuki didn't know what to say. He knew Hisoka would do what he thought was best, and there was no changing his mind once it was made up.
"Alright. I'll come with you." Tsuzuki said. Hisoka turned and smiled at Tsuzuki. Tsuzuki let out a small smile and took Hisoka's hand in his, teleporting them out.
They stood outside, amongst the sakura trees surrounding the house. Tsuzuki put an arm around Hisoka's shoulder, pulling him close as they stood there.
It was almost eerie out, with the moon's rays casting a red glow over the sakura trees. Tsuzuki shivered and it wasn't from the cold. He was about to grab Hisoka and teleport away from this place, away from the future- but he hesitated, and he wouldn't get another chance.
All of a sudden there was a noise. Hisoka moved away from Tsuzuki to see what it was. Tsuzuki was about to follow when he was grabbed from behind.
"Tatsumi? Watari? What are you doing?" he asked.
"Making sure you don't try and change the boy's future." Tatsumi replied sadly.
Tsuzuki's eyes widened in understanding and was about to cry out for Hisoka when he felt a hand on his mouth.
Hisoka had walked past some of the sakura trees until he came to one that was separate from the others. He saw a man and a woman standing underneath the tree; it seemed they were embracing.
Hisoka was about to dismiss it and walk back to Tsuzuki when he saw the man bring up a knife and drive it into the woman's chest. There was blood, everywhere, running down the woman and staining the ground. Hisoka was shocked as the man turned around - 'Muraki!' he thought.
Hisoka started to run, no matter what he said he was still scared. He tried to get away, but was roughly grabbed from behind.
"What are you doing out so late bouya?" Muraki said as he grabbed hold of Hisoka.
Hisoka only struggled, trying to pry Muraki off of him. "Let me go!" he yelled.
"No. I can't do that. You saw something you shouldn't have; the face a brutal murderer. No witnesses that's the rule, so I can't just let you go now can I?" Muraki said with a smirk.(1)
"No!" Hisoka cried as he was pushed to the ground. He had been expecting this, almost waiting for it, but he still wasn't ready. No one could ever be ready for something like this.
Muraki smiled as the boy continued to struggle.
"You're such a pretty boy, and a pretty boy deserves a pretty death, don't you think?" Muraki said and he pushed Hisoka down onto the ground and began to remove his yukata.
"Please don't. Please stop." Hisoka pleaded as he began to cry.
"Now why would I stop? I'm only just beginning." Muraki said, the sadistic pleasure evident in his voice.
"No! Please no!" Hisoka begged as Muraki began to touch him, stroke him.
Muraki only smiled as he took out his knife.
Hisoka cried out as the knife pierced his skin. "TSUZUKI!"
Tsuzuki struggled against Tatsumi and Watari as he heard Hisoka cry out. He wanted to do something anything to help Hisoka, but he couldn't.
"TSUZUKI! PLEASE HELP ME!"
Tsuzuki fought against Watari and Tatsumi, trying to free himself. He almost broke free, but Tatsumi summonded his shadows and held Tsuzuki in place. Tsuzuki cursed his helplessness as he began to cry...
He watched as Muraki slowly carved the curse into Hisoka's pale skin. He watched as Muraki took him. He heard each and every cry Hisoka made as he called out and it killed him. Inside Tsuzuki was dying as the boy he had come to care for so much was destroyed in front of his eyes.
Hisoka eventually stopped screaming as Muraki got up, leaving a naked and bleeding Hisoka on the ground. Tsuzuki was about to run over as Muraki leaned over and kissed Hisoka on the cheek.
Tatsumi and Watari let go as Muraki left. Tsuzuki didn't care about Muraki; all he cared about was Hisoka.
"HISOKA!" he yelled as he ran to the boy.
"Tsuzuki..." Hisoka said weakly, about to loose consciousness.
"Hisoka... I'm so sorry... I'm so sorry." Tsuzuki said as he carefully embraced Hisoka as cried.
"Baka...it's... not... your fault..." Hisoka said quietly as he finally lost conscious.
Tsuzuki cried- he cried for Hisoka, more than he had for anyone else. He had failed- he had failed Hisoka.
Tatsumi and Watari approached to scene. Watari had tears in his eyes as he watched the two. Tatsumi was close to breaking down as well, but he had one more job to do.
Tatsumi approached to two and looked down at Hisoka's still form held tightly in Tsuzuki's embrace.
"Tsuzuki... I've been told to make you an offer" Tatsumi said, trying to keep himself composed as he watched Tsuzuki clutch an unconscious Hisoka.
"What?" Tsuzuki asked, crying as he held Hisoka tighter, wishing he could just make it all go away.
"I was told to give you a choice. The higher ups said that they could erase Hisoka's memory of this night..." Tatsumi started.
"Please! Do it Tatsumi! Please!"
"Let me finish Tsuzuki... there's a catch" Tatsumi said taking a deep breath.
"What is it? Anything! I'll do anything Tatsumi, just please tell me what I have to do!" Tsuzuki begged.
"Hisoka...He'll forget the past month in exchange..."
Tsuzuki couldn't respond. He wanted Hisoka to forget what just happened but in exchange Hisoka would forget about Tsuzuki. Tsuzuki knew that this past month was probably the happiest time Hisoka had experienced, but... then Hisoka would have to experience the pain of being left again not to mention what just happened... but still... it was a hard decision...
Tatsumi and Watari waited for an answer, neither wanting to pressure Tsuzuki.
Tsuzuki looked down at Hisoka. His body was covered in blood and he reached of sex. His face was contorted in pain eventhough he was passed out. The red curse marks shone brightly accented by the blood and bruises that now marked Hisoka's pale skin. Tsuzuki reached out and let his hand brush away a few locks of blood coated hair from Hisoka's forehead.
He would do this for Hisoka... he would do what was best...
"Tatsumi..." Tsuzuki trailed off.
Tatsumi waited.
"Make him forget." Tsuzuki said sadly.
"Are you sure Tsuzuki?" Tatsumi asked.
"Yes, just please do it." Tsuzuki said, tears once again running down his cheeks.
Tatsumi nodded and leaned down. He put a hand on Hisoka's forehead and began chanting.
"I'm sorry Hisoka." Tsuzuki said as the last words of the chant were completed. Watari leaned down and gave Hisoka some sort of serum. Tsuzuki noticed that Hisoka's wounds were slowly healing as the serum took effect.
"Sorry Bon" Watari said to the boy.
"We'll give you a moment Tsuzuki, to say good bye." Tatsumi said as he and Watari teleported away.
Tsuzuki stood up and gathered Hisoka in his arms as he teleported them back into the cellar. Tsuzuki laid Hisoka down and changed his clothing, being extremely careful since the boy was still in pain even after Watari's serum. As he laid Hisoka on his bed, Tsuzuki sat down next to him.
"Hisoka... I don't know what to say. I now that you've already forgotten me and can't hear me but I have to say a few things that I just have to say... I'm sorry... no matter how many times you tell me to stop apologizing I just can't... I wanted to protect you and what happens... I fail yet again... I only wanted you to be happy... to smile and be the person you were meant to. I don't know what's going to happen now. I suppose you'll continue on as you did before I came... Hisoka... even though you won't remember me, I won't forget you. I promise Hisoka- I will never forget you... and do you know why?" Tsuzuki asked the sleeping boy.
"Because I love you..." Tsuzuki said, tears once again falling. He pulled Hisoka into another embrace and held him tight, relishing in the feeling of having Hisoka in his arms. He held the boy as tightly as he could before slowly relinquishing his hold.
"I love you." Tsuzuki said, leaning down and pressing his lips to Hisoka's forehead one last time. It took everything Tsuzuki had to stand up, to turn around, and walk away. With one last look back Tsuzuki teleported out, leaving only his tears behind.
-End chapter 20-
1. Muraki said this in the first volume of the manga- more or less...
This was the last chapter! Don't worry there's an epilogue after this. Sorry about the ending- I was crying when I wrote it. Please review! And thanks for reading.