"He then told me, "Who's your Daddy!"" Alex said laughing while she and Olivia ate their chinese food.
"Oh my God! He's so cocky!"
"Yeah, but you love him," Alex said slurping up some chow mein.
Olivia froze and stared down at her half empty carton and the beer beside it. "So, tell me, how do you like being Emily?"
"No, we talked about me already. I want to hear about you. And I especially want an update with you and hott in tight blue jeans Detective Stabler."
"Don't tell me there is nothing there. I saw it before I left." Alex stared knowingly at her friend that she had missed so much. She didn't associate with many people in Wisconsin and being back in New York brought it all back. "Liv-"
"Kathy left him."
Alex took a deep breath and her focus returned to her friend. "Oh Liv-"
"He didn't tell me for three weeks. Three weeks. He looked me in the eye and promised me he was okay when in reality he was going up to the crib every night before he could rent an apartment. He's hurting so much. I don't know how to save him."
"Be there. I think you should tell him that you are in love with him."
"Alex. I can't."
"Are you afraid?"
"Do you not love him?"
"Or can you look at the woman you have become and regret ever feeling anything for him? Can you look at him and be willing to walk away?"
"Answer the questions, Detective."
"You are still a prosecutor."
"You are still afraid. Answer me, Liv."
Olivia took a deep breath, stood up looked out the New York windows. "Yes. Yes, I love him. Yes, Im afraid."
Alex nodded and moved beside her. "Olivia, its okay to be afraid. Love is bittersweet. But you can't really be happy in your life until he knows the truth."
Olivia turned to her friend and smiled. "I've missed you. I've missed my friend."
"You and me both. I wanted to rant about this new guy I've been seeing forever. It was weird not being able to chat with you about how good he was in bed."
Olivia laughed out loud and took another drink of her beer. "Well, its a good thing you aren't on the look out. Trevor Langan has been on the prowl."
Alex's eyes widened in shock and Olivia quickly interrupted. "Don't deny it. I know that you two must have hooked up at least once."
Alex blushed and she saw that Olivia was still fidgeting with her hands. "So tell me about the rest of the squad."
"Well, Fin is doing well. He's fantastic in the unit. Don missed you. It was hard for him to adjust to Casey."
"She's a great prosecutor," Alex said.
"She's not you. You two are so different. I love Casey, but as I said- She isn't you."
"Oh, you didn't talk about Munch."
"You mean, Mr. Casey Novak? I think those two are hooking up."
"Shut up! Are you kidding me?"
"After Casey was attacked, John was first on the scene and by her side. I also saw a forbidden kiss or two."
Alex laughed loudly and Olivia felt a vibration at her hip. She looked at the phone and sighed when she saw Elliot's name come across the screen. "This will only take a minute."
Alex nodded as Olivia stepped away. Alex decided to take this time to observe the woman she viewed as a sister.
Olivia took the phone and opened it quickly. "El?"
"Hey, I just wanted to check in. You two okay?"
"Yeah, we are fine," Olivia assured.
"Liv, its okay to be nervous. We caught him and Casey will land his ass in jail."
"I know. I know. Its just-"
"So much can happen in a single moment. After, you are left with so much regret."
"I regret a lot of the choices I have made over the years, Liv. But its okay in the end. Life is bittersweet. As long as I have got you, Im okay."
"Please don't base your happiness on me."
"Liv. Thats not what Im saying at all. Im just..."
"Thank you. Thank you for being my partner. My best friend."
Olivia sighed and felt the tears arise in her eyes. "Always, El. Always."
"I better hang up. I'll pick you and Alex up in the morning, okay?"
"Yep. Night, Elliot."
"Good night, Olivia."
Olivia closed the phone and felt her heart break. Alex moved to her side and they hugged for a moment. So much emotion had been interchanged in a matter of hours. "I love him," Olivia whispered sadly.
"I know," Alex said.
"One day I will tell him..."
"Im sensing a but," Alex said smirking.
Olivia laughed at the former prosecutor's statement. "But today isn't that day."
Alex hugged her best friend and took the file on Conners that Olivia snuck in for her. "Im going to analyze for a couple hours and then pass out from exhaustion. Get some sleep."
Olivia nodded, wiped away her tears and headed to the second bedroom. "Alex?" she called out, before closing the door for the evening.
"Thank you. Im glad you are back."
Alex nodded and said, "Get some sleep, Benson."
Olivia smiled sadly and closed the door heading to sleep in hopes of escaping the darkness of the world she lived in. She also hoped for the justice her best friend mostly deserved.
And lastly, she prayed that somehow she would find the strength to tell Elliot how she felt for him. Just one day in this bittersweet symphony of her life...
Well I never pray
But tonight I'm on my knees yeah
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now
But the airways are clean and there's nobody singing to me nowOKAY, IT SAYS COMPLETE, BUT THAT CAN EASILY CHANGE. REVIEW AND LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK!