"What?" he asked playfully as his kissed down her body to her pregnant belly. "I love you, little one," he whispered to the baby as he pressed a kiss just beneath her belly button. He looked up into her golden green eyes and touched her face softly. "And I love you, Elena."
She smiled and kissed his lips tenderly. "I love you too, Jesse."
"Elena?" Jessica asked shaking her sister awake slightly.
Elena's eyes shot open as she remembered her reality. She had finally ended things with Elliot and she lost their baby. She was lying in an uncomfortable hospital bed desperate for escape. She turned her head and saw her younger sister and smiled sadly. "Hey babe."
Jessica moved over beside her and sat down. She gripped her sister's hand and looked into her eyes for a sense of peace and resolution. "How are you holding up?"
Elena rolled her eyes and stared down into their joined hands. "I've been better," she whispered. "Jesse hasn't come yet this morning, so its been quiet."
Jessica laughed instead of showing her sister her raw pain that would take time to mend. "He will be by. I have no doubt that he will be there for you always."
Elena was puzzled by her sister's statement and looked up to see her sibling looking out the open hospital window. "What does that mean?"
"Nothing," she whispered in reply.
Elena noticed a slight bruising by her sister's eye and brought her hand to it slowly. "Sweetie, what happened?" she asked gently.
"Don't ask," Jessica answered quickly.
"Jess, is there something going on in Sacramento that I should know about?" she asked in cop tone.
Jessica laughed out loud and turned back to her sister. "It wasn't anything, Elena. You know me. Im a walking talking disaster."
"Why do you do that to yourself?" Elena said, saddened by her sister's broken view of herself.
"Well, I learned from the best," she replied bitterly.
"What the hell is your problem?" Elena said, sitting up on the bed as Jessica walked toward the window. "Don't you dare turn your back on me. There is something wrong with you and I want to know what it is. You wouldn't just come to New York for no reason. Tell me what the hell is wrong with you."
"Its not like you fucking cared when we were kids, so don't act like you do now," Jessica said wringing her hands in anger.
"Why would you say that?" Elena asked with tears in her eyes.
"Its the truth! Mom and Dad always pushed you to whatever you wanted. They are angry at me and have threatened to cut me off financially and physically from their lives because I want to transfer to Cal Poly because I can't handle the criminal justice major at Sac State! The man that I have loved for years uses me for sex to stop thinking about you for a period of two hours and now you are here, broken and in the hospital and I have to fucking leave you because I can't be strong enough for you!"
Elena sat in shock as she watched her sister crumble before her. In their family, there were never known for showing weakness in front of anyone and she realized that Jessica must have bottled her hurt to the extreme. "Jess..."
"Im sorry, sweetie," Jessica said turning around and moving to her sister's side, pulling her into a hug. "Im sorry I snapped. I just... Things get too much, you know? And I worry about you. You and your heart. I know that losing this baby must be killing you."
Elena nodded and whispered, "It hurts, but I'll make it through. I have a good support system here in New York. And I always have you."
Jessica smiled and brushed a stray of blonde hair from her sister's face. She bit her bottom lip out of a nervous reaction and sat in silence.
"Jessica, baby girl, when do you leave?" Elena whispered trying to read her sister.
"Why so early? I thought you had a few days," Elena said, her eyes wide.
"You don't need me here."
"You are my sister," she whispered, gripping her hand. "Jessica, why didn't you tell me you were having problems with mom and dad?"
"Like I would want to admit my problems to you. And you seemed to have enough issues without having me tell you about it."
"It seems that you are going to have a lot to work out and soon."
"Regardless of mom and dad's decision, I am going to Cal Poly. A friend of mine has an apartment down there and I am going to find my way. I just... Im lonely, Elena."
"Elena, I need someone to love me. Not a sister or brother type love. Not out of sympathy or of a situational need. I want someone to love me. Neither of us seem to have luck in that department, sweetie."
Elena laughed slightly and groaned when she felt a ripping pain in her abdomen and her ribs. Jessica apologized and smiled sadly at her sister. Before she could continue, Elena spoke. "Jess, you will find the one you are supposed to be with and you will be happy. The change with be good for you sweetie. If you need support, I can talk to mom and dad, okay?"
Jessica nodded and kissed her sister's forehead quickly. She looked down and noticed Elena's eyes begin to droop. "Its time for me to go, babe."
"Can you call me when you arrive in California?" Elena asked hopefully.
"Why don't you call me when you want to talk to me. You need to rest."
As Jessica stood to leave the hospital room, Elena remembered a section of her rant that bothered her. The man that I have loved for years uses me for sex to stop thinking about you... "Jessica."
She turned around and looked into her big sister's eyes. She lifted her hand to stop her sister from speaking and said, "Don't push Jesse too far. He is a wonderful man that cares about you. Don't hurt him."
"What about you?" Elena asked with tears filling her eyes.
Jessica smiled sadly and replied, "I love you, Elena. Your happiness is what matters now. Don't push him away." She lifted her bag onto her shoulder and gave her sister one final smile. She blew her a kiss and waved goodbye. "I love you, sis."
Elena nodded and let her sister walk out of her life for the time being.
When Jessica moved to the elevator, her eyes filled with tears, she wasn't surprised to see Jesse on the other side of the doors. She lowered her head and made her way passed him, ignoring his questioning stare.
"Jess," he whispered, holding the elevator doors open.
She looked up and put on the best fake smile she could muster. "Take care of my sister."
"Goodbye, Officer Kephart."
He nodded and whispered, "Have a safe flight." He removed his hand and allowed the elevator doors to shut completely.
As Olivia took a shower, Elliot stood outside on the balcony and made a quick phone call. "Captain, this is Stabler. I have a favor to ask you..."
Jesse came to the hospital with lilies in his hand and a concerned tone in his mind. He was worried about Elena and how she was handling the miscarriage. When he entered the room, he saw her looking out the window lost in thought. "El," he whispered, moving beside her.
She turned to him and asked him harshly, "What did you do to my sister?"
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