"Edward.. When are you going to realize that I really want this?" I frowned.
"You really want to doom your soul?" Edward cocked an eye brow I guess because he wanted to lighten the mood a little.
"Edward I want to be a vampire, to be with you, I don't care what I have to sacrifice." I whispered just loud enough not to wake Charley.
"Bella you don't know what it's like being a vampire.. always under the temptationto drink blood.. always fearing for those around you.. always scared you will hurt the ones you love the most.." Edward stroked my cheek bone.
I was once more dazzled. This bought Edward some time. I had to think quick or I would have to wait till next Wednesday to argue with him about changing me into a vampire. Yes, something popped into my mind at that moment.. "I don't know because you wont let me find out!" I had screamed that part.. uh oh.
Edward was immediately gone from my side. I lay on my bed tossing and turning trying to make it seem like I was just having a nightmare. It was the only thing I could think of. Charley would probably think that I was hearing voices and answering them angrily. That would be the sure fired thing to get me sent to the mental hospital. Little did he know, just last year I was hearing voices, or more specifically Edwards voice when I was in danger, after Edward left. I could hear the door open while Charley stepped in. I felt warm hands gently shaking my shoulders. "Bella, Bella wake up." he said in a soothing voice that was also filled with worry.
I stopped rolling. "ChDad?" I whispered trying to make my self sound sheepish.
"It's alright Bella I'm here. Did you have a bad dream?" he asked as if he was talking to a small child.
"Yea, it was pretty scary.." I lied through my teeth.
"Oh what was it about?" he replied. He sounded like he still believed me but not for long because I couldn't think of anything! Come on Bella think. I thought to myself.
"I don't remember.. I just remember being scared that's all.." I thought. At first I thought I had said it a little to fast but Charley didn't seem to notice.
"Ok Bells, I have to get ready. I forgot to tell you I am leaving to go fishing today with Billy and Jacob." He smiled. The name Jacob made my stomach turn. I had not spent that much time with Jake sense Edward got back. I focused on spending as much time with Edward as I possibly could because I secretly wondered if he really did want me.
"That's great Dad." I smiled half heartedly but Charley didn't notice that either. Charley kissed my forehead and walked out the door.
I curled up into a ball, not expecting Edward to come back sense Charley was up. I started to drift away in thought. Why did Jake stop calling? I wish Edward was here. Why wont Edward just change me already? Why does Charley go fishing so much? I wonder if Edward will go hunting soon, I hope not. If he does will I have the guts to call Jake? Is Jake still my friend? Is Jake one of my enemies? Would Edward and Jake hurt each other? I replayed the only question that I thought of that I actually knew the answer to and answered it, Would Edward and Jake hurt each other? As much as it would hurt me, yes, yes they would.