Ok, so to begin with, I know it's been forever, and I'm SO sorry, but I have a new chapter. It's SO short, but I was stuck and wanted to get SOMETHING up. I'm currently attempting to write the next chapter, but I'm a bit stuck... if anyone has any ideas, PLEASE PM me or something! It would be SO helpful, and then I could get a chapter up soon. I now have a lot of free time on my hands, so I have time to write. I just don't have anything to write about at the moment. UGH! It's beyond frustrating. This chapter isn't very good at ALL, and its also incredibly short, so again, I'm sorry. I know you guys have waited a long time for this, and it's a bit of a disappointment, to say the least. But bear with me! I wanted to write more, but I didn't know what to add, and thought you would rather get SOMETHING. So ya, umm... here it is

oh, and quickly, just for the record, tonight, I got a VERY funny review, and I just wanted to remind everyone that

a) I know that Rosalie is NOT in love with Edward in the series. I did not misinterpret that part of the book... this is fanFICTION... I wrote this story because the idea was in my head for a while and I wanted to get it onto paper, and

b) I started this story before eclipse even came out! LOOK AT THE PUBLISHING DATE! I was reading Eclipse the day it came out and was completely shocked to discover that Rosalie didn't like Bella because Edward lchose Bella over Rosalie. I thought that was only part of my imagination. If you don't believe me, look up the date of the release and look at the date I published this. It should be at the top of the page. (She also mentioned something about a plane crash in Eclipse, which I wrote about in one of my other stories BEFORE the book came out. Not to suggest anything, but I thought it was funny... ) SO yeah, this story was completely original and all I stole from the book was the characters. Which, by the way, BELONG TO STEPHENIE MEYER! Not me... though, like the rest of the world, I wish Edward belonged to ME! sigh... one day...

kay, I hope you find the chapter somewhat enjoyable. And again, I NEED IDEAS!

thanks so much! I love you all! o

and without further ado -


"Can I get you anything to drink, dear?" someone asked m. I turned my head around to see an older woman hovering over me. I automatically flinched back.

"errr,no thanks. I'm not thirsty" I replied quietly.


The woman offered me a small smile and moved on to the person in front of me. I sighed and turned my head back to face the small cabin window, fighting the urge to close my eyes. I couldn't escape him. Not then, not now. Whenever I shut my eyes, I see her lying there, bleeding, begging me for mercy. And I laughed. I had never loathed someone more in my life than I did at that moment. She ruined me. She ruined my plan, my destiny, my life! It was supposed to be Rosalie and Edward; golden couple, perfect pair. The mortal was never meant to be in the picture.

I loved him! And she just came here and took him from under me. He was MINE! Why couldn't she have chosen Emmett? She could have him. Not to say I don't love Emmett. Of course I do, though in a different way. He was there to make Edward jealous; make him see the light. But he never so much as flinched. I don't think he noticed. Ugh! At least he never had anyone. That made it a little more tolerable. I had a great distraction. He had his piano. Emmett was fun. He showed me a good time, and let's just say he knew what he was doing. The perfect hook-up. But husband? Yes got married again and again and again. Beautiful weddings, but all of them were just more failed attempts at making Edward want me the way he should. He was made for me, after all! ME! Not that twit.

When she came into his life, everything turned to hell. That bitch, with her tempting blood and naïve, stupid attitude. She tried to play with the big boys. And now she lost. She was out of her league from day one. Yet those looks that he gave her. The love in his eyes. It was sickening. Everything I had hoped for, and more. But those eyes weren't for me. They were for her. For that repulsive thing, whose life has stained my fingers and ruined my shirt. Whose face is now eternally carved into my brain and has managed to crush my silent pulse again and again and again. I squeezed my knuckles, hoping to suppress the ache in my stomach. Her screams continued to haunt me, and her eyes burned holes through mine. I sighed and covered my eyes with my hands. Why did I attack her? Why did my impeccable self control falter now? And in the worst possible way. I hurt him. I made him hate me. I bet he would kill me if he got the chance. I bet he would watch me die with satisfaction.

I sighed and looked out the window, watching the countless stars shine and twinkle. Ornaments of the sky, lighting my path as I entered this new life. I could survive. I didn't need Edward's love and devotion. I didn't even need his acceptance. I didn't need him.




kay, so that was... IT

short, I know. BUT AGAIN, this was just to get started again. idk... But if I get an idea, I can add a new chapter SOON. I no longer have a crazy lifestyle. I sleep, I'm healthy-ish, and I have a pretty light workload. Plus, I'm on an exchange-like program, so I have nights free. Well, that would be day for you all in the states. But ya, I'm going to have TIME now! The last time I had extra time was like, three years ago? idk...

but ya, it's all good now. I JUST NEED IDEAS! (sorry...i know I already mentioned it...BUT REALLY! I do not know if any of you have ever experienced writers block, but it SUCKS! so ya... HELP ME!) thanks!




um, I hope you don't hate me too much. I apologize (for the millionth time) PLEASE review! It helps motivate me! I would LOVE constructive criticism! I enjoy writing, and I'm always looking for ways to improve!

ok, I love you all! ALSO, I would love to have a beta reader. I have no idea how that works but if you would be interested, tell me! kay, I'll stop now...