14AN: I found this story gathering some serious dust bunnies on my computer and decided to post it.
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter or any of the characters mentioned in this story. I am currently raising money to buy them off J.K.R but have so far only raised enough for a sandwich off the dollar menu. Oh well I guess I will just have to keep saving… Anyway nothing here is mine but the plot. Blah blah blah. On with the story.
Teardrops and broken hearts
The beautiful girl with the heart shaped face sat huddled in the dark jumping every time the lightning would strike in the sky outside. Tears streamed down her face as she clutched a wizard photograph. Thinking back to the time when the photograph had been taken, momentarily made her smile…
Flashback
"Remus! Stop! Your going to make me fall!" And as if on cue Nymphndora Tonks tripped over her own feet and fell to the floor dragging Remus Lupin along with her! "OY! Tonks said rubbing her head checking for a lump. "Nymphorda are you ok?" asked a worried Remus. Moving to get off her with a sheepish look, his expression changed to one of shock when Tonks flipped him over and straddled him, then began tickling him in retaliation. "Ahhhh! Tonks, quit it! Hehehe" Remus giggled, struggling under a grinning Tonks. "No way Remus! Pay back's a bitch!" She laughed as he continued struggling against her attack.
Just as she was beginning to enjoy his torture he surprised her by flipping her to her back again. "Remus!" Tonks giggled as he assaulted her with wiggling fingers. "Please… I can't… breathe!" Tonks said out of breath from laughing. Her bright bubblegum pink hair switching to neon blue as she laughed. Her sides hurt from the continued laughing. And her face was flushed. Both were so distracted that neither of them noticed a giggling Ginny snap a picture of them laughing on the floor, and then run out of the library.
Tonks looked up into Remus's face and saw something in his eyes that she had never seen before. She saw love. For that brief unguarded moment in time Remus let her see how he really felt. Remus's tickling stopped as he looked down into the emotionally charged eyes of Tonks. And he saw what he had been feeling for all these months reflecting there. Remus leaned his face closer and softly pressed his warm lips to Tonks's. It felt like heaven to her. She was finally getting a taste of what she had been dreaming about, fantasizing about for almost the past year. Happiness could not describe what she was feeling. She was elated! They stayed that way until the sound of Molly moving in the hallway broke them apart. They glanced at each other and sprang to their feet. But unfortunately for them both, Tonks tripped over Remus's feet and sent them both tumbling to the ground, this time with Tonks on top of Remus, just as Molly walked into the library. The shocked look on Molly's face was enough to send them both into fits of laughter all over again. Sirius walked into the room then. Seeing his best friend on the floor with his cousin on top of him caused Sirius to begin laughing and run to the cabinet against the wall, to grab his camera. He snapped a photo saying, "this one's getting framed Moony! I don't know if I'll ever get the chance to blackmail you this way again!"
True to his word about an hour later, Sirius had the picture of Tonks laying on top of Remus framed and hanging on the wall in the library with a sticking charm on it so it could not be removed. And Remus did try.
Ginny's copy of the photo had become Tonks favorite possession. She kept it in the folds of her robes at all times. She loved to look at Remus's smiling face when she was feeling down. He always had the uncanny ability to make even the most difficult of problems melt away and to make her smile.
Return to present time
Tonks sat huddled in the corner thinking back to the time after that… They had finally been happy. All three of them for the briefest time had been, unmistakably happy. Tonks had Remus and her cousin. Sirius had not only a joyful Remus but he had plenty of blackmail from when ever he caught them snogging. (which truth be told had been quite often.) And Lupin not only had his best friend back and happy but he has a wonderful woman that cared for him. But then that night at the Department of Mysteries had changed everything. They had lost Sirius, and she had lost Remus… Well he wasn't gone really. But he was gone in every way that counted. He had gone on this "my life is not good enough for you, I'm too dangerous, I'm too poor for you, I'm too old for you," thing that pissed Tonks off to no end! He seamed to have a million excuses, but she didn't buy them. She knew that he wanted to be with her just as much as she wanted to be with him.
Flashback
"Why can't you just stop pretending and let me in?" Tonks cried as she looked at a haggard Remus. "Why are you pushing me away? We need each other most right now." She yelled. "Because I'm not good enough for you! You deserve so much more than I could ever give you." Remus yelled back. "Well you know what I think? I think that you are running scared!" She said. "How do you figure Nymphndora?" Remus asked. "I think you're pushing me away so you can't be hurt! You don't want to let anyone in just in case something were to happen to them. You don't want to go through what you went through with Sirius and James!" Tonks fired at him. "What would you know about it?" An angry Lupin yelled. "Your not the only one that lost Sirius! You may have had him longer but he was the only family I had left! This is a war and we need to keep those we love close to us! Please don't push me away! Do you just not care for me anymore?" She asked lowering her voice, tears streaming down her face. "Damn it Nymphndora! I do care for you! More than anything in the world. But I am not what you deserve! You deserve to have everything and I can give you nothing." Remus replied, defeated. "Remus I LOVE YOU! That is all I need. I don't care about money, and I don't care about how dangerous you perceive yourself to be! I'm an auror for Merlin's sake. I want to be with you! Please Remus." Tonks cried. "Please Dora, I'm not worth this! I do care for you. That is why I am leaving to follow the orders Dumbeldore gave me." Remus said cradling her face to his chest. "I have to go now." "Remus please don't go! I need you." Tonks cried clutching Remus's tattered robes. "Dora, please don't make this any harder than it has to be. I do care for you, but I am no good for you. Move on, find someone your own age." Remus said as he kissed Tonks one last time before he left.
Return to present
That night had been almost three months ago. Tonks sat in her darkened room at Grimwald place. The thunder crashed again and again. It felt as if the storm was over head. Mimicking the crashing of her heart.
So… Now that you have read please review. Tell me what you think… ::ducks:: Are you guys done throwing yet? One more? OK go ahead… Are you done now? Good… So good? Bad? Ugly? Let me know. I was kind of thinking that I would leave this as a stand alone piece and just say that's that dusting off my keyboard. But depending on what you guys think I may continue. So enough of my rambling and such. Please review.