20I Don't Want to Bring Down Tomorrow
"Lip-gloss"
The four-founders painting swings open and I find myself in the beautiful bliss that was my room I ignored for two weeks. The common room and sleeping area seemed abandoned, so I entered Pansy's bathroom, just to make sure she wasn't present. I scratched my forearm, because my tattoo was really itching, and pushed the door open.
Immediately, well after half a minute, I was out again, because Pansy was but naked, taking a shower in the center of her bathroom. I couldn't storm out immediately, because she is so damn hot. And I know it's wrong, I'm with Lavender, and was just dropping by in my Head Girl dorm to get a fresh set of clothes, because I'm out at Lavs. But I have to get back now, she'll probably be back from Seamus' party.
I hear Pansy leaving the bathroom as I close the door, clad in my favorite pair of jeans and green Flogging Molly tee.
I clench the muscles in my jaw and forearms and my hands are balled in rock hard fists.
"Mione I'm sorry" Lavenders face is stained with tears, and she tries to take my hands into hers, but I push them away. I can't face her right now. Reaching the door, I turn around for the last time. She is still sitting on the bed, now facing towards me, but not seeing me, she looks so sad, so sincerely sorry.
"Mi, please."
I'm sorry for her but the stubbornness in me surfaces.
"Don't ever call me Mi our Mione ever again, I'm not yours anymore, and certainly not your one." I slam the door on my way out, hearing her sob uncontrollably when the echo of the slam faints.
Life is just a chain of patterns, it just keeps repeating itself, take the breakfast at Hogwarts for example, I enter the Great Hall, and I see Ginny piling eggs onto her plate. Or she's kissing Luna, but mostly food's a first for Gin. Seating myself at the Gryffindor table, I glance over to the Slytherins, making eye contact with Pansy, and I gesture her to sit with me. Fortunately there are days that break this cycle ,like today.
This day, the first Monday of October to be exactly, I walk in the Great hall, fingers linked with Lavenders. Ginny stops eating, which is rare. She gives me her "good morning" smile, and whispers something in Luna's ear, who starts laughing. Lavender kisses me on my cheek, and we sit together. I gesture Pansy to come over, but she bluntly ignores the gesture.
"You know what's wrong with Pansy?"
"Honestly Mi, I haven't got the foggiest, but she's does act weird lately."
"I'm sure she'll tell you if you ask her babe."
I hold a piece of egg in front of Lav's face. She kisses my lips before taking the yellow substance of the fork with her teeth.
As cool as I can be, I exit the common room. "How could she, how could she, how could she just sleep with SEAMUS of all people." I scream the basterds name, banging my fist against the wall, pretending it's his face. When my brain finally registers the pain it causes, I start to run. Heading for the lake, I trip over an object, falling flat-faced in the grass.
A minute or so later I roll over on my back, facing the cloudless blue sky. October is celebrating its last warm day, everything seems perfect. I wish it had rained today, that would have fitted my mood a bit better. Although, if this hadn't happened, I would have spent all day with Lavender in the sun, reading magazines, stealing kisses and making homework. But hell no, she just had to get drunk at Seamus party, and she had to kiss him, and she had to give him a blowjob, and he had to fuck her, and she had to think that was ok.
My fingers wrap around the grass, like they had a week ago.
I wrap my fingers around the grass, Lavenders wraps hers around mine.
"You shouldn't destroy the grass like that Mi,"
I mumble sorry against her lips, bringing my hands to the back of her neck, deepening the kiss.
I feel a drop of rain falling on my cheek, soon followed by a lot of wet relatives.
"Darn," Lav shoves all her magazines in her bag. "First in my dorm wins!"
Reluctantly I get up, rolling on my stomach, and pushing me up. Although my brain says I should go to the Library, my feet lead me to my own dorm. Haven't been there for two weeks, because Pansy asked me if I could please stay at Lavenders, she got sick of the noise we made, (ok, I forgot the silencing spell, sorry!) I slept at Lavs for two whole weeks, shared her bed for 14 days, and she just, she just cuts me down. Like I'm just some stupid plant, which you love so it blossoms and grows, and when it has grown enough you cut it down and eat it.
Altogether, I'm not just torn apart, I'm scared, scared of Pansy whom I gave an ill treatment the past two weeks.
Two weeks, 14 days, 366 hours,20160 minutes, of not seeing Pansy, I hope she forgives me, after all I just cut her down like Lav did with me. I'm such a fucking ass when I'm in love.
"I wrote Parvati today, telling her of us."
"That's ok, Ron will know, and than so will Harry."
"Don't you think they'll be cross with you for not telling them personally?"
"Nah, Ron let Parvati tell you to tell me they're together, remember? Harry maybe minds, but he'll get it, and he's probably to wrapped up in that nice Italian boyfriend of him."
"Do you have a picture of him and Dominico?"
Reluctantly I reached for my book bag, and found my agenda.
"This is a picture of him and D at Beauxbatons, last month, I think D wanted him to show the school he attended."
"Did Dominco go to Beaxbatons? Why would he go to a French school while he is Italian?"
"Italy didn't own a Wizarding school until recently and D was already in his sixth year when it opened, so he just finished Beauxbatons. If my mom hadn't urged my dad to move back to England after giving birth to me, I would have been at Beauxbatons to at the moment."
"I'm glad your mom decided to come back."
When I enter my, our, bedroom in order to break something, anything. Pansy, only clad in a towel because of her recent shower, gets up from her bed and hugs me. And of course I cry, how immature and guy-queer of me.
"I'm s-ssorry not t-to t-talk to you for two who-ole weeks".
"Shhhs, it's ok, Love does that to people, she does that to people, but promise me to think twice before doing anything that not involves kicking Lavs ass.
She wiped the tears away from under my eyes, and moves me to the nearest couch. We sit around and talk, first about The Whore aka Lavender, but soon we talked just random stuff, and by ten at night, we went to bed. I asked her if we could sleep in the same bed, because for the first time in my life I was really afraid. Hell that girl shook up a lot.
I apologize for abandoning this story for quite a while, I just, yeah, I can think of lame excuses and such but, they would be lame, so I'm just sorry. I reread the story and did some self reflecting and came to the conclusion tha a)I'm not really consistend in Hermione(she's gone from a smoking rebel to a crying heap) b)I cut of all happening things in like 2 chapters. But I try to get a grip on the plotline,(I haven't got one, which is typicall for me :p)I can only ask you to review so I can imrpove the story and my writng skills and critsism is welcome, because I think you can learn from it, I suppose. And if you notice any grammar/spelling flaws(which wille be in it) please point them out! Happy Spring everyone!