Mark had left minutes earlier and all Derek had been able to think about was how unbelievably insensitive he had been towards Meredith
Mark had left minutes earlier and all Derek had been able to think about was how unbelievably insensitive he had been towards Meredith. She had confessed her feelings for him and he had said merely said thank you. From the scared look on her face, she had been prepared to hear him say that he didn't feel the same way but she had expected a real answer. But he couldn't have given her an answer since he didn't even know how he felt.
He was finally divorced. Mark had brought back the papers signed by Addison. He hadn't wanted to know how or why Mark had them. He had just been glad everything was finally over. He had loved Addison but somewhere along the way they had stopped loving each other. But to him, she had destroyed any faith he had in love. But now, everything felt different. Meredith was in love with him, he didn't know why or when it had happened but she was in love with him, she had told him and he had reacted like an idiot.
There was no doubt that he loved Meredith but was he in love with her? He had done everything not to think about that. He had known since the beginning that she was someone he could have easily fall in love with but he had refused to let it happen. But now he could only focus on her beauty, her kind heart, her giggle, the way she scrunched her nose. He felt like he knew her by heart. When she wasn't with him, he missed her terribly. He couldn't imagine living without her. He couldn't tell if it was friendship or love that he was feeling and until he was sure, he couldn't tell her. However, a friend wouldn't have reacted the way he had when he saw her flirting with another man. He was finally ready to admit that he had punched Mark out of jealousy but it didn't mean he was in love with her. When he was with her, he felt free, she knew him and didn't judge him, he could freely be himself. He didn't spend a day without thinking about her and let's not talk about the physical attraction… She had given him hope and now her love. His heart rate started to speed up at he thought of her and the possibility of losing their relationship.
He had been an idiot from the very beginning when he had refused to open up his heart to her. He knew the answer now, he was in love with Meredith. And strangely, it didn't feel as scary as he thought it would. He had sworn he would never fall in love again but he was in love with an amazing woman and because of that he wasn't afraid of the future. Now, all he needed to do was to tell her. His palms got sweaty at the thought of telling her which was stupid since she loved him and all he had to do was to tell her he loved her back.
He couldn't believe it. Meredith loved him. He broadly grinned when he remembered how nervous she had been when she had told him. He was in a hurry to tell her, she must be feeling dejected after his stupid answer. He rushed out his office to look for her but he couldn't find her anywhere and he was pretty sure she was avoiding him. He went to the nurses' station and asked one of them to page Meredith to his office. They needed privacy, so he went back to his office and hoped she would show up.
He was glad he didn't have a surgery until in the afternoon but he had a lot to catch up on paperwork. He tried to concentrate on them but he couldn't. Ten minutes later, he heard a soft knock on his door. He cleared his throat to get rid of his nervousness and ask her to come in. When he was how nervous she seemed to be and the way she wouldn't look at him in the eye, he felt stupid to have felt nervous. He loved her and knew she loved him too but she didn't know, he had no reason to be nervous compared to her.
"Meredith, I'm sorry I reacted that way" He told her, half-smiling at her. Se looked up and nodded but didn't say a word. "I was surprised" He kept on "I didn't expect it and I needed some time to think about it"
"You don't have to be sorry. I'm the one who is sorry, I didn't want to fall in love with you but I did and then I didn't want to tell you but again I did"
"Don't say that" he told her while getting up and closing the space between them. She attempted to take some steps back but she already had her back was against his door.
"Say what?" She frowned at him.
"Don't say that you didn't want to fall in love with me because I like to think that I'm very lucky an amazing woman like yourself fell in love with me." He drew his head closer to hers. "Don't say that you didn't want to tell me because you telling me finally opened my eyes"
"What… What do you mean?" Meredith stuttered because of his closeness.
"I love you, Mer" He looked at her right in the yes to prove his point, hoping his eyes reveal what he felt.
Meredith opened her mouth in surprise but quickly recovered "No, you can't say that" She put both of her hands on his chest and pushed him gently away from her.
"Can't say what?" He asked confused.
"That you love me"
"Why?" He frowned.
"Because you're telling me because I told you" She looked down, not able to meet his eyes.
"No, Mer. I'm sorry I didn't tell you right back"
"Why made you change your mind? It was because I told you Derek"
"I didn't change my mind." He shook his head. "I loved you before you told me, I just didn't want to acknowledge it"
"Is it so horrible to be in love with me?"
"Why do you misinterpret everything I say?" He sighed, he had thought it would have been easier than that. "I didn't want to fall back in love but I did and I'm in love with you, Mer and I'm finally ready to admit it"
"Are you sure?" Meredith asked hopeful. Things had never been easy for her, she couldn't believe that he loved her.
"I'm completely sure. Since the day I met you, I knew that I wanted you more that just for sex, that's why the first night I went away, that's why I backed away that other night when we nearly had sex. I was scared you would become too important for me but now I'm not scared anymore. I love everything about you" His slipped around her to nudge closer, bringing his body inches from her, and looked at her seductively and whispered low. "Meredith, will you go out with me?"
Meredith giggled "Did you just ask me to go out with you as if you were asking for sex?"
"Do you want me to be asking for sex?" He brought their faces together so their noses were touching.
Meredith rolled her eyes but hen became more serious "Yes" and she furiously blushed "I mean, yes I will go out with you not that I want you to ask for sex, but it doesn't mean that I don't want you to ask… Okay just shut me up"
He chuckled "Don't shut up, I love it" He brought his mouth as close to hers as he could without actually touching it "Now, can I kiss you?"
She gently put her lips on his and neither of them moved as if they were both trying to take time to memorize the feeling. Her lips were as soft as he remembered. His lips slightly parted, he put her bottom lip between his lips and sucked it gently. The kiss was so intimate, so tender and so full of love that Meredith gradually became hungry. His tongue flickers out and gently traces the edges of her lips. Her breathing became deeper, her fingers travelled down his neck and through his soft hair. A sudden delicate lick upon her earlobe made her knees weak, he licked and kissed, sucked. She let out an involuntarily cry and gasped softly. Her hands cupped his face and drew him into a deep kiss, her tongue pressed in and hungrily explored his mouth.
"That was quite a kiss" He whispered slightly out of breath.
"It was" she whispered back, already feeling the need to kiss him back. His body was still pressed against hers and his face inches away from her.
"I love kissing you" He smiled at her.
"Then why did you stop?" she replied seductively.
"Because if I don't, I won't be able to stop" He played with her hair and the feeling of his arousal told her he was speaking the truth.
"Who said I wanted you to stop?"
He looked at her "Our first time shouldn't be here"
"Why? I thought you wanted to christen your office" She replied playfully.
"We will, don't worry about that" He smirked "But I want our first time to be special. You deserve more than an office"
"You are special enough for me, I want you now" She ran her fingers through his hair and kissed his exposed neck and chin.
"Are you sure?" He asked huskily.
"I'm completely sure" She brought her lips to his.
His hands roamed over her back and caressed her body. They slid down from her breasts to her stomach and disappeared into her slacks. She leaned her head back, she placed her hands on his hips and began a slow dance against his body, moving up and down while pushing against him, rubbing herself against his now more evident erection.
His hand moved down inside her pants. She took an intake of breath and emitted slow moans. Her mouth found his again, his lips were so soft. She pushed her tongue into his mouth, matching the slow sensual rhythm of his fingers. He brought his hand up to her mouth and whispered "You're so beautiful".
She took his fingers into her mouth and sucked her own taste from them, closing her eyes. The affect made him close his eyes and savour the feeling of her lips and tongue drawing his fingers in. He slowly removed his wet fingers and allowed them to trail down her chin and massage her throat. Then he began to undress her.
He slowly removed her blouse, softly caressing her breasts through the fabric. He pulled the blouse down her shoulders and arms, and she shivered. Her scrub pants fell to the floor. She was wearing a lacy black bra and panties, she stepped out of her slacks, and he paused to look at her, take her in. His hands delicately traced her form, down her arms and over her waist. His fingers pulled the top of her bra down, and he bent down to taste her nipple. Her legs lost their strength so she grabbed him to steady herself. His hands reached around and unfastened her bra, and it fell to the floor. He held her tightly as his mouth kissed and sucked and pulled on her breast.
"You feel so good" she moaned.
He took it as an invitation to continue. He slowly lowered himself to the floor in front of her and slid her panties down her legs slowly. Her hands grabbed his head and pulled him into her. His tongue darted out to taste her, his five o'clock shadow grazing her skin. As he licked her, his head moved into her. His hands moved up behind her and his fingers dug into her cheeks, pulling her hard against his mouth. Her own hands moved up to cup her breast as waves of pleasure were overwhelming her. Her breathing increased in speed and he knew that she was reaching orgasm.
Her hands gripped his shoulders as she came hard. He continued to lick her during her spasms until she backed away from him and pulled him up from the floor. They both struggled with his scrubs. When he was free of them, he took her by the shoulders and backed her up against the wall.
He pushed her against the wall and her legs opened for him. He brought both of her wrists up over her head, pinning them against the wall.
A tremor runs through his body. "Are you sure?" He asked her and she nodded before forcefully taking his lips. He entered her and moved quickly and deeply into her then he moved inside her with a slow sensual motion.
"Faster" she whimpered.
He moved in and out of her faster and faster, pushing her body against the wall while restraining her wrist. She loved how he could completely filled her. He dropped her wrists and grabbed her shoulders instead. She was near another orgasm, he moved hard and fast, they had both lost themselves in their passion and their hunger for the other. She grabbed him and clawed his back. She gasped and moaned, she is lost in an unfathomable sea of pleasure as she exploded and cried out his name. After a sudden deep thrust, he stopped, a warmth exploded within her and they are both filled with utter bliss.
He reaches over and brushes a few strand of hair away from her eyes. She felt a smile crept upon her face and his face mirrored it. He sighed and leaned forward to kiss her. She took his mouth and tried to memorize it, to keep forever. It seemed impossible that she would be able to keep this feeling of love and safety.
"I love you" he whispered.
"I love you too" she echoed.
So this was the last part, I'm sorry if it was a little too fast but I didn't have a lot of time and I wanted to finish that story but I hope you still liked it. THANK YOU for reading and commenting, comments mean a lot to me.