Edward looked into Bella's chocolate eyes, implanting them in his mind, "You don't have to do this, love." Bella bit her lip but stared back into Edward's eyes, "I want to Edward..." Edward sighed, pressing his ear against her chest, hearing her heart beat again, "Very well..." He looked up into her eyes and kissed her gently on her lips. He then pressed his lips against the soft part of her neck where her blood was pumping fiercly. Bella closed her eyes as she felt Edward press his teeth against her soft vunerable skin...

Edward was watching Bella that first day. Surprisingly, Bella did not cry out, like the first time she was bitten. She writhed around in pain yet not one sound flew through her lips. Her angel like face was a mask of pain and it wrenched at Edward's long dead heart. Carlisle was watching from the edge of the clearing and monitored Bella carefully.

"She's fine, Edward; coping amazingly well, much better than last time. Everything's how it should be."

Edward nodded to show he had heard Carlisle's thoughts, his topaz eyes never moving from Bella's face. He heard Carlisle leave and run back towards the house. Edward sighed again as a faint moan escaped from her lips. He never wanted to see Bella put through any pain, especially if it was as intense as this. His hands balled into fists. He couldn't bear it. Maybe he should just kill her. To save her the pain. He tensed himself now as another weak moan issued from her mouth. He clenched his teeth as he tried to mentally prepare himself to do it. An internal war waged inside him.

"You can't just kill her! It's not fair on her!" "You put her in this pain, so why don't you stop it?" "You won't survive without her!" "Yeah, but you can't survive this pain. Her pain is your pain!"

"Don't you dare!" A voice interrupted Edward's thoughts. Edward looked up to see Alice looking very angry. He'd never seen Alice this angry since...well, since he'd met her. Edward then realised he was centimetres away from Bella's neck.

"Get away from her neck, that's where you bit her!" Jasper cautioned as he appeared next to Alice. Edward stared at them as he slowly leaned away from Bella, his topaz eyes showed his pain, yet Jasper could feel how deep it was. Edward exhaled and then clutched his knees to his chest as he rocked back and forth, his eyes on Bella.

"Her face, her beautiful face, Bella, how could I do this?" Edward sighed again as Bella screamed silently. His dead heart felt like it was breaking in half. He put his head down, so his forehead rested on his knees. Just so he didn't have to look on his wife's face; too much pain was etched there. It didn't help. The image of Bella in pain was playing again and again in front of his eyes. He lifted his face as he looked up to the sky; he pinched the bridge of his nose and hummed Bella's lullaby to himself. It wasn't helping, this once. It was just worse as all the images of when Bella was in pain rushed through his mind.

"Alice, I've got to go. This is killing me." Jasper stated. Alice looked at him questioningly as Jasper sighed, "His pain." He nodded at Edward. Alice gave a small smile as she planted a kiss on Jasper's cheek before he ran off. She then turned towards Edward. His face was hidden from her, but he was tense and shook a lot.

"Poor Edward...still...HOW COULD YOU HAVE THOUGHT OF DOING THAT TO BELLA?!" Alice screamed in her head when she knew Edward was listening. Edward flinched visibly as he looked up to face Alice. He stood up slowly, running his hands through his bronze hair.

"I... I don't know...it's just...how could I put her through this pain? I should kill her now!" Edward's eyes suddenly turned pitch black as he whipped around to face Bella.