19Thanks so much for the reviews! I'm sorry if people were confused about the sap stuff. Bella does need to get energy from somewhere and her hate for blood before was strengthened. Anyway, sorry that it's been so long since I updated, but I was behind with all my school work and I still am so you might not get another update till I've handed my project in...about a weeks time! Sorry. But Enjoy!
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Edward's POV
I sat there, my head tucked between my knees, rocking back and forth. Bella, my angel. I'd turned her into a monster. Except, she couldn't be a monster, not dear beautiful Bella. And now she didn't even remember me the monster she once loved. I knew she was too good for me but I'd been selfish enough to end her sweet life. She could have gone to college, been normal...if it weren't for me. I heard footsteps coming closer. It was another vampire. Maybe it would kill me. I would gladly accept this death.
"Excuse me? Can you get up please? Edward?" A sweet seductive voice persuaded me. Too bad. I didn't care. My Bella had gone. She had probably run off. No wonder Emmett and people had sprinted off as well. I ignored the voice and carried on rocking. Back and forth, back and forth, back and forth...
"Edward? Hello? Is anyone in there?" The same voice continued, slightly louder and harsher but still sounding like the breaking of the waves on the shore. I felt someone's hard knuckle rap me on the head. I growled, wondering if it would provoke them to kill me. Good. Because I wanted whoever it was, a girl I guess, to kill me. Bella...poor dear Bella, beautiful Bella.
"Ow!" I felt something very hard come into contact with my head. The musical voice that had been speaking now almost shouted into my sensitive ears, "For goodness sake, Edward, do you have to be that stubborn! For heaven's sake, I chose this, what you call eternally damned life myself! Get a grip!"
That sounded a lot like Bella...wait...could it be? I snapped my head up and stared up at the goddess above me. She looked furious and her ruby-red eyes met mine almost immediately, searching my face. I couldn't make out her features though because she was overshadowing me and even with my keen eyesight, her hair covered most of her face. She straightened up, huffing slightly. Now I could see her in all her glory. It was like seeing an angel, except it couldn't possibly be because not even the merciful Lord would send a creature like this to see a monster like me.
She had pale skin that sparkled in the sunlight and brown wavy glossy hair that fell around her shoulders. Her face was heart-shaped and her eyes, though they were red but had a hint of green around the edges. Her figure was amazing and even as she pouted, she looked unbelievably cute. Wait, I wasn't thinking this was I. All I wanted was Bella. I put my head down back to rest on my knees. However, before I could start to rock, my head was jerked upwards hard on something cold touched my lips. Without realising, I kissed the vampire back and hugged her to me. Wait...what was I doing? I had Bella, wherever she was. I pulled back abruptly. She stood up then, sighing.
The vampire looked annoyed, "Edward what is up with you? I mean, first you try to kill me according to Alice, then you try and get me to remember you...okay I admit, that was my fault as well, but I was thirsty...anyway, then you ignore me, then kiss me, and now it looks like we're back to the ignoring stage." The girl crouched down in front of me again. Her voice now calm, "I get it now. You don't think I'm Bella do you? Try and reach for my mind." I did as she asked, and found a blank space. I lowered my head, ashamed. How could I have not even thought about that? Bella was a vampire now! Curse my stupidness. She probably wouldn't even speak to me now.
"Hey, now. Don't become sad. You've still got me remember? I forgive you. I kinda forced you into this position. Please...you make me feel bad." Bella lifted my chin with one finger. Her blood-red eyes met mine. Her eyes misted over like she was going to cry and then remembered that she couldn't. She turned away and sat down. Her body started to shake and she looked like she was having a nervous breakdown. She was mumbling something but it was a while before I could pick anything up with my ultra-hearing. Then between the sobs, I heard the words, "You hate me now. You hate me for being a monster. You would rather that I was dead." Shocked, I went over to her and put my arms round her, pulling her into my lap and rocking her back and forth humming my lullaby. Slowly, but surely, she stopped crying.
"I'm sorry." She sniffed as she hugged me back. I smiled gently at her, "I was just stressed. Just as well Jasper wasn't here. I'd feel sorry for Alice then!" Bella giggled then, and within a moment we were both lying on the floor, laughing hysterically. Bella lay there for a while, gasping for the unneeded breath then turned to face me on the grass. She smiled sweetly at me, "Do you remember that time when I came here and first saw you sparkling. I was so happy, you were way too good for me and yet you still wanted to spend time with me. Now, this might sound weird, but we're here again and we're equals for once. Look, I sparkle!" This simple sentence reminded me of a child finding out something new. Like snow. I laughed freely then, and got up, and lifted Bella to her feet. I wrapped my arms around her waist and her hands came around my neck. I smiled, "You were always too good for me, and still are, Bella." Then I lowered my head to kiss her beautiful lips.
If anyone wonders why Edward acts this way, its because it's Edward and her overreacts and is having second thoughts and blaming himself! Hope you liked it. Please review!