I was planning to write this story to offer it as a Christmas gift to a friend of mine. That is no longer possible, so now I'm going to dedicate this story and many others in her loving memory.

This story is in memory of Rachel, a soul that no longer is with us, but that won't ever be forgotten. She's the reason why I've got this story written up for Christmas, she never wanted me to give up.

Wherever you are…


I wanted to say thank you to the two amazing people who reviewed.

Who-I-am-x – I so glad I made her proud, she was after all my big inspiration, this one is all for her. Glad you loved it. I wouldn't have it any other way. You see the Suki is already one of my sluttish characters (I wonder why?). About Tong I guess you are right. In IDRHY I'll make it easy for him. Keep reading… and if you want you can show it to anyone you want… love you… X

sigh () – Thank you for review even though I considered it a flame. And none of the T would be for Tomoyo because no matter how the anime went and other authors write I don't really like the YAOI stuff. And how could I paired her up with Tomoyo if Tomoyo belongs to Eriol. And there isn't anything to tell about any break up between Toya and Yukito since in my point of view they aren't really together. This story doesn't have magic, and it is nothing related to CCS only the characters belong to there. And this story is like a sequel from my Christmas special of last year. So sorry if you thought this had anything of that type.

I also want to thank everyone who read it… but please leave a review…

Now on with the story…

Learning To Breathe

2- Coping with the loss

She was still in pain from losing him, but the ways she'd lost him seemed to make it all worse. More than anything, she was afraid; afraid that she might never be happy again; not like she had been, when he'd first waltzed into her life, literally.

When she finally woke up, the sun was already setting, and her bedside clock read 5.15pm. She sat on her bed and looked around, not remembering very much.

Why's my room so messed up?

She looked down at her pillow, stained with the make up she'd been wearing, and it all came back to her.

Her mind a swirl of worry, betrayal, rage and pain, she stood and gazed at herself in her full length mirror, hating what she saw. Her hair was a mess, her face plastered in the make up he'd made her wear, and he ridiculously short dress was creased; and suddenly, she lost it, ripping the dress from her body, rubbing the make up away, and pulling her hair from the scruffy bun, then she looked back up.

What she saw made her smile slightly; staring back at her was Meilin Li. The only thing that was missing was the fiery spark in her eyes, but she was sure he'd taken that from her for good.

She walked to the other side of the room, resuming what she'd begun the previous day - ridding her wardrobe of everything that was small and too revealing; clothes her ex-fiancée wanted her to wear.

When she was done, she scooped them up, and into a box with all the make up he'd insisted she wore.

She slipped on her red, silk robe, grabbing the box, and taking it to the balcony, where she set it all on fire, watching it burn for a while, making sure it was all stripped down to ashes, and destroyed, much like what he'd done to her. When it was all destroyed, she swept it from her balcony, watching the ashes float over the Tomodea night sky.

"It's time to get rid of the other stuff…but I need a drink, first…" She got a bottle of red wine a 1996 Ch. Latour, and a glass, and sat down on her couch, starting off with small sips, and staring at a small, framed photo in her hands. It could be any photo, but this one had a special meaning; her and Tong, when they first started dating.


Meilin was worried sick about her cousins. They should've been back hours ago, since the ceremony had ended, but still, there was no sign of either Syaoran or Eriol. They should've arrived an hour and half before so she could surprise them, instead of them spending Christmas all by themselves, but, instead, they were nowhere to be found, and she was stuck with their annoying friend, Tong Kai.

"Would you stop that?" She looked directly at him, now, his dark brown eyes, with soft traces of silver, met her ruby ones with a glint.

"Stop what?" He was smirking.

"That thing you're doing…it's irritating."

"What thing?" His smirk widened.

"You're so infuriating!" She was exasperated.

"What did I do now? I came in, sat here, and didn't utter a word, like you told me to – how is that irritating?"

"You're staring at me!"

"But I can't do anything else!"

"How can you be so you calm, when my cousins are missing?"

"Chill Meilin-chan, they're probably with Sakura and Tomoyo!"

"So? And don't call me that!" Her face reddened at the realisation of what he'd called her.

"Call you what, Meilin-chan?" She cringed at this, and he smiled.

"I didn't give you permission for you to call me that."

"But Meilin-chan, today makes exactly one year that we met!" He gave her a soft smile, one that melted her heart, and made her slightly worried about how easily he got to her.

"You're counting?" She asked, flattered.

"Of course! It's not everyday I meet a girl as passionate and direct as you. I like you!" He blurted out this last part.

"Yeah, sure! Like you like every other girl on the planet!" Her sharp words cut him like a knife, now.

"No, just you - you were the only one that slapped me at the first meeting!"

"Hey, that was self-defence - who said you could hold any girl that walked by you?" She lifted her hands into the air.

"You looked so much like someone I knew!"

"Yeah, right!" She didn't believe any of it, knowing his reputation as a sweet-talker.

"Seriously, but after I met you-" He was cut off, however.

"Stop right there; I don't want to hear it!"

"Hear what?" He adopted an innocent smile.

"What you've be telling me for the past year! You know stalking is against the-" Now it was her turn to be interrupted.

"So I've been told – by you…but I can't get you out of my head!"

"Stop it! You are so full of-"

"Love for you?" He try to say it like he meant it, but Meilin disregarded the thought.


"I'm telling the truth!" He pouted slightly, pretending to be hurt.

"If I didn't believe you in the past four months, what makes you think I will now?" She crossed her arms.

"Christmas miracle?"

"You've got to be kidding me!" She was in complete disbelief at what he'd said.

"Nope, I'll prove it to you!"


"Before this night ends, you're going on a date with me!"

"Right." She almost laughed at this, and started pacing the room once more, and growled when she noticed him staring at her, once more.

"Stop it!"

"Only if you stop walking around!"

"Fine!" She said, plopping down on the couch.

A few minutes had gone by, when she noticed him staring again.


"I can't help it!"

"If you don't stop, I'll make you!" She threatened.

"How? You gonna hurt me again, like last year?"

"That's a thought!" She walked to the window, searching for signs of her cousins, but screamed when she felt an arm around her waist, relaxing only slightly when she realised what was going on.

"Get off of me!"

"Meilin, calm down, you're too tense!" He whispered, breathing near her neck, sending a shiver down her spine.

"Stop that!" She muttered, rather quickly, a shake in her voice that only anyone close to her could've heard.

"I don't like you!"

"But I like you! And I'm yours, when you want me…now, how about a dance?" He murmured huskily in her ear.

"No!" But her body began swaying slightly with his.

"C'mon it'll be fun!" He said, turning her in their embrace.

"But this doesn't mean I like you!" She muttered.

"No, that'll come later…" He whispered, lowering his head to her ear.

"You're too full of yourself for your own good!"

"I'm just stating the obvious!" He smirked, pulling her closer to his chest. He was enjoying the moment, it wasn't every day she would let him get close enough so that he could hold her in his arms. Truth to be told, he'd begun to like her on the first day he saw her, even before she'd slapped him..

He hadn't left his best first impression, but her first impression on him would leave a mark on his mind, heart and soul till the day he died. She had a fire blazing in her eyes that made them even redder, a sparkle he'd never seen before.. Her hair was let down, she was wearing a red chiffon dress that reached right above her knees, and black high heels that made her legs look even longer. He couldn't take his eyes away, even after she had slapped him, and Sakura's brother knock him on the head. Then he'd learnt exactly how over-protective Touya Kinomoto was.

But that was a year ago, and now she was on his arms, and, after a year of celibacy and going after her, he was holding her. It was all worth it.

Meilin was content to be in his arms, although she denied it. For sometime now she felt a tug in her heart when he was around. And, now, being in his arms, she felt safe and secure, something she hadn't felt for a while. The last time she had was when Touya had left Japan, 6 months ago, and she'd gone with Sakura, to see him of. He was a good friend and this year he wouldn't be with them, wouldn't be back for another 6 months.

In Tong's arms, she felt loved. Maybe dating him wouldn't be that bad, and she knew he hadn't been with anyone for the past year…

Her had was resting on his chest, her arms around his neck, his head was on top of hers, his arms around her thin waist, for the first time in his life he didn't felt the urge to run his hands over her body because that would end the moment they were sharing, he was more than happy to just be able to hold her. They swayed softly to the beat of the slow song none of them wanted that moment to end. It was the highlight of their year, like Santa had brought their presents a couple of hours earlier.

Each other.

They didn't notice the music stop, until they heard a quicker beat, and broke apart, sitting on the couch. Eventually, he couldn't hold it anymore; he took her, once again, into his arms, bringing her into his lap, and, before she could react, he kissed her on the lips; a sweet and passionate kiss - at first she stiffened, but then she let herself relax in the moment. They broke apart, due to lack of oxygen, their foreheads touching, and, ever so softly he whispered;

"Let me take you on a date!"

She smiled softly and whispered back;

"I consider this a date, this is how my first dates go…apart from the kiss…"

"So let me take you on a second date…like…as a couple…"

"You mean it?" She tried not to get her hopes up.

"Every word! Please?"

"Yes, I'll go out with you" She lay her head on his shoulder.

End of Flashback.

She forced herself back, she couldn't deal with the memories at the moment, since each and every remembrance of him made a cut deep in her heart, and she couldn't stop her tears, no matter what she did. She lay back down on the couch with the wine glass in one hand, and the bottle in the other; she was looking at their picture, where they were holding each other, happy, smiling at the camera; that was how she fell asleep.

To be continued

A.n: Hey I updated again… Let's face it this one I'm updating daily, not like my other fics. And I'm sorry for everyone who was expecting it to be, but I can really do anything about it at the moment.

And I know this isn't near my long extended chapters but this was suppose to be a one-shot…

Since I should be studying and all, big exam tomorrow morning.

I hope you enjoyed it… and Please review it will make really happy… like my editor.