I was planning to write this story to offer it as a Christmas gift to a friend of mine. That is no longer possible, so now I'm going to dedicate this story and many others in her loving memory.

This story is in memory of Rachel, a soul that no longer is with us, but that won't ever be forgotten. She's the reason why I've got this story written up for Christmas, she never wanted me to give up.

Wherever you are…


I wanted to say thank you to the two amazing people who reviewed.

Who-I-am-x – That means a lot to me that he has agreed, of course they come to second best… they are cute in my other fic in this one I had to make him mean… I keep telling you that I didn't meant it to be… and tell him to stop glaring it's not nice. And he is not idiot, just a little slow sometimes… She had to come to realise what with the blind love for Tong made her lose – herself. No evidence of those days could be saved… I can't wait for your next review…

-Ms. Decadence- - Thank you for your reviews it meant a lot to me that you liked my work. I like to put a little more humanity in the characters like they were for real, with real feelings that way it seems more realistic. And tong still have a lot to go through. And I bet with you there will be a point there you'll be sorry for him. Meilin in this story is my pride and joy, it makes me remember of a few people I know. And about where it all went wrong you'll just have to wait and see. Keep reading.

sigh again () – Thank you for review even though I considered it a flame. If my story makes you so uncomfortable that you had to use the review to put it down, then don't. As much as I appreciate a review yours are simply to mean. I never said anyone had to read. And if you read it carefully you know this is a memorial story to a friend of mine.

I don't care about Yaoi, or yuri or shoujo-ai is, because I don't write any of it, if you had read any of my stories before you'd have known it. I don't care if you think this Tomoyo has the worst crushes, because I don't see it that away. Tomoyo and Eriol complement themselves.

Of course Sakura and Eriol are together, have you read the first chapter by any chance? This story is a sequel from the other I did last year, where Sakura and Syaoran end up together and so do Eriol and Tomoyo.

If you want keep on reading. But please contain yourself on your rude remarks. Because if you don't write don't put down other people's work.

I also want to thank everyone who read it… but please leave a review…

Now on with the story…

3- After the tornado

With Tong

He sat amongst the debris of his house; it looked like a tornado had gone through it. He'd lost her, the only woman he had ever cared about and for what?

He knew he deserved everything she had sent his way, the destruction of his most prized possessions, and then, when the media arrived, followed by the police, he knew she had gone as far as telling the doorman, so his humiliation was public. Thank God, when they had arrived, Suki wasn't there anymore. He managed to tell them a good story, saying it was a robbery, and they'd soon all left, seeing as it wasn't the scandal they'd wanted.

"I'm so stupid!" He said, thinking he was still alone.

"No, you aren't!" Suki walked in, treating his place as her own.

"When are you going to clean this dump, and get rid of these ugly pictures?" She said, picking up on of Meilin's portraits, but he snatched it back.

"I thought I made myself clear, when I kicked you out yesterday!"

"No, you didn't." She placed her hands on his chest.

"Now you can have me!" She began to lower her hands, only to bring them up again, which would usually turn him on, but it now disgusted him.

"Don't you get it, you slut, because of you I lost the best thing I've ever had."

"Hey, it takes two to tango!"

"That doesn't matter anymore, since I'm as good as dead! I don't want you near me!"

"Don't worry your little head, I'll be back!"

"Save the trip. I won't be here!"

"What you mean?"

"Exactly what I said, I won't be here!" But he didn't hear anything else she said, now, he was staring at a picture of Mei.

I miss her!

"I don't care about the beating I'll take, I just want her by my side, or at least speaking to me…"

Flash back

Tong was walking Meilin to a small get together with a few friends and family, Touya's welcome back party.

Tong wasn't to happy about the way she talked about her guys friends, but it didn't help his paranoia.

"I wouldn't ever stoop that low!" She laughed, holding his hand, their fingers laced together.

"What?" He was confused, now.

"Cheating, in case you are wondering, in that silly head of yours. Love and trust are the same, and I trust you, I just hope you-"

"I do, but-"

"You can't stop wondering about that!" She stopped dead in her tracks.

"Yeah" He stopped, too.

"I would prefer breaking up!" She muttered.

"I would forgive you, if that ever happened…!"

"I wouldn't; I would never look or speak to the person ever again…I'd always wonder…" Her eyes went glassy at this, and she shook her head, as though forgetting a bad memory.

"C'mon you don't mean that!" He made her face him.

"I do, every single word!" She looked straight into his eyes, and he knew she was serious, by the way her eyes darkened.

"Let's go!" He said, tugging her hand.

End of Flashback

He came back to his senses, noticing he was by himself

She probably left while I was thinking about Mei. Good riddance!

He stood up from where he was seated, and looked around I living room, trying to find something that escaped her tirade, but nothing seemed worth saving.

The phone rung, somewhere near him, but he couldn't find it, so he just followed the noise and found it under on of the couches.

"Hello!" He answered the phone with a very sad voice.

"Hey, are you alright? Who died?" Answered a perky voice from the other side of the line.

"Meika, not now!" He grumbled to his younger sister, Rachel Meika, who was studying business in London, while looking after their family company over there.

"What's wrong? You never call me by my second name. What happened?"

"Nothing!" He murmured.

"If it's nothing, why did dad tell me you'll be coming here to work?"

"Because I'm moving back there!"

"Really?" She was really excited about this.

"Yeah, can we-" He was cut off by a loud squeal, which, if he hadn't been used to, would've made him deaf. Then she seemed to realise something.

"But I thought Mei had to-"

"I'll be there by the 22nd or 23rd!" He cut her off, he didn't want to go into details, he'd get an earful when he got there, anyway.

"But your wedding-"

"Can't you get it? Must I spell it out for you? There won't be a wedding!" He said, angry at himself for losing his cool with his sister - she didn't deserve it.

"Kai, what happened?" He flinched at her acid tone, he knew she was going to lose it, especially with him being rude to her, he just didn't expect her to call him by his surname, it made it all worse.

"I screwed up, okay? I lost her. And don't you say a word!"

"You'll give up on her?" She asked, her tone disbelieving.

"No, I love her, god damn it, but there's nothing I can do." He was exasperated.

"Yeah, right!" He knew she has blowing a raspberry, annoyed at him.

"Meika, she won't take me back. No matter what I do, how hard I try. She said so herself!"

"It can't be!" She didn't want to believe her brother had lost the best thing that could ever happen to him.

"She is better off without me."

"You don't mean i-"

"She deserves better than me - a man that will love her without the need to change her, a man who will make her happy and not hurt her…and that man is not me!"

"Tong…" She whispered.

"I'm going to let her go without a fight, because I know she'll be alright!"

"You really do love her, so much, no matter what you say; I know you plotted it."

"Yes, I do love her." And he hung up and disconnected the phone before she called back, searching for his cell phone and turning it off. He didn't want to be disturbed while enjoying his pain.

He cleared the dinning room table and began a deep search for the things he had to take with him.

I'm not ready to tell them.

To be continued

A.n: Hey I updated again… Hope everyone likes it, if they don't I don't really care, it's my story my present… Please review it doesn't cost much just press the button…