-1Disclaimer: Harry Potter doesn't belong to me.. sadly.
I got inspired by When it all falls apart by The Veronicas.
And I don't own that song either.
Why does she always do this to me, I don't know what to think anymore.
She left me…. again.
Everything was going so well… at least I thought so but I guess she didn't.
She did it just like the last three times, she came up to me and said she needed space, that she wasn't so sure anymore if I was what she wanted.
And I cried again, like I always do, I don't even know why anymore, I mean I should have gotten used to it by now.
It's always like that: she leaves me and then she comes back and I always tell myself that this time I won't take her back, but in the end I always do.
I don't know what's wrong with me, I mean there has to be a reason she's not sure about me being the one for her.
I always give her everything.. .and she never gives my anything…. so it seems.
But this time I really won't take her back, not this time, not after everything she did to me.
I just can't take it anymore.
I put my faith in her, what a stupid thing to do I should have known better.
What do they say again?
When it rains it pours?!
Yeah that's it.
And I can't even turn to my friends, they don't talk to me anymore.
Now you probably want to know why, what did I do right?
Yeah I'm so stupid it's always the same.
They are so important in my life, and they really love me and I'm being such a dickhead…again.
Whenever Ginny and I are dating I neglect them, I don't know why, it's just how I am.
They tried to tell me again, just like the last three times.
-She's not the right person for you. It won't work out. You always give yourself up for her just to come back broken to us.-
Can't I just change my life?
Cuz it just seems to go bad every time.
And that's what I'll do, I'm going to change my life, I'm going to move on… without her.
And now I sit here on our bed thinking about the good times and bad times we had.
And I realise that there are more bad times than actually good times.
And no, this time I won't take her back… for real!
I gotta pick myself up again.
Everything fell apart again, but this time I'll put the pieces back together again… alone without her.
I go to our nightstand and take the photo of us laughing at the beach, yeah that's one of the good times I could capture.
I take it out of it's frame and look at it one last time.
Then I rip it into pieces and throw them out of our no wait my flats window.
I should have kicked her ass the first time she left me.
I mean what was I thinking?
I'm not going to give myself up for her again.
And I'm not going to shed my tears about loosing her anymore.
After all I'm Hermione Granger and I'm way smarter than that.