I don't own Supernatural, but if I did, I'd steal the Dean and the Impala.

I feel like a chick writing my feelings out like this, but if it will make Sam happy, then I'll do it. It's not like I'll be able to do it for very long. I made a deal to save my baby brother's life. I exchanged my life for his and I will be dead in a year. I don't regret it, but I don't want to die. I found out that I'm not just going to hell, I will become one of the things I spent my whole life hunting. A demon. My soul will be twisted and I will probably end up killing my friends, people I consider family, and it will all be because I couldn't face life without Sam. I don't want to be alone, I don't think I could handle that, and I understand that I'm putting Sammy through the same things Dad put me through, but I did it to save him. Protect him. It's what I was raised to do, what have always done, and I will fight like hell to make sure nothing happens to him. We're in a war, and I honestly don't think we'll win. And I know that there is probably nothing Sammy and Bobby can do to save me, but I'll be damned if I just lay down and die. I'm going to drag as many evil sons of bitchs into hell with me as I can. I also won't let anything happen to Sam, he won't go dark side, and won't be pushed around by anyone or anything. If that means having to trust Ruby, a witch turned demon, then so be it. And as for Bela, we'll get the Colt back, and she'll regret the day she decided to mess with Dean Winchester. (No matter how hot she is.) At least Azazel is dead and gone; although I don't think he was our greatest threat.

AN: Hey guys, yeah, I know have to stop with the really short one shots. This one was only 320 words, so I think I'm taking the term to a whole new level. I think I may have made Dean a little OOC in this, and it's a little heavy on the angst, but I just needed to write something, and this seems to fit my mood as of late. So if you've read this, please be so kind as to review, good or bad, and offer any criticism you may have. Also if anyone needs one, I'm willing to beta. Who knows, maybe helping other writers will get me back into it. And I better stop writing or my authors not will be longer that my one-shot. Much love, Carly