My Bella,

Whenever I think back on that day it seems blurry, Of course it would have to be blurry, it was a miracle.

It was the day I met you.

I guess it would be rather hard to explain a vampires feelings towards… Well, Anything really.

But the way I feel about you would be even more immensely hard to explain, It's very complicated.

So in the simplest way it's a mixture between lust, arousment and an overwhelming sensation of desire.

I want you, Bella, More then anything in the world.

I would love to spend the rest of my life with you, but there is no rest of my life, which, my dear, is the problem.

I don't have a life. I just live… Never dying, never dead. Just sadness, a sad, miserable way of living. That's what it was like everyday before you came into my life. Before I fell deeply in love with you. And that's why I cannot bite you. Because as much as I want to be with you forever…and as much as I would never want to live without you. I could never make you live forever.

It's a curse, to watch loved ones die, to see horrid, horrid things happen all the time. To know everything around you is falling apart.

To tell you the truth, my darling,

I didn't even know love was possible till I met you.

Forever my love,

Edward Cullen