Disclamer don't own them (crap what a shame)

John looked down from his spot in heaven who would have thought John Winchester would be in the company of angels but that wasn't what he was watching today. Today he watched his boy his eldest son the soldier the pillar of light and love that guided him through the last twenty four years of his life. John felt emotions build it wasn't his way to show them but he couldn't hold them back any more. John closed his eyes trying to hold back the tears that came.

I closed my eyes, only for a moment and the moment gone

All my dreams, passed before my eyes, a curiosity

John looked at his boy remember the times together all the times he should have said things like I Love you, or I am proud of you. John knew that he mess up he wasn't father of the year and he never deserved the love, devotion, loyalty, and kindness his eldest showed him hell he didn't deserve the meager affection his youngest showed him, but he loved them. It was the fact that his eldest gave everything John wasn't ever sure if Dean had dreams outside of what John himself and Sam wanted.

Dust in the wind, all they is dust in the wind

John thought of all the time that he and Sam took advantage of Dean making his happiness just something they scraped of their boots, but Dean never once complained he just truck on like the good soldier and that broke John's heart even more now that he was in a spectators spot he saw what he refused to see before.

Some old song just a drop of water in an endless sea

All we do, is crumble to the ground though we refuse to see

Dean played the roll prefect he seemed to give and give his love and loyalty was something John never had seen ever even up here in heaven it was endless, John was starting to think that Dean had to be an angel under cover, maybe even Micheal. Dean seem to be able to pick him and Sam up after they crumbled over and over and John thought back he had never once thank his boy ever and watching this last year he realized that Sam never truly thanked him either.

Dust in the wind, all we are is dust in the wind

John wondered who pick Dean up after he crumbled it sure wasn't him and it wasn't Sam. John sighed he want Dean to know what he and Sam knew unwavering love and loyalty he knew Sam and him were close but Dean never had himself a "Dean" to go to like John and Sam had.

Don't hang on nothing last forever but the earth and sky

It slips away, all your money won't a minute buy

John looks to his boy his hazel green eye's sparkling in the sun willing him to hang on his love and loyal will last an eternity if he would realize it. Nothing Dean has done will slip away he is truly a guiding light for those plagued but supernatural evils he is that light that guarden angel with his brother at his side protecting the innocent from the true evil that they are all to well versed in with no exceptions but to save people.

Dust in the wind, all we are is dust in the wind

Everything is dust in the wind

The wind

Dean looked up as the sun shone down brightly on him as he stare out over the fields across from the gas station, "I love you Dad and I am proud of you too."