1A simple note from a simple girl
Hanako Lee
I don't know what got me to be sitting here, thinking about you. I got be to honest with you, I forgot about you for sometime...I know, it's a bit depressing. I mean, you mean so much to me...it's just I've been through so much that I forgot that you weren't by my side anymore. I actually forgot about you. I don't mean to though...and I know you know that as well as I do also.
My memories of when I was a child were filled with you. I remembered when you tucked me in at night, read a little story and then turned off the lights when you thought I was asleep...Somehow, I was always scared that one day you might be takened away from me. Just because I would see your retreating back when you left me in the room to sleep...when I actually wasn't sleeping. After a while, my instincts were right...you were takened away from me. It was one of the most depressing time for me, even though I was still young, it struck me hard. I never knew real sadness before that...I'm not blaming you for anything. It's just, I'm tell you the truth. I never felt so empy before, I've never felt so lost, so misguided...so lonely.
After a while, I did get over your departure and moved on with life. Did you know? I was a reincarnation of the all mighty priestess Kikyo? Yeah...and who knew that your little girl was, right? I even alienated powers that no one knows about. It was pretty shocking at first, but I've grown to love it. It helped me protect the ones I loved...
...I'm sorry, Daddy.
Through out all these times, you were always behind me...guiding me through darkness and being my strength I needed to move on. I'm sorry that I never gave you a second thought and wished you well...I never meant to be so selfish and just think of myself. Please, can you find it in your heart to forgive me? I know I did wrong...
"As a child, there were those times...when I didn't know it but you kept me in line."
...I still loathe you for going away. You...you never got to see me how good I've done in the fuedal era. Why did you have to be takened away?...out of all the father's, why mines?
Oh my...I can't believe I just said that! I'm sorry! I didn't mean that...I mean...I wish you wouldn't have left me, but it taught me a very important lesson...it taught me how to be strong without you by myside. Plus, I don't want anyone to suffer as bad as I did. Everyone needs a father and I'm willing to let you go to let someone else have their father. Please don't hate me...
Even though you are gone, you will always be in my heart. It's because your spirit still lives amongst my aura, my thoughts, my wishes...my everything. I just that you would've gotten the chance to meet the people I love so much. InuYasha...he's one of them. I wish you got to see how much I've grown, how much I've succeeded and how much I've gave up. Though, I know that you are in a better place, I just want to wish you well...
...Daddy, I love you alot. And I'm still your little girl.
I don't think I would be at my place right now if you weren't there to teach what I know now. You've taught me to be smart, to be everything I am. I mean, mother did also...it's just that I'm thinking about you right now...I just want to thank you for giving me inspiration, courage...and most of all love. You've guided me even though I knew I couldn't go on...
I just wanted to give this special shout out to you...I mean it's father's day in a few more days. I hope you can hear me...
...I love you.
Okay, this is a special dedication for my deceased father. Basically I was writing this for my father, but in Kagome's shoes. Hope you liked it! Happy father's day.