A/N: Argh. I feel like I write too many depressing drabble/snapshot things and not enough happy stuff. Again, sorry for the long wait. I originally wrote fourteen and I just periodically update when I get the time. Thankfully, I've got a five-day-weekend coming up in two days, which hopefully means more time for writing and getting those ideas down to paper! Let me know what you think. Reviews are always, always, always appreciated!
11. Of Observations and Realizations
Lily felt her heart lower sink slightly in spite of herself, as James once again made his way back to his friends, shaking his head dejectedly.
"Lily," said Alice in a low voice, "are you sure you want to keep doing this?"
Lily's head whipped around so fast she cricked her neck. Rubbing it, she replied with a slight frown, "What d'you mean?"
"It's just - one day, you'll realize that James isn't as bad as you think, that he really loves you, and that deep down, you love him too."
"What? I don't - he -"
"But if you keep this up… you keep pushing him away, and eventually he might give up - and I don't think he's going to come back."
Lily swelled indignantly, clutched her bag, and stalked off to Transfiguration, her head spinning with thoughts. What was the matter? asked a small voice in her head. That's what you want, isn't it? For him to stop speaking to you?
And yet, as she slid into a seat near the front of the classroom, she couldn't help but feel guilty at the sight of James' face and wonder if it was indeed what she wanted.