Instant Star

Chapter 6: I'm In Love With My Guitar

I've been trying too hard
I've been spinning around
Got people chasing me down
Gotta find a way back to my world somehow, somehow

Right now I wanna get lost inside of a song
Where there's no right or wrong
In my room all alone is where I belong
My life is mine once I'm behind the door

I'm In Love With My Guitar: Alexz Johnson

Bella woke up confuse as to where she was and how she got here in the first place. It only took her a minute to look around and realize this was her own apartment and her friends where each sleep on one of the 6 couches in the wide open living room. Bella head still felt about a little foggy so she got up and just looked around before she grabbed her cell phone off the coffee table. She looked down at her phone and realized she had a voice mail so she typed in her pin number and listened. "Hey Bells" said Charlie's recorded voice through the phone. "Tommy told me what was going on and I decided to take Jason to my house for a bit. Stay calm and you will be fine. I will be by later with your kid. See ya Bell." After hearing Charlie voice the memories of yesterday came rushing back as well as the pain. As quickly as the pain set in it was gone and replaced with anger. He could ruin everything and cause her so much pain all over again. Not to mention that she had a child to think about and raise. Bella relationship would have worked if her mothering was still alive to raise Jason even though it would hurt Bella not to be part of his life. But now she had to raise Jason and she was not leaving him alone for a guy that broke her heart. Not only that but she had Tommy who she cared about so much and her friends who she couldn't dream of leaving. She couldn't take being in this room any more so she decided to help down to her built recording studio while the gang was still sound. Once she was down there she got every ready that Sarah taught to record a CD. She went inside the booth and started to sing.

I'm never going to be what you want to see
always got to be me and free
right or wrong
you'll be gone

Well I've heard it all before
and I'm tired of the lies I've tried
I won't compromise
You're a thousand miles away
draining under my flooded veins
take away the strain

I don't think that you know
I'm about to let you go
before I put you away
One more thing I've got to say

I'm not sorry
and I don't wanna worry
I'm sick of you again
I'm thinking no
I'm not sorry
and I don't wanna worry
Of falling behind
don't want to wonder and cry again
and I just want to say
Stop
Go on

I have thrown it all away
reaching over a cloudy day
and I'm on my way
Cast my shadows all aside
creeping over into the sky
shining brighter I feel alive

I don't think that you know
I'm about to let you go
before I put you away
One more thing I've got to say

I'm not sorry
and I don't wanna worry
I'm sick of you again
I'm thinking no
I'm not sorryand I don't wanna worry
Of falling behind
don't want to wonder and cry again
and I just want to say

I'm never gonna be what you wanna see
always got to be me you're free
Carry on
run along
Frustrated by you, typical what you do
I'm tired and through, renew
Living on
With you gone

I don't think that you know
I'm about to let you go
before I put you away
One more thing I've got to say

I'm not sorry
and I don't wanna worry
I'm sick of you again
I'm thinking no
I'm not sorry
and I don't wanna worry
Of falling behind
don't want to wonder and cry again
and I just want to say

I'm not sorry
and I don't wanna worry
Of falling behind
don't want to wonder and cry again
and I just want to say
stop
go on
stop
go on

I'm never gonna be what you wanna see
always got to be me and free
Living on
With you gone

X–X

You still love him and that the reason your so angry with him and yourself,isn't?" said a voice that even though Bella heard before she was still startled by. She did even realize that Jesse was awake much less in the studio with her. "God! You sure how to scared a girl to death!" said Bella with a mock angry glare. One she got she heart beat to calm down she was able to answer his question. Once upon a time she would have had a hard time answering this question but she stopped lying to herself. "I won't lie to you. I still love him and I am still hurt. I am like a broken house that's slowing getting repaired. I love my life now and I don't want to how it was." said Bella as she stared in to Jesse eyes. Jesse really liked Bella and he didn't want to see her hurt so he was glad she was able to open up to him. Knowing that she didn't want words of pity Jesse just said "Okay well Jude said that we had you put down three more tracks today at G-Major so we might as well get one more done here. What do you think?". Bella just gave Jesse a nod and they started to reset the recording stuff.

X-Upstairs while Jesse and Bella were recording.-X

In the penthouse of Isabella Swan the door bell rang but it was low so it didn't reach the basement. However it did manage to wake up Tommy and Sarah. When they woke up they instantly began to look for there respective others. Once Tommy realized that the basement light was on (indicating that Bella and Jesse were down there) he pointed that out to Sarah. She nodded and went to the kitchen while Tommy went to open the door. When he opened that door he came face to face with The Cullens, his parents, and Kelly Ash.

Tommy parents just gave him a look that said they would take later while he was introduced to each Cullen as well as reintroduced to Ms. Ash. Once Sarah was introduced to every also then they were all ushered down to the basement where Bella was. Tommy and Sarah didn't have enough time to get a (angry) word in regarding the Cullens but that didn't stop the hatful glares. Not that these people didn't deserve more then that because they did given what they did to Bella. Jasper felt that he was going to feel sick with all the angry, pain, and guilt. The most anger was coming from Bella new friends who must of known the basics about her life in Folk.

When everyone entered the studio they caught site of a angel about to sing. When she realized who was watching her she looked up and straight in to Edward's wide eyes. While not breaking eye contact with Edward Bella began to sing.

Baby baby
When we first met I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover and my best friend
All wrapped in one with a ribbon on it
And all of a sudden you went and left
I didn't know how to follow
It's like a shock that spun me around
And now my heart's dead
I feel so empty and hollow

And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to you

You don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame
And now I feel like...oh!

You're the reason why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get for wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door

Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
'Cause now I'm using like I bleed

It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

Damn, ain't it crazy when you're loveswept (?)
You'd do anything for the one you love
'Cause anytime that you needed me I'd be there
It's like you were my favorite drug
The only problem is that you was using me
In a different way than I was using youBut now that I know it's not meant to be
I gotta go, I gotta wean myself off of you

And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to you
You don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
And you're the one to blame
'Cause now I feel like...oh!

You're the reason why I'm thinkingI don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get for wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door

Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
'Cause now I'm using like I bleed

It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

Now ladies gimme that...

Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohohoh, oh, oh, ohh

Now gimme that...

Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohohoh, oh, oh, ohh

My ladies gimme that...

Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohohoh, oh, oh, ohh

Now gimme that...

Oh, oh, oh, oh, ohohoh, oh, oh, ohh

Oh! You're the reason why I'm thinking
I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more
I guess that's what I get for wishful thinking
Should've never let you enter my door

Next time you wanna go on and leave
I should just let you go on and do it
'Cause now I'm using like I bleed

It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
It's like I checked into rehab
And baby, you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease
I gotta check into rehab
'Cause baby you're my disease

Once Bella was done with the song she went straight to Sarah and took the breakfast bar she offer. She notice the look of concern on Sarah face and hugged her. It was like they were having a conversation in there minds because with one look Sarah new Bella was better, not perfect but getting there.

X-X

Alice just stood there taking in the new Bella and the life she had now when she what hit with a vision. Bella was in a grand house and the wall were filled with gold records. You could her kids running in the back round and Bella laughing along with the kids. "Derek get over here or I'm gunna get ya" said Bella barely holding back giggles. "Come on! Sammi, mama guuna get us if don't hurry!" said a six year old boy with his four year old sister by his side. All of sudden the door opened revealing a older Tommy Q. "Daddy Daddy your home! "

AN: Okay I thought I throw this out there please tell me if someone still reads this please at least 3 reviews.