authors note: this is my first fan fic so i'm sort of freaking out! so please if you have any advice for me i'd be unbelievibly happy!

this chapter is basically setting the scene for the storyline. please take the time to R & R...and let me know if i should continue... i hope you enjoy...

disclaimer: no matter how much it kills me to admit it... i do not own twilight...

Chapter one

Bella's P.O.V

"So you're going to tell Jacob?" Emily asked me, looking hopeful.

"Yeah I think I will." I replied. A goofy grin spread across my face as I imagined what Jake's reaction would be once I told him.

Jacob Black had been my rock since...since he left me a year ago. Jake was my best friend. I had made it clear, to his disappointment that was all he was. But lately my feelings towards him were changing. The concept was so hard for me to accept. I thought I would only ever have feelings for one man. But when I was with Jake it was like I was alive again. He was the stitches that were slowly mending my shattered heart.

I had just told Emily Young, Sam Utley's fiancée of my feelings and of course she was over the moon. Sam Utley was the one that found me that day he left me in the woods. Sam was the pack leader and when I say pack I mean werewolves, enemies of the vampires. The pack was like my family now ever since they saved me from Laurent and I guessed their secret.

Sam, Jake and the rest of the pack were scouting the area. Lately a couple of random vampires had surfaced in Forks and the pack was worried it was the beginning of something. So as usual Emily and I, two of the La Push girls were waiting at the Utley's house for news.

"Oh my goodness! Jacob's going to be thrilled." Emily squealed running to give me a hug. I wasn't used to human-strength hugs, between Jake's wolf strength and my uh old family's hugs, but it was nice not to have to gasp for air. Just when I was about to answer the phone rang.

"Hold that thought Bella, it might be news" Emily quickly got up from her dining room chair and hurried into her kitchen to receive that phone.

I could hear her murmur "hello" followed by a "Sam!" and further after that "what?"

I wasn't sure if this was something I was supposed to hear so I tried tuning out. Day dreaming would have done the trick but I still trying to avoid letting my subconscious take over. Whenever i did allow it he would come to mind, tearing the hole in my chest further.

Emily casted an anxious glaze at me, I pretended to be distracted by the magazine in front of me. I concentrated closer now to the conversation, really hoping Jake wasn't hurt.

"Wow that's amazing. I bet Jacob is wrapped" the enthusiasm in Emily's voice was clearly half faked. What happened to Jake? I refused to look up though; I could feel Emily's eyes still looking my way.

"No no I think Jacob should tell her, it's his news" Emily continued to answer Sam. "No of course not. I think it is wonderful Jacob has imprinted"

"What?" I yelled running into the kitchen, "Jake did what?"

Emily's face saddened. She looked at me concerned "I'm so sorry Bella I didn't think you were listening, I didn't want you to find out this way"

Why did this keep happening to me? Didn't I deserve to be with someone as much as anyone else?

I collapsed onto the cold ground shaking. It was like the first time around but worst. Not because I had given my heart and soul away to Jacob like I did him; but because all the stitches holding me together, giving me my only thread of sanity were gone. I was surrounded by darkness once again, completely broken.

Jacob's P.O.V

Bella's going to be so happy once I tell her I've imprinted! Man she will be relieved, she's always worried about my little crush on her. Okay so it was more than a crush but that's all behind us now. Ahh I can't wait to tell her about Cassie. Oh and she can give me advice. It will come in handy having a girl for your best friend.

"Jake! Jake" I heard Sam's voice in my head.

"What's up Sam?" I thought back. It was handy communicating in wolf form though I was glad to escape it when I turned back to human.

"Bella!" he mentally screamed back.

Before I could think "what happened?" the phone call Sam had with Emily flooded into my head. My poor poor Bella. I raced in the Utley's house on all fours, just changing back before heading inside.

Bella lay unconscious, curled up in ball on the middle of the kitchen floor. Her arms were cradling herself, like she was trying to hold herself together. I'd seen that before in Sam's head the day that leech left her! But this time I was the reason. But why?

"Emily what happened?" I asked her in a bit too harsh of voice. Sam glared at me. But there wasn't time for apologies I needed to know. Sure I heard what happened through Sam but right now I was desperate to hear it myself. Emily didn't take shame on me for the voice I'd used against her; she retold the story including the conversation she had with Bella before the phone call. That was new information to me and apparently Sam too as his face looked shocked before forming a look of newfound understanding.

I leaned over Bella and stroked her brown hair.

"Bella, Bella please wake up for me. I'm so sorry" I whispered down to her. I felt a wave of guilt wash over me, I had done this; unintentionally or not I caused Bella pain. Bella had turned pale, and was shaking. I sat up straighter and rose onto my knees before pulling Bella into my arms. I carried her towards Sam's couch.

"Emily, could you please bring Bella a blanket?" I asked her, hoping my tone was much calmer now.

"Course Jacob" she said leaving the room.

Sam came up behind me as a lay Bella on the couch. He put a hand on my shoulder.

"I no it's hard Jake, it's unfair but this is who we are. Bella knew there was a chance of this happening when she became involved with you." He looked very serious and pained as he spoke these words.

"Leah" I spoke out loud, just clicking. Leah was Sam's girlfriend when he imprinted on Emily. He would understand. But I thought of Leah, she still hasn't recovered with the heartbreak and well Bella has been through so much already. She hadn't even mended yet, but what could I do? Sam was right I was who I was and now Cassie was a part of that.

"Yep mate, Leah." The pain was clear in his eyes as he spoke her name.

Emily entered the room a moment later with a mink blanket in her hand. The change in Sam's eyes spoke the truth as much as he hated hurting Leah, the love he felt for Emily was unbeatable. The same was to be said about Cassie. Though I had only met her just hours ago, she was my life now.

I just pray that Bella finds someone whose whole world is her.

"Please don't leave me" Bella cried out in her sleep.

"I'm so sorry Bella" I said as Emily and Sam left the room to give Bella some privacy. The guilt I was feeling was over whelming.

"Edward, don't leave me" Bella started again. "Edward, come back to me".

Alice P.O.V

My eyes flicked open.

"Carlisle's almost home" I sang, bouncing up and down in a burst of excitement. I can now finally find out why I can't see my sister's future anymore.

Flashback

"Carlisle you're going to forks tomorrow for work" I told him as he arrived home from work. I had just received a vision of him going.

"Yes Alice I am. I got a call from one of my patients today and they need me".

"Can you please check on Bella?" I begged him. I was really worried. When we first left her in Forks I would check her future occasionally. It was really painful to see my best friend so depressed. Now whenever I try to see her I can't, it's all a blur.

"Alice, Edward asked us to leave her alone" Carlisle told me in a sorry tone.

"I know but we all love Bella too Carlisle and I'm worried about her. You know how clumsy she is. What if something's happened to her? I need to know she's ok!" I argued back. I don't like arguing with him but this was too important to let Edward's stubbornness get in the way.

"You have a point my dear but still Edward..."

I cut him short.

"Ahhh and where is Edward? Not here! How's he going to know?"

Edward had taken off to be alone a month ago and only checks in once a week. Tanya rang yesterday and told us he'd just showed up in Alaska. At least we knew he was safe. The news put Esme at ease a bit. She hates the fact Edward's not here where she can look after him.

"Very well you win. I will check in on Bella"

"Thank you, thank you." I ran up and hugged him.

End flashback

"How far away is he? Esme asked eagerly. Two weeks away from Carlisle was a long time for her. I couldn't imagine being away from Jasper for that long.

I closed my eyes again. "NOW" I squealed. Esme and I ran, vampire speed, to the front door where Jasper, Emmett and Rosalie were all waiting in the entrance way. Carlisle opened the door with a small smile on his handsome face. That smile grew larger as Esme rushed to hug him.

The rest of us hugged him as well. "Welcome home" Emmett cheered as we moved back. Carlisle had an arm around Esme's waist and kisses the top of her head. It was adorable. I looked to Jasper to see if he noticed. Jasper was standing next to me but instead of looking at Carlisle like the rest of the family he was staring at the front door with a confused look on his face.

"Jasper honey, what is it?" I asked, reaching out my hand to slide it down his muscular arm. My husband looked down at me, "Edward" he answered. His sexy voice was filled with many emotions; confusion, happiness, concern and surprise

"Huh?" Emmett's voice boomed. Jasper didn't look at Emmett or me. His glaze turned from the front door to Carlisle.

"Why won't he come in Carlisle?" Jasper asked.

He? Edward? Edward was here? He was outside? I ran towards the doorway and as I reached it, two arms wound around me pulling me into a hug. It was Edward. My brother had come home! Thank god I had missed him!

"I missed you too Alice" Edward whispered after reading my thoughts. He carried me inside and put my down into Jasper's awaiting arms. He walked over to Esme who had left Carlisle's side to embrace her son. Her son she had missed in the last month and a half. We all had, even Rosalie.

Now our family was complete again...well almost...we headed into the lounge. I sat down on Jasper's lap, snuggling into his chest. Rose and Emmett sat together on the

love seat as Esme and Carlisle sat hand in hand on the floor. Edward sat alone on the stool next to his piano; I understood that this was why it was hard for him to be with us.

"Sorry I took so long to return from my business trip. I had to take a special detour" Carlisle said motioning to Edward. Edward might have been back with us but he still wasn't happy. We could all see that he still longed for Bella.

I noticed that Edward's eyes were dark. I hoped that isn't because of my Bella-thoughts. No it's because he needs to go hunting.

'Edward you should go hunting with Jasper tonight' I sent loudly in my head. He gave a small nod my way and turned to Jasper.

"Are you up for hunting tonight?" he asked him.

Jasper looked at me to see if I was fine with it. I nodded eagerly; after all it was my idea.

"I'm game" Jasper stated.

"Oh count me in" Emmett yelled jumping up from his chair "I'm always ready to hunt. You coming Rose?"

Rosalie smiled perfectly at Emmett "of course"

Soon Edward, Jasper, Emmett, Rosalie and Esme were leaving for hunting. I was surprised Esme would leave after Carlisle being gone for so long but I think she wanted to keep an eye on Edward. So Carlisle and I were alone in the house giving me the perfect opportunity to find out what he discovered.

He was in his office so I went upstairs and knocked on the door.

"Come In Alice" he called. I walked in a sat down on a chair across from Carlisle.

"I need to know what you found out about Bella" I told him cutting to the chase. The last two weeks, waiting were hell on earth.

Carlisle sighed "you know Edward won't like me telling you this. It will be hard to keep it from him now that he's returned"

"I know but it's important to me" this was sounding very familiar.

"Well" Carlisle began "Do you remember Jacob Black?"

"Uh yeah. He was at prom last year"

"Well he and Bella have been spending a lot of time together." I shuttered Bella wasn't seeing this boy was she? She couldn't be.

Carlisle reading my expression added "no they're not dating. Just best friends".

I was relieved Bella was ok but that only answered half of my worries.

"But that doesn't explain why I can't see her" I said.

"Well Alice, Jacob is from the La push reservation"

La push was a small Indian reservation outside of forks. Carlisle had made a treaty with the natives years ago so we couldn't set foot on their land. But that still didn't explain why...then I sunk in.

"Bella replaced me with a dog!"