Ruined by Wolves

Chapter 10 : Pretty Blue Eyes Belong To Monsters In Disguise

Rin's dreams meant nothing to her before she was in the accident but now they were like keys each opening a memory from a past she couldn't remember. Where she saw a weak girl who gave into a boy who claimed to love her. A boy who claimed she would always be his number one but it was a lie. This is something he could never atone for, he stole two years of her life, two of her most precious assets, and the memory of the person she was really in love with. Rin slept soundly despite the dampness of her clothes from the wet floor Sesshoumaru had left on so cruelly. Sesshoumaru walked into the room and covered her with a thin sheet, she had taken off most of her clothes only left with the underclothes that were dampened with moister from the floor.

Dream

The blue eyed baby looked into Rin's eyes she sat there looking at him he looked no more than two years old. He was beautiful and Rin couldn't help the urge to smile when she looked at his face. The big blue eyes were breathtaking and she wanted to pull him into her lap.

Sesshoumaru stood over him with a sadistic smile on his face covered him with a small sheet and he was gone in a flash. Next thing Rin knew she was holding onto Kouga on his motorcycle. She a bright red light ahead of her next thing was loud noise. Rin raised her arms to block the bright light that was heading towards her. She felt as if she'd been hit by a truck.

Rin saw that now she was lying in a coffin at a wake everyone was crying over her body she wanted to sit up and move she couldn't not even a centimeter of her would budge. Kagome was hysterical, Inuyasha let a few tears fall from his own eyes Sesshoumaru had no emotion on his face and Rin had never seen his eyes look so dead in her life and yet there was a sadness about him that made Rin's whole body hurt. Then there was Kouga his hand was on the lid and he was smiling as he shut the lid as everyone just watched.

Rin was then in a graveyard Kouga and everyone was there even a priest reading some scripture from his bible. And Rin had a shovel in her hand and she began putting dirt into a hole where she could hear herself screaming for help inside the coffin. But as much as she tried she couldn't stop herself from filling the hole in to the very top. Rin screamed out begging for someone to help her to stop her from doing this. She was being buried alive and the worst was that it was herself doing the most damage.

Kagome dropped to the ground and began clawing at the dirt desperately tears as she screamed that her sister wasn't dead and it was a mistake. That she shouldn't be buried at all. Inuyasha tried to get her up but she wouldn't listen as she just through herself over the freshly piled dirt. Kouga walked up to all of her mourners and shooed them away as if they were nothing as if they weren't Rin's family. He then sat on Rin's tombstone and left a single white rose on the top.

A woman walked out from behind a tree and kissed Kouga's lips gently. Her dark hair and beautiful body was enough to make the immobile Rin cry out loudly. Rin walked over to the two and she saw that the woman was none other than the dreamer herself. Only she could walk Rin suddenly felt her legs turn to jelly and found herself sitting in the wheelchair.

"Kouga, I love you" said mobile Rin.

"I love you too" he smiled kissing her.

"Kouga...No that isn't me! I'm me" Rin cried out Kouga and the other Rin looked at her.

"No my Rin could never be so pathetic...or useless" Kouga smiled looking at her.

"Kouga don't be so mean to the cripple..." the other Rin laughed.

"I thought you loved me Kouga! Why!" Rin said tears falling from her brown eyes.

"I would never love someone so tragic" Kouga laughed at her cruelly.

"Lets go love, our boy is waiting in the car" the other Rin said seriously walking away from Rin with Kouga's arm around her waist.

Rin chased after them in her wheelchair and towards the end her wheelchair jerked violently and she fell out hitting the sidewalk's pavement. She watched as the other Rin picked up the beautiful blue eyes baby who began to morph into an undeveloped pile of blood. Rin screamed in horror at the sight of the decaying baby, the other Rin still held him as if he was the most beautiful gift in the world. Kouga looked at him as if he were the most perfect son in the world. The car drove off.

Rin lay on sidewalk tears falling from her eyes, she heard footsteps behind her and strong hands pulling her up from under her arms and cradle her like a child. She felt tears hit her shoulder and she looked up into the face of Sesshoumaru whose gold eyes were opened just as sad as they had been before only they weren't sad for him they were sad for her.

End Dream

Rin woke up to the birds chirping she looked to her side where her wheel chair usually was instead there was a pair of crutches. She screamed out in anger and frustration the sun hit her pretty face and she used her arms to pull her legs out of the bed. She thought for a little while as her feet were against the floor. She knew this would anger Sesshoumaru but she didn't care in her eyes he hadn't realized how much his words hurt her, why she cared about anything he said she didn't know only that somewhere deep in her she knew that she would hang of his very breath if she could. Rin picked up her phone and dialed Kouga's number. As usual he answered on the first ring.

"Kouga come over to my apartment, I need your help. I'll call the doorman to let you up hurry Sesshoumaru is at work." Rin said he would be on his way soon. Rin called the doorman and told him to let Kouga up. In a matter of fifteen minutes Kouga was opening the door with a key Rin had usually left with the doorman, Rin's thoughts flew back to what Sesshoumaru had said the day before. 'Was it the way Sesshoumaru said it was' she thought she shook it from her mind.

"You're still in bed?" he asked her she looked at him and nodded and under the covers Rin was barely decent in a bra and boy shorts and she lifted the covers stretching.

"Wanna join me?" she said seductively, of course Rin never felt as beautiful or sexy as she would have if she could move her bottom half.

"I don't think we should what if Sesshoumaru comes back?" he said sitting at the end of the bed.

"Fine then...I get it your getting tired of having to deal with a cripple even if it is to cope with your guilt" Rin spat bitterly.

"No...Rin that isn't it." he tried to say Rin looked at him in his pretty blue eyes.

"Sesshoumaru told me that you jumped out of the way of the truck...and left me to die" she said quietly tears welling up her eyes as her fingers grasped the sheet that was over her. She awaited the words that would leave his lips he would tell her that Sesshoumaru was a liar and that he would never ever let something so terrible happen to her. She knew that he would never let something that bad to happen and he would never lie to her about it.

"Rin..." Kouga said her name and that was Rin realized that it was true. Rin hit him with her fists. Her eyes shut as her fantasy shattered into a million pieces. It felt as if the shards of her fantasy had forced themselves like splinters into her heart. Rin felt her throat tighten painfully and her voice would be strained if she tried to say anything. Rin could feel the tears in her sinus areas and as she let them fall from her eyes she let her emotions erupt like a volcano in the form of words.

"Why! How could you! I thought you loved me! I thought you loved me Kouga!" she cried hysterically. Little did she know that Sesshoumaru hadn't gone to work that day instead he was in his room thinking of ways to help Rin walk again. He was now leaning in the hallway next to the door where Rin's bedroom was, he closed his eyes as he heard Rin's heartbroken sobs.

"I do love you, Rin. I was stupid." Kouga said Rin kept hitting him and repeated the same crying phrase she had been saying for the past two minutes.

"Leave! Get out! I hate you, Kouga!" she yelled tears freely from her pain filled eyes, Kouga grabbed her shoulders tightly she looked up at him.

"I know that I have done you wrong so many times...but Rin I've fallen for you...I didn't realize what a selfish person I was until the day I saw you looking so broken and fragile in that hospital bed. You don't understand the hell I've gone through after that" Kouga said tears filling his eyes.

"I don't care leave, everyone was right...about you...LEAVE!" She started in a whisper that turned into a scream. Kouga walked out of the room hearing Rin's sobs as he walked out his eyes met Sesshoumaru's for a moment. Sesshoumaru followed him outside to the parking lot. Thunder sounded out like a siren through the skies as lightning shot a bright aqua blue streak in the sky. As the sky had been warning water came down rain beating down on both their backs heavily. Sesshoumaru's eyes narrowed on Kouga who had turned to face him with guilt ridden eyes. Sesshoumaru walked up to Kouga grabbed him by his shirt and slammed him against his car.

"Do you like what you've turned her into? Do you like to see looking so crippled so useless!" he yelled in Kouga's face his usual composed manner had left him and Kouga was scared at the look of anger and heartbreak in Sesshoumaru's face.

"I never meant any of this to happen." Kouga said tears had been streaming since he was in the apartment.

"What did you think would happen! What you did to her is disgusting! Did you like the way she was so compliant with your every desire! How she only sought your love and seemed to only want to please you! How you were so rough with her when she gave you something so priceless! She was a mess when she got home and guess who was there to clean her up after you left her bleeding! Every mess you made for her I cleaned up and I will always be there to pick her up after every fall!" Sesshoumaru snarled at Kouga as his own tears began to fall masked by the falling rain. Kouga's eyes were wide as Sesshoumaru said this.

"...you're in love with her?" he stated it was more a question that not.

"and I would never hurt her like you have" Sesshoumaru said throwing Kouga to the floor.

"I never want to see you near her ever again I'll kill you." Sesshoumaru told him furiously. Sesshoumaru turned on his heel and began walking away from the shaken teenager. Sesshoumaru walked up to the elevator doors letting a clawed finger press the call button. 'So Rin the truth is out but will you hate us both?' Sesshoumaru thought to himself.

A/N : I'm sorry for taking almost literally forever I'm going to do a rewrite of most of the beginning chapters when I'm actually finished with this story which means I'll be taking it down before I even update the last two chapters. And the next chapter is really juicy.

Love Always, The Moosh.