2 hours had passed. Shane had sat there on the couch waiting for the right moment to go up to her, to check on her at least. He wanted to tell her he loved her, more than anything in the world, and that she could confide anything to him, but he did not know how to get the point across to her.
He headed up the stairs and knocked Chloe's door.
He received a muffled "Come in." He stepped inside the room. Chloe was on her bed, under the covers, rolled up into a ball. He sat down beside her on the bed and moved the covers. The scene before him was heartbreaking. Her face was tear streaked and her hair was everywhere. Yet her blue eyes still shined brightly.
He gently moved the hair out of her face and lifted her up in sitting position so that his hand was behind her back supporting her. She looked like she might pass out because of the crying. She looked down at her lap letting the tears fall. He looked at her intently.
"I'm sorry," he finally said.
"I'm sorry, too," she muttered. He lifted her face up with his hand holding it with his palm. He kissed a tear as it fell down her face.
"I was a jerk, I shouldn't have tried to talk to you that way... it hurts to see you like this. It's killing me," he still had her face in his hands and more tears fell when he said those words. He wiped some tears away from her face and pulled her into a hug. She said nothing but hugged back engulfing herself into his warm gentle body.
"Please stop crying," he begged wiping more tears away. He draped an arm over her and pulled her towards his chest.
She took his hand and squeezed it as she sobbed some more. This wasn't just normal crying. No one cried this much. Suddenly it struck him; she was having a break down. She squeezed his hand even more until it was numb. She closed her eyes, her head throbbing. She tried to stop herself from crying but her body would not register. She was in too much pain. Even though Shane was there holding her, she felt a gaping hole in her.
"Chloe," Shane said holding her shoulders, "it's okay, I promise, its okay. Please stop crying. Does it hurt anywhere?"
She shook her head and sobbed some more. Anger drifted over her as she thought of the way he had treated her two hours before. She knew that he didn't mean to hurt her, yet he did. Now, he was holding her in the same way just not as tightly.
She pulled his hands off her and climbed off the bed. She swayed and he held her waist.
"What's wrong, Chlo? Please just tell me, I swear I'll listen to you," he said as she tried to get away from him again. Why was she pulling herself away from him when she wanted to hug him tightly and never let go? Why was she pushing him away?
She stifled a sob and headed out the room to be faced by Jason. He looked at her confused and then looked at Shane who was trying to hold her up straight. She leaned at the wall for support as she headed downstairs and out the door.
"Chloe where are you going?!" Shane screamed as she opened the front door trying to get out.
They all came running to see what was going on.
"I'm leaving," she said as she headed out, but Shane grabbed her wrist and tried to pull her back in without hurting her again, but she pulled away.
"Why? Chlo, tell me what I did wrong and I swear I'll fix it. You don't even have a home, you can't go anywhere," Shane said trying to pull her back in.
"I don't belong here, this your home, not mine," she headed off trying to go away, but Shane pulled her bridal style and dropped her on the couch.
He looked angry, very angry.
"You're not going anywhere Chloe, no matter what you say or do!" he went and closed the door. Chloe buried her face on the couch and sobbed. Why was he doing this? He could just let her leave and live his happy life, but he chose to be with her and to keep her from doing that. She felt him come sit beside her and pull her up.
"Bring some water," he commanded Nate who came back hurriedly with a glass of water. Chloe was shaking under Shane's arms trying to contain herself. Shane handed her the glass. "Drink," he commanded. She took the glass and drank the water, afraid that he may do something to her if she doesn't.
She handed him the cup and he realized how much she was shaking. It shot through him like a bullet, she was scared of him. Pain was evident through her face.
"Chlo," he muttered realizing what he had done, "I'm sorry, I don't mean to be this angry or mean, I just want you to stay. I can't live without you. I don't want you to be scared of me either. I'm not going to hurt you."
The tears crawled down her face. Denise came rushing in shocked at the sight before her. She came up slowly and sat next to Chloe
"Honey, what's wrong?" she asked wiping the tears.
"Why are you doing this? Don't you just want to get rid of me. I'm a pain, Why do you want someone who's crying over almost nothing?"
"Well, to start it off, I love you, and plus I still don't understand why all the tears," Shane pointed out.
She looked down at her knees.
"Nervous breakdowns aren't easy when you're trying to hide them," she whispered.
Shane pulled her closer into a hug, "but you don't have to hide it from me."
She hugged back. For such a long fight, this was such a short apology. She closed her eyes as she drifted to sleep quickly under Shane's arms. She felt someone pick her up and lay her down on a warm bed, not the wet mess that she had made out of hers.
She felt Shane bend down and kiss her forehead. She opened her eyes to see him the leave the room. She was in his bed room, on his bed.
Her first love.
Her only love.
I wanna break every clock
The hands of time could never move again
We could stay in this moment (stay in this moment)
For the rest of our lives
Is it over now hey, hey, is it over now
I wanna be your last, first kiss
That you'll ever have
I wanna be your last, first kiss
Amazing how life turns out the way that it does
We end up hurting the worst, the only ones we really love
wanna be your last, first kiss
That you'll ever have (that you'll ever have)
I wanna be your last, first love (that you'll ever have)
Till you're lying here beside me with arms and eyes open wide
I wanna be your last, first kiss for all time
a/n: omg, I know u guys think im the worst writer in all of history for not updating fast, say forever, but im really sorry, u cn be really angry at me and never talk to me agn, I deserve it. I've been sooo busy! Life is getting soo hectic! Ill update as soon as I can…agn…im sorry. The song is inevitable by Anberlin, very sweet song.