"The part where you love me." I said softly.
"Bella..." He mumbled, looking down embarrassed, his face flushed a bright red. I could tell this wasn't the way he wanted to do it. But, it didn't matter. It was perfect.
"I love you, too." I spouted out, a little too loudly, surprising even myself. I was almost giddy with the thought of it.
"What?" He lifted his head, his eyes wide.
"Jasper, I love you." I smiled, liking the way that sounded. I wanted to shout it, scream it to the world. It was almost liberating in a way.
"No, I don't think you understand, Bella. I'm in love with you. I want all of you to myself. I know that's selfish, but I don't care. Bella I-"
I ran to him and wrapped my arms tightly around his neck before smashing my lips to his, cutting off whatever he was about to say. It didn't matter. We'd talk about it later. My feet were probably a foot off the ground as his arms wrapped around me, holding me tightly to him. "I. Love. You. Jasper."
"What about Edward?" He asked, pulling away slightly.
"Who?" I said, kissing him forcefully again. I would not have Edward ruin another moment between us. This was our time now.
"I'm serious." He laughed half heartedly, barely pulling his lips away from mine to speak.
"Edward is... complicated. But, I know that what I want is with you. I want to be with you. I love being with you. You make me feel loved. You make me feel like an actual woman and not a child." I ran my fingers through his hair, kissing his face randomly as I spoke.
"One thing I never thought of you as is a child. Trust me darlin, you're all woman." He grinned at me playfully, his eyes gaining some of the sparkle it had been missing earlier.
I carefully wiggled out of his arms and backed up a step. He looked at me curiously as I smiled to him. "Oh, do you really think so?" My hand went to the clip holding my dress up. With a flick of my fingers it puddled to the floor, leaving me in nothing but my bra, panties, and heels. Jasper's face brightened as his eyes went wide, his grin growing.
"I knew it would look better on the floor." He smiled at me playfully before stalking towards me.
I don't know how many times we made love that night. We'd doze off for about an hour or so before one of us would wake up to caressing or kissing. I was so happy that we didn't have to work the next day or I'd just die. Actually, we'd just both call in so we could continue with our... exploration. I was far more interested in him, and our new found feelings that no one would stop me from being with him right now.
We had breakfast in bed, nude. Not that it was much of a breakfast. Cereal wasn't really anything amazing. After we had finished we cuddled up together, just enjoying being close. There wasn't much talking going on the night before, and I knew we needed to discuss what happened.
I was leaning against his bare chest, the blanket wrapped around my body to just over my breasts. His hands were intertwined with mine, bringing up one of my hands to his mouth, kissing the knuckles lightly. I pulled my fingers away from his and dragging the back of my hand against his rough jaw. I knew it was tender so I didn't touch it too firmly. Jasper leaned into my touch, smiling slightly.
"Were you going to tell me last night?" I asked in a soft voice.
"Mhm," he mumbled distractedly, kissing the palm of my hand lightly. "Before we were so rudely interrupted by the hypocrite."
"Hypocrite?" I asked, turning my head to look at him.
"Oh, Edward was there with a date." He smirked, shrugging his shoulders.
"Oh?" I said in surprise.
"Her name is Tanya. And, she has him on a tight leash." He chuckled. "He needs it though. Edward needs someone to stand up to him. That is, if she doesn't dump his stupid ass after last night."
"Standing up to him was never something I did well." I said quietly, blushing slightly.
"Bella, darlin. You have a strong personality, but you want everyone to be happy. You are a people pleaser. You just need someone who is equally worried about your happiness." He said, pushing me off of him so he could look at me.
I tugged on his arm, pulling him on top of me. "Would that person be you?"
With one knee he spread my legs. I felt him hard against my thigh. "Oh yes, I am very worried your pleasure and happiness."
I pressed my hips up, making him simply skim my entrance. He hissed softly. "My pleasure, huh? What about your pleasure?"
I pushed him on to his back and straddled his waist. He slipped inside of me easily. Jasper groaned loudly and gripped my hips, keeping me in place. He smiled up at me, his bright blue eyes sparkling with the same pleasure and happiness that I felt. He moved his hands up my sides, his thumbs skimming the under sides of my breasts. I moaned, throwing my head back.
Okay, we had all the time in the world to talk. And I was okay with that. I was more than okay with that. I knew we would talk about it. I knew Jasper would be sweet, not dominating. I wouldn't have to worry about my opinions not being heard or simply ignored. I slowly began to grind against him, pulling his hands pulling onto my breasts with my own.
"Oh, Jasper." I moaned. "I love you."
It was dark outside. I knew that much. I wasn't totally sure of what time it was. I wouldn't normally care that much but both of our stomachs both began to growl. I moved around our room, getting dressed in a way to make sure to tease Jasper in the process.
"Why don't we just go out to eat?" He offered, still nude in bed. The evidence of my teasing visible under the covers.
"No, I want to cook." I said, slipping on my coat.
"Then let me go with you." He said, making an effort to get out of bed.
I crawled up and pulled the covers back over him. "You are tired. Nap. I want you to have energy for later. I'm a big girl. I can go by myself."
"We can order pizza." He said in a last ditch effort. I could tell I was winning.
"I want to cook dinner for my man." I said in a playfully forceful voice. He grinned at me and pulled me down for a kiss. "I'll be back in a little while."
"Okay," he pouted.
"Don't look like I stole your puppy." I teased.
"I think taking the beautiful naked girl out of my bed is far worse." He said, his hand snaking to my backside.
I slapped his hand away, giggling. "Do you need anything?"
"Hm..." He smiled wickedly at me.
"Never mind." I giggled. "Pervert."
Jasper smiled ruefully. "I love you."
I leaned down and gave him another peck on the lips before heading out of the door. To say I had a bounce in my step was an understatement. I felt like I could float on air. It didn't matter what happened before he told me that he loved me. I didn't care about the drama. It was pointless and stupid. But, it had a way of biting you in the ass when you're at the highest points.
When I got to my truck I stopped dead. On the hood there was Edward, waiting for me. He was still wearing his tux from the night before, his hair in every direction, looking rather unshaven. There were purple circles under his eyes and his eyes themselves were red. He looked to have had a rough night.
"How long have you been here?"
"A while." He shrugged, absently. "I'm sorry."
"What for, exact?" I asked, crossing my arms over my chest.
"Everything. Anything. I'm ass." He sighed, sliding down from the hood.
"Got that right." I said sharply.
"I deserve that." He nodded. "And, so much more."
"You deserve to have the crap beat out of you for hitting my boyfriend." I said tersely.
"I'm surprised Jasper didn't do it last night." He mumbled, looking down at his feet.
"I was starting to gather up the bail money when he didn't show up right after me last night." I said sarcastically.
"Were you also this... vicious?" He asked me from under his eye lashes. There was a slightly bemused expression on his face. I looked down and smiled slightly to myself.
"Yes, just not to you."
"What was different about me?" He asked quietly.
I shrugged. "I'm wondering that myself."
He sighed heavily and leaned against the grill of my truck. "I just keep fucking up, don't I? I just got so angry when I saw you dancing with him. And you looked so happy. I could never get you to dance, willingly anyway. And then he kissed you and I..."
"Lost it?" I offered.
"Yeah. All I saw was red. Is he okay, by the way?" He asked, looking away from me.
"Oh, he's just fine." I said, mimicking his pose on the hood on truck. "How's Tanya?"
"She's fine. She's a little mad at- oh... I guess he told you then?" Edward asked, blushing. "He was right to call me a hypocrite last night."
"How long have you two been together?" I asked conversationally.
"A couple weeks." He shrugged. "I don't know how long it's going to last. I mean, I like her but she's no... you." He smiled at me sheepishly.
"Well, we didn't work out. So maybe she's more what you need. Edward, don't let what we had in the past ruin what you might have in the future."
"I know that." He muttered. "It's easier said than done."
"It's easier when you don't think about it so hard." I replied quickly. "You over think everything."
"One of my many faults, I guess." Edward replied sourly.
"It's not always a fault." I smiled at him, touching his hand.
He took my hand and we stood there in silence for a long time. Neither of knew what to say. I wasn't angry at Edward. I had no real emotion towards Edward anymore. Except maybe frustration. "I miss you." He said quietly.
"Edward, we will be friends. We'll get there." I told him.
"Are you so sure? Think Jasper will forgive me?"
"He will. It might just take some time." I shrugged, pushing off the truck. My hand was still in his.
"So, he's a permanent thing, huh?"
I scoffed on how he phrased it. "Yeah, pretty permanent. He'll be around for a while."
After that we said our goodbyes. The moment was awkward, like most of the conversation. He placed a gentle kiss on my lips before going off to his Volvo. If I didn't know him better I would have worried about him driving.
I went to the grocery store and picked up everything we needed. I grabbed some New York strips and some baking potatoes, along with butter, sour cream, bacon bits, and cheese to top it off with. I knew how Jasper liked it.
It was strange to be in the store without him. I liked having him by my side, his hand on the small of my back while I pushed the cart. The way he would grab stuff he knew that I liked without even asking anymore. But these were all things we did before. It made me wonder how long I really loved him. It also made me wonder why just now I was wondering all the amazing things he did. I didn't have the answer for that.
I grabbed salad makings next before going to get the stuff for ice cream sundaes. We had skipped lunch and I was starving. I guess it would true that you should never shop when you're hungry.
I quickly loaded the stuff up in my truck and headed home. I was missing him pretty badly at this point. I wondered briefly if it was pathetic, but I didn't care. I was happy.
I lugged everything up stairs to hear music blasting from the front. I smiled to myself as I opened the front door. I put everything on the table, looking around for Jasper, but he was no where to be found. I went into our bedroom to find it empty, and the bathroom door was open so that left the kitchen. Jasper was bouncing a bit to the music, in nothing but jeans that hung low on hips. I couldn't see exactly what he was fiddling with on the counter, but he was really into whatever he was doing.
"Hi there, cowboy." I said in a teasing tone, grabbing his attention.
"Hey, darlin. I was thinking we could have some margaritas with dinner. What do you think?" He said with a bright smile and sparkling eyes.
"That would be perfect."
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