i'm so sorry that i have not updated in like a month or something...i was going through something and if i would have tried to write anything it would have been horrible or i would have written about what was going on and...i don't think anybody should feel like i felt...it sucked!

i'm poor so obviously i don't own Twilight or it's characters...BOO! lol

I heard this annoying buzzing sound. At first I didn't know what it was, then I remembered that we had to go to school. I leaned over and turned off the alarm. I looked over to see Jesse still sleeping. I decided that I should wake him since I didn't know what he wanted to do this morning. I mean, it's not like he had different clothes to change into for school.

I scooted toward Jesse and kissed him by his jaw. I felt him the muscles contract under my lips so I could tell he was smiling. He turned his head and kissed me. It was a short, but sweet kiss. I pulled away.

"I figured that I should wake you up so you would have enough time to get home and change for school. I didn't think you wanted to wear the same thing you did yesterday." I said the last part giggling a little.

"Yeah. That probably wouldn't be a good idea. Alice would kill me and make a huge scene about that one." he stated unwillingly.

"Alice a fashion freak, then?" I asked as I giggled.

He nodded.

He groaned as he sat up. Then, he got up in search of his clothes. When he finally found them, he put them on. I don't think he wanted to go home. I have a feeling that Alice would have a few choiced words to say to him when he got back home.

Jesse was just staring at me. That was when I realized I was sitting on my bed naked, so he was probably getting a good view.

"Like what you see?" I asked giggling. I noticed that his eyes got wider when I did.

Then he blushed.

Before I knew what was going on, his mouth was on mine. He was kissing me hard and urgently. I pulled away.

"If you don't leave now, then we will never get to school." I stated.

"Who said I want to go to school? I much rather us staying in bed all day..." he trailed off suggestively.

I gave him a look that told him that we had to go to school.

He sighed. "Fine. I'm going." He pecked me goodbye and left my room. I didn't moved until I heard the front door close.

I got up and got in the shower. It was nice and hot. Though it also allowed me to think though last night's events. I truely didn't regret it. He did a lot for me and I knew he truely cared for me. The things he's already done for me, far out reach everyone. Possibly even my mother. I realized that sometime in the past twenty-four hours I had become dependant on his presence. I missed him already.

Maybe it was because he was one of the only people to see me for me and accept it, flaws and all. When he was making love to me last night, or rather this morning, it was his way of saying he was here. That he wanted to protect me, even from myself. He actually wanted me.

It was a stange feeling. Nobody but Shauna has ever wanted me of their own free will. When I thought about it, I got this warm, fuzzy feeling that spread at a rapid pace though my body. I didn't know what to do with it. I'd gotten so used to feeling cold that I forgotten what it felt like to be warm, loved.

With that thought I finished my shower. I got dressed in jeans, baby blue, scoop neck tee, and chucks. I was confortable, and in my opinion, I still looked good. I bounded down the stairs at that moment. I actually made it down in one peice. Then, I tripped over probably nothing. I didn't fall on my face thankfully. Then, I heard a chuckle.

I looked over to see Phil sipping his coffee. It startled me. I completely forgot about Phil. That was the first time I heard him laugh since mom died.

"Morning Phil." I greeted and walked to the kitchen to get some cereal.

"Sounds like someone had a good night last night." Phil stated and it sounded like he was trying to resrain a smile.

I froze. How that hell did I forget about Phil? I had no answer to that question. I turned slowly. He was restraining a smile. I didn't know what to do or say. I just stared at him in horror. He found that amusing, because he was laughing at my expression now.

"Don't worry about it. I just wanted to see how you would react. I don't really mind as long as it doesn't wake me up and that you are being safe." Phil replied with a smile.

I blushed and smiled back. Then I realized something was different about him. He was happier. It looked like a huge weight had been lifted off his shoulders. Maybe he found a good friend to talk to about all of this. Or maybe he went to see a shrink to talk to about it. Whatever it was, it was working and I was glad it was. I didn't want to see him unhappy. He deserved something good in his life.

"You look better as well. Whatever you did, you should keep doing it. It looks like you actually slept last night. I'm not going to ask because it's not really my business, but I'm glad you found something good in your life." I told him with a smile.

He seemed a little shocked. "Thanks Bella. I don't really have time to tell you about it right now, but in the near future I'm sure I will." he smiled. Well, it looked a little forced but it was progress. With that thought, he left.

I ate my cereal, and gathered my things and headed toward the door. Just as I was walking to it, there was a knock. I was a little confused, but then I realized only one person knew where I lived.

I opened the door and sure enough it was Jesse. I all but tackled him and kissed him. He chuckled.

"Well, I see someone missed me. I thought we could walk to school together." he said and offered me his hand. I grabbed it and we started walking.

It was silent. So I started thinking about my morning. I giggled when I thought of what Phil said to me as I was getting my cereal. Jesse looked over with a questioning look.

"Phil knows you stayed over last night." I stated. His eyes got wide. It was actually a funny expression, a mix of horror, fear, and shock. I laughed out loud.

"Hey! This isn't funny! What did he say?! Does he want to kill me?!" he practically yelled at me.

"No he's not mad. Actually, it was rather funny. He said he doesn't care as long as we don't wake him and we are being safe."

he sighed in relief.

"I think he found it rather amusing because that was the first time I seen him smile since my mom died. He actually looked rather good today. I looked like he actually got some sleep last night." I informed him as I smiled.

"Well that's good. I'm glad he doesn't mind because after last night I don't know how much I would be able to stay away from you." he replied.

"Oh, hey, what happened this morning at your house? I mean, did you get in trouble or anything?" I asked.

"No I didn't get into trouble. Alice covered for me as I knew she would. I cover for her all the time, you see. She did yell at me for not calling her, but other than that, nothing. My dad is really gullable, so it's not too hard to convince him of anything." I told me.

"So Alice knows where you were last night?" I asked. I had to be prepared in case she said anything.

"No. Then I told her that she didn't need to know and I reminded her that I don't ask when she sneaks out with Jasper. That was an easy fight." he said with a laugh.

"Okay. I wanted to be prepared in case she asked me about it or something like that." I told him.

"I figure if you want her to know you'd tell her. I didn't want to put you in an akward position." he added sweetly.

"Thank you. I'm not ready to tell anyone here about that yet. If I do tell someone then I'll let you know since you hang out with the only other two people I know." I told him with a smile. Why am I smiling so much? I guess I can't help it.

"Thanks so much." he said and then gave me a light peck.

I heard several gasps. I looked around and noticed we were in the middle of the campus with everyone staring at us. It was rather funny, really. Some people's mouth's dropped. I laughed quietly as we continued walking toward where we met Alice and Jasper before. We didn't talk the rest of the way. Before I knew it I was looking at Alice and Jasper. They smiled and looked down at our hands.

They looked a little confused but shrugged it off. I said goodbye to Jesse when I realized that actually had to go to class. He gave me a short but sweet peck and walked off towards his first period class.

As I walked beside Alice and Jasper, I could feel their stares. Well, actually I could feel everyone staring at me. It wasn't exactly a good feeling. Finally, we got to class and took our seats. I could Alice and Jasper were ready to burst.

"Okay, Bella. So, what changed over night?" Alice asked me. I knew it would be her to ask too.

"Alice, please don't take this the wrong way, but I don't really want to get into it right now." I told pleading with my eyes to let it rest.

"Alright. But don't think I wont get it out of you sooner or later." she warned.

I sighed and turned my attention to the teacher.

Ok there's chapter 5! i decided to break it up into 2 chapters.

Phil has a lover. that's why he's doing so much better. if anyone can guess who it is then i will use their name in this story somehow. i may even give them a say in what they want their character to be like...