AUTHORS NOTE:

Hello! My friend Nicole and I thought this up at one in the morning. I have never written an Edward/Jasper fic before so I hope this turns out ok! This is the first chapter. I might get a lot of flames for this from people who really think that Edward should only be with Bella, but even if I do, I will just roast marshmallows on them :] –Kay

Disclaimer: As much as I keep wishing, I am not Stephenie Meyer, and Twilight doesn't belong to me.

Edwards POV

I couldn't help but wonder if the brunt of my love for Bella was left underground in Italy along with the Volturi. These thoughts processed repeatedly, whirring around in my mind as Bella acknowledged my constant glances, but not quite understanding what they meant.

The plane ride back to Forks was almost as unbearable as my time without her. She didn't sleep the whole was and I discovered I was disappointed. Maybe, I thought in spite of myself, I liked her better when she was... please excuse my thoughts. I sighed heavily and placed my arm tightly around her shoulder, where it belonged. Troubled, I wondered if I wanted all of the scars that heroin would surely leave me as I inhaled her addicting scent.

Bella shifted in her seat, the scent was thicker for a brief second. My grip tightened a bit as we finally prepared for landing. She grunted as the plane glided forward on the pavement, stopping less than gracefully. The flight attendant stuttered slightly as she thanked the passengers for choosing the specific airline.

I slowly realized that people all around us were gathering their belongings and leaving through the planes front exit and Bella took up her things. I stood like all the others and stepped out; finally able to release a small amount of the stress and confusion I had built up on the plane.
"Edward?" Bella sighed tiredly.

"Yes, love?" Bella was silent, but gave me a small but genuine smile and a knowing glance. I knew I had to get her out of the airport as soon as possible.

The minutes passed much slower as I would have liked them to, and as my family made our way to the familiar cars, my doubtful thoughts waxed again, possessing my submissive mind.

Rosalie had apologized to Bella, though my thoughts toward my sister were still as bitter as before. Bella accepted it, as we all knew she would. There wasn't much else to be said as Forks became closer and closer.

Home was the same as I had left it. I knew it must have been me that had changed. I breathed in the familiar air of the place, with Bella at my side. I had never noticed how much my family had depended on me until now, especially Esme as she locked me in a motherly embrace. All the while, I watched Bella's deep brown eyes, longing to know what she was thinking now more than ever.

Jaspers POV

The whole family was sitting around the 'dining room' table, except for Edward, who was beside Bella. Never in my dreams would I have expected that I would have to vote on Bella's fate. I looked down at the cold smooth surface, knowing what side I was expected to vote on. I loved Bella like a sister, really, but I didn't know if I would be able to adjust to Edward and Bella being together.

As long as she didn't stay human, I supposed, all would be fine. I hated myself for what I had done to her on her eighteenth birthday. I knew I was a monster, but it never hit me what it could mean until then. None of this would have happened if I would have been capable of controlling myself, and I wouldn't let anyone tell me otherwise. For some reason, I thought I would miss Edward being alone, single. To my surprise I found myself worried that he wouldn't need me, or the whole family as much as I knew we needed him. The months without him truly were hell.

I spoke my vote, knowing that Bella was good for Edward. "Yes." Was all I said, all I could say. Bella needed to be with Edward, and that was just the way things should be. Hopefully Bella wouldn't be a fool of a new born as I was.

Rosalie was the only one who had said no, even though she knew she was clearly going to be outnumbered.

The rest of us had agreed on yes, but Edwards reaction was less than expected. Truly, I had never seen him as frustrated as he was right then. The tension in the room was unmask able, no matter how hard I tried to calm.

He shouted no over and over again, my eyes growing wide. I couldn't understand. The family bickered a bit about who would be changing the girl. Edward stormed into the other room, breaking something large as it let out an earsplitting crash. Instead of coming back, Edward decided to direct his sudden rage elsewhere. Pulling open the back door, he ran outside. The whole family was still, Bella shocked to the verge of tears. Her emotions were driving me mad, as well as the rest of the families.

I made the split decision to run after Edward. Something inside of me told me it was the right thing to do. Perhaps brotherly instincts...

I finally caught up with Edward at the edge of the woods.

"Edward, please don't do this." A burst of speed allowed me to get close enough to grab his wrist, pinning him to a tree.

We stared at each other for a moment, frustration and conflict in his eyes, distress and confusion in mine. His emotions were getting the best of me.

"Stop this, right now." I said, breathing heavily trying to keep him in place.
"What's wrong with you, Edward? Before, you were my brother, and Bella's boyfriend, and a loving son! What turned you into...this?" He finally quit struggling, and stayed when I let him go. I rarely spoke like this, and I could tell there was a chance that he would actually listen to me.

"Bella needs you, and you need her. We voted, and thought you would be happy. Don't you want her forever? Don't you want to stay out of trouble with the Volturi? You all but promised them she would be changed."

Edward closed his eyes for a moment.

"But what if I don't want this." He replied quietly.

"What do you mean you don't want this, Edward? Look, I know you never want to hurt her, but you already have. The burn of the venom will only be temporary when you bite her, then she'll be like us. Its Bellas choice..." I said, trying to be the voice of reason to Edwards concern.

"No, that's not what I meant." Edward shook his head and gritted his teeth. He was quieter; this wasn't something he wanted anyone else to hear. He looked into my eyes.

"I mean, what if I don't want this. What if I don't want... Bella."

Ok! So that's about it for now. I hope you don't mind the cliff hanger! Please rate and review and I will be sure to return the favor.