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WARNING: Reid might be a bit OOC here.. It contains drug abuse.

Right and wrong...

Black and white...

Has anyone ever contemplated their true meaning?

Who has the right to tell anyone how to behave?

As much as I try to figure it out, I never manage.

So is it wrong for me to get some help to deal with life...?

Why do people frown at it when it's discovered?

Don't they understand that it's harmless...

That I NEED it...

Too much has happened-

My courage is diminished

My personality is jaded

My coping ability is already addicted to it.

To close my eyes at night...

To surrender myself to the unknown...

It's too much

I need the control it provides...

The safe-haven

A peace of mind for a little while

So I put on my mask-

Let go of the world surrounding me,

And reach for the bottle of dilaudid...

That has become my loyal companion.

I smile as it numbs the pain of life and as the peace descends.