37Here's the next chapter, i combined two chapters for this one. I'd like to note that these chapters posted were written months in advanced and this story was put on hiatus. So there's probably one more chapter left, due to i'll combine chapter 9 and 10. I'm sorry but i'm currently working on my new sotry True Love. So when i'm finished with that one i'll contuine on this one. Thanks for understanding All kudos to SM
Without thinking I just said what was on my mind
"You really should warn me before you dazzle me again because I can't think correctly" I could have sworn he let out a chuckle but it was a whisper.
"Oh Bella nothing ever gets past you does it? You notice me like no one has ever before that's why I love you so much."Gosh could he be even more perfect than he already is, the way he says it makes me feel like some spas or something. His voice is so musical but beautiful in every known way. The way he said Love made my heart fluttery away into the clouds, now I really want those memories back so I could remember all the good times we had together. I wonder if we ever got hot and steamy with each other.
No Bella don't think now. He was too much like a gentleman… What girl wouldn't give anything to be with him, they would sell their soul to the devil for a chance with him? But I knew that he truly loved and had so many memories of us, but than I felt so horrible inside. I was so driven to forget I truly missed the old me. I just had to anything to be myself again, than I noticed Edward's cool touch on my face. It was as if fire and ice together. I never asked Edward why he was always cool. I had a hunch he wasn't like other boys his age. Just something about him…Something I couldn't explain… Am I crazy oh I am…
"Edward what are doing to be?" His hand was still on my face, it was burning but it felt so right. I let out a quiver. He hadn't noticed thankfully. I looked at his face while he was doing this, his bronze hair was so memorizing and how his skin was so cool. It was like something I couldn't explain. He let his hand drop to his side and leaned closer to my ear, his breath was so cool against it and the sent nearly drove me into cardiac arrest. His breathing was irregular like he was nervous, but you couldn't tell… In a whisper he began to talk, still close to my ear….
"Bell I'm not doing anything to you, when I'm around you I feel so alive like nothing can take you way from me. I will always love you Isabella Swan… no matter what comes our way.."
As he was saying those words it just felt right putting my hands on his chest which wasn't too bad, I could tell he was well defined. Gosh… So perfect I wanted to kiss him again but unfortunately there was a knock at the door. Oh come on this is ridiculous, we were just about to kiss again…Than I let my hands go freely from his chest… "Come in" The door opened slowly and it was Dr. Cullen again.
"Oh I'm sorry Bella and Edward I see you were having a moment to yourselves, how very rude of me to barge in like this"
I could tell in voice he was surprised and a little uneasy about us being so close. Edward looked to his father and shook his head a little, "Really Carlisle we were just finishing things up. So what's the news on taking Bella out of here for alternative treatment?" looking to me
"Everything is in order for her transfer to our House, Charlie and Renée have fully agreed about this and so has . They all understand that things can go either way with this. Are you truly sure Bella that you're able to go through this? I can't promise but I can help in a way." I looked to him and I could see the unsteadiness in his eyes it was obvious, but his words didn't scare me.
What scared me was what things will be like after I regain my memoires. Where do I and Edward lie in future together? No matter what happens to me I'm one-hundred percent sure I want to go through with this. I want my life back and surly to get out of this hell whole of a place. I know I love Edward deep inside and this is the only way for us to be fully together again. To have both sides of the heart joined as one again than yes I'm ready…
(April 4, 2008-Cullen Home)
We arrived to the Cullen's house sometime after twilight, already another day gone. We would have been here earlier but had to take care of some things before he checked me out of the hospital. When we left I saw Nurse Harwood give me the most evil eye stare every… But whatever I was gone from that place and arriving at the Cullen home. I hadn't paid much attention to where we were driving, but it seemed as if the house was hidden from the world.
They finally stopped and before I opened the door, Edward was standing at my side. I hadn't noticed he was already out of the car… He held out his long pale fingers for me the grab and when I did I felt a shock go through me again. He didn't care though and helped me up to the stairs and opened the door for me. It was beautiful inside the house. I knew I've been here before but it was a dim memory though. There at the top of the stairs stood a petite girl with spiky short hair who skipped down stairs as if she was dancing though.
She didn't come very close to me keeping her distance… She looked upon me and she seemed sad in a way, she could see the pain of my face and the sadness that I had. But than again I think it was just starting to disappear little by little. Or so I though to myself…
"Bella it's good to see you again" it seemed like she was resisting to hug me or something but she didn't. Gosh I didn't remember her name… I had to ask her but if felt rude in a way. I tried clearing my throat some more and managed to let some words out
"I'm terrible sorry but who are you again?" Her face went from extremely happy to just terrified in such a way like somebody had just stabbed her in the heart.
The pixie like girl seemed frozen for a few seconds and finally managed to speak.
"I'm Alice Cullen!"
Her voice seemed heartbroken in a way... I had to say something but I didn't know what to say, I was utterly confused so I did what I knew and just freaked out a little bit, I saw Edward's hand and quickly grabbed it and digged my nails into him so I wouldn't loose it again. He seemed not to mind he never flinched.. That's when more people came into the room. There was another girl with stunning beauty and her long blond hair and her tallness which made me re-think how I looked.
The first boy had blond hair that stood further away from the others he seemed to have a very charismatic personality sense to him and I felt very calm around him. Than another one was extremely huge… who looked like one of those wrestlers on TV or something. For some reason he made me feel very intimidated by him. There stood another woman, her caramel-colored hair; caught my eye and how she had a heart-shaped face with beautiful dimples. Than Edward was no longer at my side, he was standing in front of me. Normal 0 false false false MicrosoftInternetExplorer4 !- /* Style Definitions */ , , {mso-style-parent:""; margin:0in; margin-bottom:.0001pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:12.0pt; font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman";} h3 {mso-margin-top-alt:auto; margin-right:0in; mso-margin-bottom-alt:auto; margin-left:0in; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; mso-outline-level:3; font-size:13.5pt; font-family:"Times New Roman";} a:link, {color:blue; text-decoration:underline; text-underline:single;} a:visited, {color:purple; text-decoration:underline; text-underline:single;} -headline {mso-style-name:mw-headline;} page Section1 {size:8.5in 11.0in; margin:1.0in 1.25in 1.0in 1.25in; mso-header-margin:.5in; mso-footer-margin:.5in; mso-paper-source:0;} 1 {page:Section1;} - He looked to me and I was extremely calm now and he spoke,
"Bella this is my family, there's Rosalie and Jasper who are twins, than we have Emmet and finally my mother Esme".Than he was back to my side and took my hand gently, I had to say something I didn't want them to think I was rude… Again I cleared my throat barely
"Thank you all for allowing me to come to you home and having treat me in a good environment" As I was speaking to them I noticed the blond hair girl I think here name was Rosalie was just giving me such an evil eye, please I really didn't need this… I got enough of it from that bitch of Nurse… now from his sister too… After I finished my speech Esme walked slowly over to me and Edward. She gave Edward a hug and she turned to me, as if she was going to hug me too but stopped half-way though… She came over to me.
"Hello Bella, its good have you here again and to see Edward here as well. I know you don't remember us dear but we remember you. You and Edward were so happy together and when he left he was just as broken as you were dear. He moved away for a year and finally managed to come home last New Years Eve, but he was still empty and missing a part of himself. So I pray that this works for you and that you too may be together again fully." I really had no clue what to say to here, but I understood on some level she was right, as we were apart we weren't one… Even with no memory I knew somehow I wasn't complete with my other half… I wish I never made this choice to erase my memories… I put my hand on my nose bridge and took a deep breath when I looked up the room was empty and at the corner stood Edward directing towards him, I walked as fastly as I could without tripping over something or myself for that matter. We led me toward the stairs all to the back of the hose; we stopped at the last room… He turned around and looked ne in the eyes, even in the darkness of the hallway I could see his eyes staring right at me… Dazzling me as usual this always managed to make my heart beat twice the speed… " This is my room" he said it in such a way that made me dizzy I though I'd just faint right there so he's have to catch me in his arms like some classic old movie…A girl could dream… Then I got to thinking… Have I ever been inside his room and what did we do? Get a hold of yourself Bella, stop thinking about it… well I could fantasize though… He opened the door to his room and there lie a huge bed with gold rails… A wall full of music and a black couch… By the bed there was Dr. Cullen and a mysterious woman. She was dressed very different from us, her skin of ebony and her dark long hair in braids. I admit she kind of scared me in someway… But thankfully I had Carlisle and Edward by my side. The woman turned to me and stared me up and down and than she looked me directly in the eyes… Was something wrong with me or something, I knew I was crazy but come one just stop it…I kind of froze for a moment… Than she turned back to Carlisle and finally spoke
"This is girl you talk about Carlisle, the one whose memories are completely damaged" This woman spoke in such a deep Jamaican accent, I really didn't understand her that much though.
Carlisle looked from the woman to me, looking at me he nodded and I saw Edward now standing bye him. I was kind of confused, what was really going here. My worries sonly became out right fear. Than I looked to Carlisle and than… he spoke softly… "Bella I would like you to meetDrusilla Stone, and she's what you call a witch doctor… I really had no words to say about this…
"A witch doctor? How in the HELL is she supposed to help me?" In a very anger tone
"Is this some kind of sick joke Dr. Cullen, giving people false hope about regaining there lost memories. You should be fired for this… How do you expect some crazed woman to help me? She's problem a fraud! I can't handle this anymore"
I need to make a run for it… The doors blocked… Looks like I'll be jumping out the window… I was ready for it I sprinted to the window and about to crash into it and suddenly a force pulled me away and onto the bed. I was shaken by it and terrified…
"Why the hell just happened to me, what do you do?" Edward tied to come closer to me but I so afraid of him, something wasn't right about him at all. No human could do that. What have I gotten myself into this time? He tried to put his arms on me and I screamed out in anger to get away from me, he quickly got away and I started to yell out profanities at them and the Woman looked to Carlisle and he nodded his head and she began speaking in some odd language. I didn't understand anything that was going on here, then it started my body began shaking out of control violently. Something was happening to me and I didn't know what. I began screaming louder and louder and I saw Edward get on top of meto hold me down…To stop me form shaking and then he suddenly was thrown across the room like some force pushed him away. The woman's body was moving up and down and Carlisle went to Edward's side to help him up and there faces were shocked at what they were seeing in front of them. I was in so much pain and I wanted to die… I felt something wanting to escape my body. The pain was getting excruciating and unbearable now. I begged G-d to kill me now and end this pain… I screamed again louder than I had ever and than the pain was going away slowly… It was gone… I looked above the bed and saw a cloud of darkness, it came from me, in a low voice I spoke "Oh my g-d what the hell was that" as I kept looking up at this dark entity, I saw Edward and Carlisle still staring at this thing and than occasionally at me, but something was wrong with after this. I felt so week… I couldn't move at all… I started to get very sleepy fighting to keep my eyes opened on Edward, who was now staring at me with an uneasy look, like he knew something was wrong with me… I took a light breath and than all I saw was a bright white light…