Why…

Why did you leave me?

I lay here thinking how this could be. We had dated for 4 yrs and you proposed to me on our 4th anniversary. You used to be so cold but I melted that cold barrier you had around your heart. You started smiling and laughing….

I thought my life couldn't have been better….you were the one and I knew it. Like when you would hold me close to you and we would gaze upon the stars. You told me I was the one; I was the woman you wanted to marry.

A year later we got married it was the happiest day of my life…but it soon fell apart…our marriage fell to pieces…I knew this was the end.

On our 2nd wedding anniversary…I told you to be home by 6 you said that was fine….I had set up a romantic diner. I had candles, the food the roses everything. B-b-but you never showed up. An hour later I cleaned up the roses. I put the food away, and everything else I had put out for us. I slipped out of my silk black dress that I bought for the occasion. I went to bed crying…..I have cried more times than I can count. Over the past year you have been so distant. Coming home late, never being around….nothing.

"WHY! WHY THE FUCK DID YOU DO THIS TO ME! WHY ME *SOB*!" I shouted as I cry. I curl up into a ball under the blankets in our bed. I cried myself to sleep.

You came home late I heard you it was 3 in the morning. I looked at you as you climbed in bed. You saw me and tensed….I just stared at you I looked at you coldly and said I don't care anymore. And turned facing the wall and fell asleep. Knowing you was watching me.

The next day I awoke and you were gone once again.

I quickly ran to the bathroom and threw up; I was pregnant and have been for the last month….we were drunk when it happen, not that you would care anyways.

I packed up my clothes after I took a shower, I was wearing some shorts with some black converses with a red and black studded belt, with a red shirt and a black sweater. By three o'clock I had my stuff in a u-haul truck with the help of some friends and had them drop my things off at my new house.

I looked at the house once more before I left….and leaving a letter and …..DIVORCE papers behind. Also put the key under the mat for you to find.

XXXXXXXXXLEAVEING YOUXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

Sesshomaru's pov

I knew you knew about my affairs….

You proved that to me last night…..how….how could this happen?

How could I hurt you this way?

Why did I …*sigh* I don't know

I left for work early thinking you needed to calm down. I bought you your favorite flowers to make up for last night.

How could I forget that was our anniversary?!

Or your birthday ….how could I miss it all!?

'DAMNIT! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?!'I shouted in my mind.

At around 3 I kept getting this feeling something bad was going to happen, but I ignored

It thinking it was something unimportant.

…that's until…..

Around 4 I left to go home. When I got there I saw that all the lights were off, I seemed

Odd because usually they were on….when a thought popped into my head.

NO!

She couldn't have….. I ran inside and looked everywhere you were nowhere to be seen.

I looked in our room and saw the papers…..my heart shattered.

They were divorce papers.

There was a letter too….

Dear sesshomaru, (what happen to my nicknames?)

I'm sorry to say….well not really but anyways as you can see I left.

I'm not coming back. (Not come back

I can't deal with this heart break anymore. This is just too much to handle. You cheated on me….I know. (I'm sorry)

I'm not stupid it was obvious I …I just didn't want to believe it. Ha-ha I guess you could call me a fool but (no you aren't a fool I was the fool)

I will no longer be the fool. I must move on, this is the end….goodbye. (No please don't end this)

I howled in pain.

I have finally lost the one I truly ever have loved…..and I don't even know where she is…my love.

******* 4 yrs later*******

It's been 4 yrs since I left you…..I have been fine.

I have been a single mother.

I have given birth to a beautiful boy.

His name is Sikaru Takashi I thought that he should have your last name

Even though you are a jackass….*sigh* I heard you got married.

I'm…I'm…happy for you.

I'm glad she gives you the happiness I could never give you.

Sikaru is beautiful….he has you silver hair, with my blue eyes. He so tall and big.

He reminds me of you but he isn't as cold as you ha-ha

Sesshomaru pov

*sigh*

It's been 4 years,

I hope your happy ….I remarried.

I was forced though, because we had to merge businesses.

…..I'm walking down to the park right now to remember the day I proposed to you.

*sigh* I lay down looking at the stars remembering when It was you and me and how we would lay here together,

If only…..I hadn't made that stupid mistake….

I miss you…..

You were my missing piece ….you fit me perfectly….I love you…..I miss you…..come back…..